Dedicated to: Eliza_Star12

Rachel knew she shouldn't listen to Quinn or Santana. But she did, because it was in a daily basis that she gets told that no one wants her, that she is fat, and that she doesn't belong, the constant names like beaky and manhands, made her question everything about her. Rachel puts on a brave face everyday and tries to act like nothing is wrong because of her younger sister Marley. Marley, was at her locker and watched her sister. She worried about her constantly now more than ever since she knew that her older sister cut ties with everyone but her and Noah.

Marley was proud that she did, but she felt bad that Rachel was getting the constant backlash of it. It was times like these that she wished that Sebastian would tell Rachel his feelings. But she knew not to push as she knew Sebastian was confused about his sexuality. Marley closed her locker and felt arms around her, she knew it was Skylar. They both watched their older siblings in the distance.

Rachel was feeling down like always and felt arms around her and soothing words. She knew it was Sebastian, the boy who captured her heart. They hugged, and as they pulled apart they saw Finn. Rachel watched as Sebastian stood up to Finn, but it broke her heart when he mentioned that he was gay. Rachel smiled at him as Finn walked away.

Rachel blushed when Sebastian mentioned her smile. Rachel was nervous when Sebastian handed her a letter. She was worried about the day he would find out that it's her writing the letters. She doesn't want Sebastian to hate her, but she was opening up to him. Rachel followed Sebastian, Marley and Skylar to her car. Where Marley and Sky started kissing, it made Rachel feel awkward. She looked up at Sebastian and said

"I didn't want to disturb you." Which was true, she didn't, she didn't want Sebastian to worry so much. Not when no one wanted her. She relaxed when Sebastian hugged her and said

"You wouldn't have disturbed me, I wouldn't have minded, I would do anything for you Rach." Rachel was hugged extra tight and then as they pulled apart, she got into her car, and as she started driving, Marley looked at her sister and said

"Are you going to tell me what Sebastian gave you?" Rachel knew she could tell her sister, but she also worried that she would tell Skylar. Rachel started driving home and said

"If I told you, would you promise to not tell Sky." Marley was confused at what her sister said, and she said

"Of course, you know what you tell me, I don't ever tell Skylar, it's personal for you and I." Rachel knew that was true, she knew whatever she said to Marley, that it was still kept a secret. Rachel drove silently as Marley said

"So are you going to tell me?" Rachel sighed and said

"I am writing secret letters to Sebastian and he has been replying to them." Marley was shocked, and said

"You are doing what?" Rachel continued driving and said

"Writing letters to him secretly, he doesn't know it's me." Marley was confused and said

"How does he not know its you?" Rachel was silent, and Marley said

"Rach?" Rachel, stopped at a red traffic light and said

"I'm using a fake name." Marley was silent and then said

"You've been telling him everything, haven't you?" Rachel nodded her head yes, and said

"I am telling him everything." Marley looked at her older sister, and said

"Even maybe possibly telling him how you feel?" Rachel drove as the light went green, and said

"I can't Marls, he's gay." Marley gave her small smile and said

"Honestly, I don't think he is." Rachel, was grateful for younger sister, and Marley then said

"Don't worry, your secret is safe with him, I wont tell Sky, Noah or Sebastian." Rachel smiled as she parked the car in the driveway and said

"Thanks." They got out, and went to their rooms, after Rachel got ready, she read Sebastian's letter and smiled at his reply. She often wondered what Sebastian would do if he knew it was her sending him the letters. She sighed as she reread it, placed it down, and then started writing him another. she got lost in the letter, that she didn't hear Marley. Rachel looked up and Marley once again said

"The boys are here." Rachel quickly put the letter in an envelope and hid it. she walked out and met up with the boys. they drove there, and once they reached the bowling alley, they got out, and got their shoes, but Rachel was nervous because she saw Finn and Quinn, holding hands and laughing, and realisation hit her, Quinn was cheating on her cousin with Finn  Rachel bit her lip nervously as she watched the two, praying they didn't see her. Followed behind Sebastian in hopes that they didn't see her, but to her dismay they did, well Quinn saw her.

Before Rachel could follow Sebastian and her sister, she was pulled by her arm and she came face to face with Quinn. Rachel knew Quinn was mad at her, Rachel stayed quiet as Quinn spoke to her

"You know how infuriating it is, that you are stalking Finn, it never ends Rachel, you are never going to get it right no one wants you here Rachel, you don't belong here, you can't blame me and everyone else for sending you on your way." Rachel was quiet, as Quinn continued her rant, that is until they both heard

"I want her here, it doesn't matter that you don't, she doesn't wake up everyday to impress you does she, you aren't her friend, your opinions don't matter, never have and never will, you think everyone wants to be you, but I don't want to be you, and neither does my sister, and she doesn't want Finn, he's all yours, especially when Hunter finds out that you're cheating" Rachel smiled at her younger sister for standing up to Quinn who left annoyed. Rachel hugged her sister, and Marley  said

"Why do you never speak up?" Rachel pulled apart the hug and said

"Because if I do, I would get bullied and teased even more." Marley linked her arm through Rachel's and said

"Let's go beat the boys at bowling." Rachel walked over with her sister as the game started and the night ended with Sebastian losing on purpose for Rachel to win.