It's not okay to try to cut your self in the middle of class.

I get that this person might actually cut

But I don't see scars

And I know he has mocked suicide before because I heard it my self.

And that's not okay.

I'm not dealing with it.

You don't make fun of suicide because it's like making fun of someone dying the most painful death.

Wanting to kill your self is a mental issue which needs to be sorted out and slowly mended.

You wouldn't make fun of people with mental issues so why would you make fun of suicidal people.

Now it's not that I think suicidal people hate insane. No.

They are beings like us who have not gotten enough of what they need to help their self esteem.

They are the ones who experience so much pain that the only way to end it all is death.

And this guy is just sitting there using the side of his I phone 4s to cut him self.

That's not okay.

So I went up to the teacher and told her about it. She said she'd do something about it. But seeing how she treats Peter and always sends him to the office for trying to get people to stop bullying him she won't do anything about it.

Sadly this is what our society has become.

We don't listen to both sides.

And people don't care about anyone but them selves.

This is not the world I want to live in.

But instead of taking my own life because I hate this world I will try to change it.

It may not be the whole world but if I could stop bullying in just one school I would feel like I did something to help stop the problem.

Bullying is not okay and I am tired of being a bystander.

If the adults who are supposed to help the younger kids go the right way won't do shit then I will.

Because bullying is like murder.

You say all these hateful things which slowly drains the life out of them.

I mean the people who bully the other person who committed suicide should be convicted of murder. Why? Because you basically made them hurt so fucking much that anything would be better than going back to school.

It's like handing them the gun they shoot or giving them the pills.

It's like forcing the bleach down their throat and tying the noose they put their head through.

And when you make fun of suicide it's like making fun of a dying human. If some one were dying you would laugh you'd feel bad even just the slightest.

But sadly society has gotten to the point where we laugh at pain. I mean look at all these "Funny" videos. Please link me one video like that were people don't get hurt or some sort of insult is thrown around or some sexual thing isn't hidden in context.

It's horrible. It's not funny and it's nothing to joke about. I won't stand for it either.

Now. I'm a quiet person who never really speaks in class unless called on and no one really knows I exist.

So when I yell your name in the middle of a presentation you know you've messed up.

I hate attention. I don't like it when people look at me.

But I yelled his name and made a small scene about it. Not enough to grab the teachers attention by enough to get my tables attention.

Then Sara and I kindly tried to get him to stop.

But he didn't. I told him many times by he wouldn't and because I knew his friend Jack pretty well (I'm friends with his older brothers and I know his late s pretty well because they r neighbor's and stuff) I asked him to get Nick to stop.

He stopped.

Honestly I feel bad I didn't make more of a scene or stop him my self.

How ever I feel a little more confident because possible I might have gotten my voice in that thick skull of his so when ever he makes a joke like that my voice will be in the back of his head telling him to stop.

Now either way this rant has been long enough.

Thank you if you made it this far.

Also don't be like me.

Don't stand around when you see bullying because if you do it becomes and habit.

Stand up for the person being bullied even if you don't like them because who knows, maybe one day that might be you and they could be looking at you thinking "They didn't help me so why should I help them?"

Not even that but you may save a life.

So please.

If you've been a quiet by stander like me for a while take charge now wether it be cyber bullying or real life things.

Now personally I think it's easier to do anything over the Internet.

I find it easier to be myself because I know if someone doesn't like me they can't hurt me and if it gets back I can block them.

I find it easier to stand up because your words last for ever and if you draw attention to the situation people will try to stop it as well and every reply they get they will see everyone trying to stop them and see they are wrong.

It's harder in real life because people know you can't you can't just hit a block button or hide behind a screen.

They can hit you and do many nasty things.

But you've got to keep in mind that if you stand up for someone in real life that you made a mark in someone's life. That your not a anonymous user and that you can't be muted or blocked either.

Because in real life you have a voice. A say and all that person can do to stop you is either listen or to try to block you out.

But it never works that way because if people see you doing the right thing they may join you then they can't really block it or anymore.

Anyway ramble ramble. Bullying is bad.

Thanks for listing and yeah.

You're all amazing because which actually read about my life problems. It's just feels nice I guess to rant on the internet not because j want attention but it's just that you know at least one person will listen.