(A/N): This was a request by SecretPhanWriter. Thank you for the request. I hope this is okay for you!

It was a regular day, just like always. You and L had just finished dinner and you had started washing the dishes, humming a little tune to yourself whilst staring out the window in front of you at the beautiful scenery.

As you were distracted by the scenery, you didn't hear L sneak up behind you, wrapping his arms around your waist and burying his face in your neck.

It caught you by surprise a little so you jumped and turned around to face him, making L let you go.

"What's that all about?" You giggle, making L smile.

"Did I surprise you? I'm sorry. You just...looked so peaceful standing there, it reminded me how much you mean to me and how much I never want to let you go" L says.

"I was only washing the dishes" you say.

"Even so, you just look so cute" L says, his cheeks going a light shade of pink.

You boop L's nose with your soapy hands, getting bubbles on his nose, making the two of you laugh at your goofiness.

"I have a feeling you just plan on getting my attention because you're bored" you say.

"Maybe."

You sigh and shake your head.

"I should get back to it. I'll give you attention later" you say, turning back around and getting back to washing the dishes.

"Fair enough then. I do remember I have some reports I need to take a look over so I'll go over them beforehand."

L then leaves to do his work.

-Soon-

You finish up and dry your hands, before heading into the living room to see L finishing up his last report and letting out a loud sigh.

He noticed you coming in and instantly changed his expression.

"You're here! Thank goodness. I was getting a little lonely. Come and sit with me" L pats the space next to him on the sofa and you sit down next to him.

"Did you get all your work done?" You ask him.

"Yes, for now that is, until Watari finishes transferring more information to my computer. So for now, I can focus on you" L turns to you and smiles that sweet smile of his, making you smile back.

Then, out of the blue, L pounced on you, knocking you over so he was now on top of you.

"H-Hey!"

"Caught you off guard again, did I?" L smirked.

You were about to say something but couldn't get anything out as L had trapped your lips with a kiss. The two of you instantly melt into it, forgetting all your surroundings and just focus on each other.

Soon enough, L got too caught in the moment and his hands start to creep up under your shirt.

The feeling made your eyes shoot open and you push L away, quickly sliding back to the end of the couch and pulling your shirt back down so you were certain it covered your whole waist.

"(Y/N)...? I'm sorry, did I go too far?" L sat up and covered his mouth with his hand, his face going bright red. "I apologise sincerely..." he looked at the floor in shame.

"N-No...! It's okay! Don't worry about it" you say, smiling like nothing just happened there.

"Are my actions scaring you? If so, I can work on what I do to make sure you feel safe" L said, getting worried.

"L, honestly, it's alright. Please don't make a big fuss out of it. You just got caught up in the moment. It's understandable. Don't think too much of it" you say.

"I need to learn not to let my guards down..." L said.

You started to feel bad, but you wanted L to realise that you weren't ready for anything like that.

"Hey (Y/N), how about I-"

"I'm gonna stick the kettle on and make some coffee. You want some?" You suddenly change the subject.

"Oh...sure..."

You quickly get up and head for the kitchen, leaving L confused, embarrassed and disappointed in himself.

You put the kettle on and gather mugs to make coffee.

Your heart was racing...

"That was so close..." You put a hand to your heart.

"I couldn't let him see...how ugly I really am...He'd hate me. He'd really hate me...! I don't want him to hate me! I love L!" You whisper to yourself. "If he sees my disgusting body, I'd never be able to live with myself..."

You try to stop yourself from crying but it was no good. Two small tears fall down your face. You quickly wipe them away just in case L came into the kitchen.

The kettle finishes boiling and you begin making the coffee. Once you had finished, you carry the mugs to the living room. There, you spotted L with his knees further in and he had his face buried in them.

"Here...I'm sorry if I did anything to hurt your feelings" you say, handing L a mug.

"No, it's alright. Thank you" he said, taking the mug.

You sat back down and it was silent for a moment. Only the sounds of slurping on coffee filled the room.

After a moment, L finally spoke up.

"So...is there anything you want to tell me, regarding what happened?"

"No...I told you, don't make a big deal out of it" you say, trying to get L to stop talking about it.

"(Y/N), you know I love you, right? I'm not going to judge you if there was a valid reason for that or anything."

"You wouldn't say that if you were in my shoes right now..." You say back.

"What do you mean?"

"Oh! Nothing! Forget I said anything..."

