(A/N): This sounded better in my head lol
Also, que the sad story 👍

L had been very quiet these past few days, which couldn't be good. Although L was quiet anyways, he was literally not saying anything to anyone.
It was strange. L had never acted like this before and it was making you worry a lot.

He wasn't eating a lot either. Every so often, Watari would bring him some sweets but L would only eat a bite or two out of them and leave the rest. He'd just resulted to drinking hot drinks a lot more.

He'd been disappearing a lot too. One minute, he's in front of computers, as busy as can be, the next minute it's like he vanished into thin air!

You would ask him where he's been or if there's anything bothering him, but he would just say that he was thinking elsewhere and that would be the end of it.

This had been happening for quite some time and it made you worry about L's health. Both physically and mentally.

It was about time that you took matters into your own hands and find out what's going on with that man child.

Today, L had chosen to leave the main room and go to wherever he goes.

He got up from his chair and walked out the room. The taskforce didn't seem to bat an eye. L had walked out so many times that they had gotten used to it. They didn't really care.

Well you did. And you were gonna find out what was going on. His behaviour was suspicious.

As L walked out, you slowly followed behind him, keeping a fair distance so that he wouldn't hear your footsteps.

He went down a hallway you didn't recognise.
He went down the stairs to one of the underground floors below.
It was more strange, knowing that L went down there. For as long as you've been working for him, you've never seen anyone go down here.

You follow L and you hide behind a wall as he walks into the very end room of the hallway. He opens the door and looks around to see if anyone was near him. He didn't spot you as you hid your whole self behind the wall just in time.
The fact that he was making sure no one was following him, made him more suspicious to you.

Just what was he doing?

You know L had his weird habits, but nothing as strange as this.

You see L walk through the doorway and close the door behind him.
You peer your head around, before slowly creeping up towards the door and putting your ear to it.

'I can't just walk in or he'll spot me...'

You listened to see if you could hear anything in that room but you couldn't make anything out. One thing's for sure, you could hear a noise from what sounded like a machine of some sort.

'I wonder what he's doing...'

You even tried to hold your breath for a little bit as even your breathing was too loud to hear anything.

'Maybe it's a soundproof door...'

All of a sudden, you felt the door move and you lost your balance, falling forward onto your face.

"(Y/N)? What are you doing here?"

Uh oh...

You look up to see L staring down at you with his eyes narrowed.

"Were you spying on me?"

"No!" You shout, jumping back up onto your feet.

"Is that so? It seemed a lot like you were trying to eavesdrop on what I was doing."

He really had caught you. There was no saving you now.

"Alright, out with it" L shoved his hands into his pockets.

"Well, you were acting pretty suspicious and I was worried something might be wrong!" You start. "You're just getting up and leaving the main room at random times and I just don't know what's going on inside your head! You're not even eating as much either! You've gone all quiet and I was really worried."

L tilted his head to the side a little and a faint smile appeared on his lips.

"You were worried about me? Is that so? Oh, I'm afraid that wouldn't be good."

"Huh? What do you mean?"

"If you worry about me now, I'm afraid that'll only make matters worse.."

L's smile began to grow.

"What are you talking about?! Of course I'm gonna worry about you! I don't care if it makes thing's worse! You're special to me!!"

L's smile dropped and a more surprised expression appeared on his face.

He shook his head and his usual serious expression came back.

"If this is a joke, I don't find it funny..."

"Like hell it's a joke!"

L's eyes widened and he took his hands out his pockets, letting them drop by his side.

"(Y/N)..." he sighed.

"I wasn't planning to show you this now, but I feel like I have no choice at this point."

"Huh?"

L took a hold of your hand and lead you into the room where he had been hiding all this time. It was pretty dark.  Only the bright light of a laptop lit the room.

"Wait! So you have been working?"

"Of course. Just because I'm not in the main room, doesn't mean I don't work.

You were still so confused as to why L came to this room in particular.

L let go of your hand and walked further into the room as you stood there.

"And don't worry about me not eating because I brought some things for myself to eat down here."

"Does Watari know about this?"

