I sighed sadly holding Petes tanned cold hand as he laid in the small white bed, machines beeping annoyingly but showing he was alive.

I got the call last week that he had attempted suicide, my world ended at that moment and I ran to see him. I've been here ever since, I skipped school staying with him because I knew it was all my fault.

His letter told me not to blame myself but it was all my fault for being too pushy, he was worried about getting arrested and I should've respected that but I'm just clingy and over protective causing the person I love to be laying struggling to stay alive on this bed in front of me....this is touter.

I kissed his cold hand. I couldn't produce anymore tears, I had let them all out already this past week. The thought of 'he's in here because I'm a fuck up' kept running through my head.

The machines started going crazy so I pressed the nurse button having five nurses rush in and shoo me out, I stood outside looking in the little window where The machines stopped making a long beep sound.

"Time of death, 8:33 am" The doctor said looking at his watch, I lost it....

I pulled out the bottle of pills I snuck in here pouring them in my hand looking in the window looking at the pills then at the blanket they put over Petes beautiful face.

I looked at them bringing them up to my mouth before I heard *beep beep* very slow and faint.

"Oh my goodness!" A doctor said as they uncovered Petes face eyes still closed but his chest was moving up and down at a slow pace.

I fell to my knees sobbing dropping the beautiful small white containers of poison, "He's alive" I sobbed.

I was let back in, I kissed his hand sitting by his bed, "Come on my love I know you can wake up, if you don't I'll join you..." I whispered, "Please wake up, I love you...."

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It's short I know but my phone is broken but thank goodness I get a new phone on Monday or Tuesday and by next Friday (schedule) I will have a longer update on this story.

I can do schedules! yay! I'm organized.....I hope it's Friday.