"(Y/N), you're acting strange. Please tell me if something is bothering you. You seemed very scared. I hope I haven't made you really upset with me..."

L puts his mug down and turns to face you.

"I realised the way you pulled your shirt back down...It was already covering you but yet you kept pulling it down, almost stretching it. I feel like there is something important you aren't telling me. Something you're hiding from me..."

You could see how hurt L was on the inside just by looking at his eyes.
You knew L was smart so even if you didn't tell him, it wouldn't take him long to find out anyway.

Maybe you should tell him...?

'No! I can't tell him! He'd think I'm ugly and he'd hate me so much! I don't want to lose what we have!' You thought to yourself, on the brink of tears.

L seemed to notice and got more worried.

"(Y/N), what's wrong?!" L asked.

"Nothing! Nothing is wrong! Just leave me alone!" You shout, standing up but L grabbed your arm before you got the chance to get away from him again.

"Let me go! L! Let go of me! Nothing is wrong! I promise! I-"

You were caught by surprise by L embracing you in a hug.

"Whatever it is that's bothering you, please know that I am here to help and support you, whatever the cost. Don't worry (Y/N), you can tell me. I assure you that it'll be easier for you if you tell me, but I should be understanding if you aren't ready to tell me yet. Although I don't want you to feel afraid about telling me something that's bothering you. I hope you know that."

L was being very understanding. He stroked your hair to comfort you as he could feel your tears soak into his shirt. You weren't sobbing, but you couldn't stop crying either.

But you took L's words to heart and took a deep breath.

"Okay...I'll tell you..."

L broke the hug but took hold of your hands.

"Take your time" he smiled.

"It's...my body."

"Your body?"

"Yes."

"Can you expand on that? Is there a part of your body that's been causing you pain?"

"No...I'm not in pain."

"Then what is it?"

You sigh.

"My body is gross."

"Huh?"

"See, this is one of the reasons why I didn't wanna tell you! You could never understand..." You sniff.

"(Y/N)..."

"I'm ugly, okay?! I can't let anyone see my body because it's disgusting and I hate it! Everytime I change clothes and I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror, I can't believe how ugly and horrible I am and how much you'd start to hate me if you ever saw how-"

"Stop talking!"

L raised his voice at you which caused you to freeze out of shock. He had never raised his voice at you before...

"What the hell are you talking about?! Are you out of your mind?! What gives you the right to say that in front of me?!"

You started to get a little scared. L had never looked so serious.

"Well?"

'I have no choice but to tell him now...'

"My body is covered in scars and bruises..."

L's eyes widened and he slowly let go of your hands.

"What...?"

"You heard me. I never planned on telling you but to be honest, you were gonna find out anyway. You're L after all..." You sigh.

"So that's why you didn't want me to do what I was doing...You were afraid of me seeing."

You nod.

"Now that I've told you, you're probably thinking of the nicest way to break up with me right?! Say it! I'm ready!" You say, beginning to cry again.

"What?! Of course not! Why on earth would you think that?!" L said as he embraced you and held you in his arms as tight as he could.

"I'm ugly L! I'm so ugly!" You sob into L's shoulder.

"No you're not, (Y/N). Please don't say such things!" L said, stroking your hair to reassure you. "

"If you saw the marks...you wouldn't say that..."

L broke the hug and put his hands on your shoulders, staring deep into your eyes.

"Do you think you can show me them?" He asked.

"Why would you request such a thing?!" You shout, backing away from him.

"Well, you're saying that'd I'd think you're ugly if I saw those marks. I should be the judge of that, don't you think? Even though, you should know what my answer is going to be anyway" he replies.

"Yeah, but-"

"Honestly (Y/N), you'll feel a lot better if you open up to me. Trust me. All I want to do is help you."

L flashed a reassuring smile at you. The smile that's full of trust.

'Maybe I should...?' You thought. 'But...'

"Alright...I'll show you...But it's a little embarrassing too..." you say, your cheeks heating up.

"I understand. Just, whenever you're ready..."

You take a deep breath and slowly lift up your shirt to reveal to L the scars and bruises that marked your body.

L stood there with wide eyes, in shock at what he was seeing.

"I knew it! You do think I'm ugly!" You yell, pulling your shirt down again.

L didn't know what to say. He couldn't believe it. How could his one and only love hide something like this from him?

"How did this happen...?" He asked which almost set you off.

"It's a long story..." you sigh, turning your head away.