"Let's not go any further on that subject..."

'I'll take that as a no..' You thought to yourself.

"Alright. I guess I should show you what I've been doing all this time so that your suspicious will drop."

L walked over a flicked a light switch, making the whole room light up.

Your eyes widened with amazement as you spotted a sewing machine in the middle of the room.

"You've been sewing all this time?" You ask, adjusting your eyes from the sewing machine to L."

"Well, yes. I've been working on something special."

"In the middle of a case?"

"I'll have you know I have been working on the case as well."

L walked over to a small box he had at the side of the room and crouched down next to it.

You walked a little bit further into the room, still taking everything in.

"It's not finished yet, but it's not like can hide it anymore from you..."

L reached into the box and pulled something out, but you couldn't see because he had his back to you.

He stood up, with his hands behind his back so you weren't able to see what he had.

"I've tried to fight these emotions in my head, but I've been unable to..."

"Huh?"

L then took his hands away from his back and revealed what he had been working on all this time.

"A plush toy...of you?"

"That's correct."

"Wait. I'm confused..."

"Allow me to explain" L began.
"It appears I've developed feelings for you, (Y/N)."

"...HUH?!"

"I couldn't believe it either. To be honest, I thought it was just a fantasy because you're so nice to me. I tried to fight these emotions for a while but I couldn't get these thoughts of you out my head. That's when I realised that it was love. And you can't simply fight love" L laughed.

L had feelings for you? The best detective L? You felt your heart pound in your chest.

"These feelings were starting to get in the way of my work and I couldn't focus. Especially since I got all flustered around you..."

'Really? I never noticed' You thought to yourself.

"So I came down here to work but also to make this little plush toy for you. I sort of had an idea that you liked me back. I mean, I can read you like an open book, (Y/N). I am L after all" He laughed.

That made your face go bright red. He knew how you felt all this time and never even pointed it out till now.

"So, there's still some questions I have to ask" you speak up. "If you knew that I liked you back, why didn't you just confess to me? I would've said yes!"

L's face went a little pink and he held the back of his neck.

"Well, there are a few reasons. One, that'd affect work. Two, as I mentioned earlier, I wasn't aware if the feelings I had were real or not so I never could confess the proper way. And giving the circumstances, I have no other way..."

L held the plushie close to him and stared down at it.

"This was the only way I could confess to you. There was no other way. If I confessed to you normally, it wouldn't feel right. It'd be wrong..."

"What are you talking about?! I'm much more confused now!" You shout.
"Circumstances?! What circumstances?! Could you be more specific?!"

"Please accept this, (Y/N)!" L handed you the plush toy as if he was begging for you to take it from him.
"I know it isn't finished yet. I still had to draw on the mouth but I hope you can accept it anyways!"

Although it still confused you, you did have to realise that L had spending his time making something special just for you.

You couldn't help but smile at that. He must truly cherish you. Just as you cherished him.

You took the plush toy from L and hugged it.

"It's so cute. Thank you for making this for me. I really appreciate it!"

L smiled.

"I'm glad you like it. Promise me you will take good care of it."

"Of course I will! I promise I'll take care of it!"

"No matter what happens, do you promise you won't damage it?" L sounded a bit more serious here.

"Huh? Uh...yeah! Of course! I'll make sure that it doesn't get damaged at all!"

"Thank you. I trust you'll do a good job" L smiled.

His smile seemed sad though...

"At least now, you'll have something to remember me by" he said.

"Why are you saying that? You make it sound like something bad is gonna happen!"

L laughed a little bit.

"Is that what those circumstances are, that you mentioned? Is something bad gonna happen? Are we gonna split up or something?!"

"No, nothing like that" L laughed some more. "Wow, it's been a while since I've laughed like this. I'm glad I get to laugh with you here (Y/N). Thank you for being with me."

You smile at him, but you were still confused.

L came over to you and caressed your cheek.

"I love you (Y/N). A lot. Please don't forget that."

"...I won't."

L kissed your forehead and brought you into a hug. You wrapped one arm around him and squeezed onto the plushie with your other arm.

