Dear you,

You keep asking if I've made up my mind yet. I don't have an answer for you though, and you remind me that time's ticking.

Four days until you will leave, with or without me.

I should go. It's not like I have anything here in Seoul- I have nothing to live for here, no one. The only one I have is you.

I've made a decision. I will tell you very soon.

The other night you asked what happened to all of my old friends, all of yours. I told you about how Namjoon is an underground rapper still, and Hoseok is too, but he still dances as well. I told you about how Seokjin inherited his family's bakery and is working there still, and how Jungkook actually is working for him.

I told you about how my best friend Taehyung got into that car accident and died the day he found out he was accepted into a really great school here.

I told you how I've been alone since. I couldn't keep in contact with them after that. Everything was hurting, everything is still hurting too much.

You said you're sorry. Thank you for that.

Thank you for at least acting like you care, even if you don't.

It means everything.

-P.JM