L sat down in his crouched position.

"I'm willing to listen, no matter how long."

You were a little surprised he even wanted to hear the story but you decide tell him. He knows now.

"My stepfather used to abuse me. It happened for 3 years. It started when I was only 16 years old and it lasted until I turned 19. During those years, I couldn't really take care of myself and I had no one else to help me. My mum was always out when he attacked me and if I ever tried to tell her, she'd never believe me. She always believed he was a good person. But the time came when I managed to get a stable job and I had enough money to move out when I was almost 20. So I moved out and he never found me. So I was saved..."

L was silent. You had been abused for so long and he never even knew about it. You had kept it hidden for so long too.

"...so you didn't report him to the police?"

"There was no need for that. That would've just made everything worse."

"(Y/N)! That's serious! You're just gonna leave it like that?! He's still out there, isn't he?! What if he ends up hurting another person?!"

This was certainly a new side of L. It was...kind of scary.

You stayed silent. You didn't want to make matters worse.

L pulled his laptop over and started typing.

"What are you doing?"

"I'm going to find him and have him arrested for what he's done. I'll need you to give me his name though. Can you do that for me?"

What was this? L was gonna go to great lengths to find and arrest someone who used to abuse you for years? Why?

"Why are you doing this?! I said I didn't want to make matters wor-"

"Because I care about you (Y/N)! I care so much that I can't let this go on! You may think it has stopped, but it's only a matter of time before he does something else!"

You gasp. This couldn't be happening...

"No, you're lying just to make me feel better. You really do think I'm ugly..."

L glanced over at you, then put his laptop down and stood up.

"Whether you have marks on your skin or not, you're still the (Y/N) I know and love! That will never change no matter what! I will always think you're beautiful! Nothing can ever change that! I gave my love to you and a small scar or bruise won't make me take it back! I'd never be able to live with myself if I ever did that! I am telling the truth here, (Y/N). I really do think you're beautiful and I love you..."

You were speechless. This wasn't the way this was supposed to go. He was supposed to call you ugly then leave. What's happening?

Thoughts swam around in your head but everything soon came to a halt when you felt L pull you into another hug.

"You don't deserve to suffer anymore (Y/N). And you won't, now that you've told me about this. I will be the one to protect you. Now...can you tell me his name?"

You felt tears forming in your eyes. L was serious about this. He really wanted to protect you. He really thinks you're beautiful.
It was almost like a dream.

"...His name is (be creative and come up with a name cause I can't lolol)"

"Alright! I'm pretty sure I can track him and have him dealt with in the next couple of days, so he can't ever hurt you or anyone else!" L states, kissing your forehead before sitting back down and getting to work on his laptop again.

"...L..."

You couldn't find the words. You had no idea what to say.

"I'm still quite offended that you would call yourself ugly because of what someone did to you. I still don't understand why you would think that" L said, putting his laptop to the side.

"Well, (that name you came up with) said that I was ugly. That's why he used to beat me up...and so I guess I just kinda accepted it..."

"Oh (Y/N)..." L stood up and walked over to you, putting a hand to your cheek.
"Please don't ever think that way again. You are beautiful inside and out. You have to be proud of who you are. You are what you are and you can't change that. But I don't care what you look like because I will always love you. Always. Just...promise me you won't try to hide anything like that from me again though okay?"

You nod slowly as you smile slowly and tears fall down your face again.

"...Thank you..." You manage to blurt out.

"I'm only doing what I have to do for the one I love" L smiled back and pulled you back into another hug.

-Time Skip-

It had been over a week since your stepfather had been caught and arrested. And to be honest, you felt a whole lot better.

Now that he was gone for good, you felt like you could finally relax and not live in fear of him finding you anymore.

And now that L knew what had happened to you in the past, you didn't feel like you had to hide it from him anymore, so that gave you a little bit more confidence.

And his kind words...really made an impact on you. He didn't leave you like you thought he would, he never called or thought of you as ugly and he said such nice things to you. He really wanted to help you.

L had bought some things to help treat your scars and bruises. You couldn't help but still feel embarrassed a little about yourself but you didn't cry or scream about how you looked anymore.

L taught you a lot about how to be proud of what you look like and it came a long way. You weren't 100% confident yet, but you could safely say that you did feel a lot better thanks to L.

(A/N): Sorry if this isn't that good or if it seemed rushed near the end, but I did try hard. ^^;