You were grateful for everything that L has done for you and you were so happy that he was in love with you too...

But why did the atmosphere feel so...sad?

-A few days later...-

"Ryuzaki?!"

"What's happening?!"

"SNAP OUT OF IT!!"

This wasn't real...

"Come on Ryuzaki!!"

"If this is a joke, it's not funny!!"

There's no way this could be real...

"Where's (Y/N)...?"

Everyone turned to look at you as you walked into the main room, carrying documents. You saw L lying on the floor, the whole room was lit with red lights.

"(Y/N)! Ryuzaki needs you!"

You immediately dropped the documents and rushed over to L's side.

"What happened?!"

"I don't know!" Light called. "He mentioned the Shinigami, then he just stopped and fell to the floor!"

"No..."

You took L and cradled him in your arms.

"Ryuzaki? L?! Can you hear me?! It's me, (Y/N)!"

L looked at you, eyes wide.

"Everything's gonna be okay! We'll get an ambulance and you're gonna be okay!!"

"...(Y/N). I wasn't wrong..."

"What is he saying...?" Light asked.

"The circumstances...I wasn't wrong about them..."

Wait...These were the circumstances he was talking about before??

"Be strong for me (Y/N)..." L wiped a tear that fell down your cheek and his arm dropped down.

"L! L! Don't leave me!!" You cry as his eyes start to close.

He was gone...

-Soon-

"Where did (Y/N) go?" Mr Yagami asked, later.

"She's hiding in her room. She's refusing to come out..." Light states.

"Poor (Y/N)" Matsuda said sadly. "She was very fond of L."

Everyone was unsure about what to do. How were they gonna move o  with the case?

Meanwhile, you were stuck in your room, anger and sadness flowing through your veins.

"He gave me signs that something bad was gonna happen, but I didn't think he'd die!! HE KNEW HE WAS GONNA DIE AND HE NEVER TOLD ME?!"

You got so frustrated with everything!
You look to see the plush toy L had given you about a week ago, staring back at you.

All your emotions got the better of you, however, and without thinking, you grabbed the toy and threw it against your wall.

A bad decision though, as you noticed one of the eyes came off. L had used black beads for the eyes and he had glued them on.

As soon as you noticed the eye had come off, you instantly ran over to the toy and picked it up, along with the bed that came off.

"Promise me you will take good care of it."

'I promised I'd take good care of it...'

"No matter what happens, do you promise you won't damage it?"

"I'm sorry L! I damaged it!"

You began to sob loudly in your room. You could easily fix it, but it wouldn't feel the same and you had promised L you wouldn't damage it in the first place and you just had to go and throw it at your wall.

"I miss you L...I miss you so much!"

What were you to do? The man you had always admired was no longer here...

Everything made more sense now, than when he gave that plushie to you those days ago...

Giving the circumstances...The circumstances of his life coming to an end.
The plushie would be the only thing to remember him by, as you won't be able to do anything else...

"Why couldn't you just tell me? I would've done my best to help!"

You were suddenly startled by the door being knocked on.

"(Y/N)? How are you feeling?"

It was Misa...

"I've got some strawberries here. We had them for a photo shoot but we didn't eat them all. Do you want some?"

"...Leave them by the door."

Misa did as you said.

"You know, I didn't know much about L, but I know that he seemed to have a lot of respect for you. He also wanted you to carry the case for him-"

You cut Misa off by opening the door, catching her by surprise.

"He what?"

"I thought you should know now. He wrote it on this piece of paper and we didn't find it until now."

She handed you a small piece of paper.

In the likelihood that I will die in the next few days, I hope that (Y/N) can continue the case for me...
~Ryuzaki

You finish reading the note and looked at Misa, surprised.

"So what do you say?" She smiled. "Do you want to carry on the case?"

You thought for a minute. You were too exhausted and grieving too much to continue but L had been sacrificing his life to solve this case. You couldn't just throw it away.

"To avenge L. So that his death wouldn't be in vein" you nod. "For L."

"For L" Misa nodded back.

~

Kira was caught a few months later.

(A/N): Yikes, I didn't know how to end this...