October 21st, 2019, "Dear Diary,

Taken from Born for Battle:

"When He [God] has such a man [as David to face Goliath] the deadlock is broken immediately and the victory is God's." pg. 57

"When God sees a weapon being used in His name and faith [Jonathan going against the Philistines' garrison alone, except for his armour bearer] daring to attempt the impossible, He musters Heaven's cohorts and moves in too confound and rout the enemy." Pg. 57

October 22nd, 2019, "... The trouble is that desire [to do God's will] by itself is powerless against the enemy unless followed by the will to act. Basic victory over the devil is unashamed use of the Word of God and the application of its absolute and objective truth and promises in a direct confrontation against the lies, deceits and misquotes of the devil. Satan cannot face the Word of God thrust at him by the believing heart in the power of the Spirit." Born for Battle pg. 59."

Spend more time in the Word of God. Memorize it and apply it to your life. You can never know everything there is to know about God and the Bible, so don't tell yourself that you do. I need to write this to remind myself just as much as you need to read and apply it. Read your Bible and pray. The more you do this, the stronger your knowledge of truth will get and the harder it will be for Satan to trick you. Know the truth, know you are saved, be prepared to preach it and carry it out. That is the true armour of God.

October 24th, 2019, "Dear Diary,

Throughout the past week I had been finding strength in the Lord and obeying Him more and more everyday. The day before yesterday, the devil tricked me into disobeying. I was subconsciously trying to fight against the temptations of disobedience, yet it didn't do anything. I finally realized what was going on and I prayed. Then the Lord helped me out of the pit of hopelessness that the devil had pulled me into. Being a soldier of Christ is far from easy. It's simple, but it's not easy.

More Later.

Jesus said to him, "Away form Me, Satan! For it is written: Worship the Lord your God and serve Him only."

Matthew 4;10 (NIV)."

The next entries are more about common, everyday occurrences of Satan and his workers trying to get at me. Then on November 8th, 2019, I made an entry about something more interesting, "Dear Diary,

During the conference, I think the Holy Spirit was trying to tell me what was going on, yet I didn't listen.

More Later.

Later,

Taken from Born for Battle, pgs. 64-65,

"Clean up:

Repentance to God and rebelling from Satan.

Crisis:

...[Satan's response to the Clean Up].

Climax:

How you respond or react to the Crisis." pg. 66."

The first part of the entry was about a field conference our mission team went to. In my entry I said that I wasn't listening to hear God's voice and by that I mean that I didn't want to hear that there was something wrong because I desperately wanted the conference to be a good memory. Because I wasn't listening, I missed something I wish I hadn't. I could have prayed and I could have been supportive to those around me. Instead, I was truly oblivious. So Listen. Always be listening and asking God where He wants you and what He wants to be doing.

"Be content with small victories." Know and believe that God is fighting for you so if ever He commands you to do something know you are not alone and that He has not abandoned you, nor will He ever.

The following entries are about me being more aware of the demon activity around my family and I and what I did in response. It was the same every time; stand for the Truth and pray. God will do the rest. Have faith.

Then I started getting confused about what God was actually letting me do. I could feel other people's emotions if their emotions were strong enough and I tried hard enough. Or I thought I could, anyway. At first I was only annoyed that I couldn't do anything about how others were feeling, only feel their emotions with them. Now, however, I realize that this was me beginning to realize that I didn't really know what was going on. But before I was going to learn anything more about that, something else happened.

March 11th, 2020, "Dear Diary,

The Holy Spirit told me that fear and turmoil are about to seize the world. The end of everything as we know it is about to take place. But, we mustn't worry, we must instead hold fast to God's Word and trust Him, no matter what happens. Anything could happen, but we must trust God. His plan is sovereign.

This is what happened:

When Mom called me for supper, I was happy from watching Mako Mermaids. Then I remembered that we were having guests (BA and his family). For some reason I became hyper alert and attentive to everything, sort of how I was at the beginning of this diary. I didn't figure out the connection until after everyone had finished eating. I eventually just walked away and sat on a board on the turkey pen's fence. I prayed. I prayed that God would destroy the demons of fear. But then I realized that I have no power. God is almighty, He and He alone can send demons away or destroy them-not me nor anyone else. So I begged God to protect us from all this harm but was reminded that God said this would happen; turmoil will grasp the face of the earth. All I can do is pray, obey God and help others to the best of my capability.

I tried then to go back to our guests, but they weren't (except ME, but she was busy when I came back) interested in talking to me anyway, so I came up to my room to tell you what just took place..... I'm really was c really tired there; I fell back on the bed....

More Later, diary."

Mongolia is 15 hours(1) ahead of North America, which means that I got the message a day before a Global Pandemic was declared. We'd already had COVID-19 in Mongolia, though the records will tell you differently, since December of the previous year so it didn't become clear to me that the message was about COVID-19's fear factor on the world until that fall, when we moved back to our passport country, Canada. I had to leave Born for Battle in Mongolia because I had been borrowing it.

Th next entry was on November 19th, 2020, "Dear Diary,

I'd hoped I would've come to the end of all these strange things or close to it when I'd come this close to your last page. But, alas, I think it won't end until I'm in heaven. We're in Canada now. The air is strange here.." And then I go off on a rabbit trail so we're going to skip that and go straight to the point, "Anyway, I think I've figured out whatever it is that I can do... I can hear demons clearer than I used to, before this all started. Medium. I think that's what I'd be called if I used this growing awareness [to their presence] the way they want me to. Because I can hear them, summon them, and talk to them. I don't know what God wants me to do, so I'm going to pray and study His Word. And, dear diary, I pray that God will show me someone I can talk to about all of this. For God said it is not good to be alone.

Dear Holy Spirit,

If it wasn't for You, I'd be a beast, a mind reader, a physic, a witch and a medium. But You've saved me time and time again. Thank-You for not giving up on me.

I praise Your holy, gracious and great name.

Amen.

Love, Chloe, a soldier, princess of the cross.

Later,

I found Leviticus where it says that mediums and spiritists ought to be stoned and put to death. I cried. I was so close to believing I was forsaken, but because of the armour of God, because of the truth that I clung too, because of the Holy Spirit, I kept searching.

If you're reading this to help find answers, look at John 11:25-26... Leviticus 20:27, Revelation 21: 8... Deuteronomy 18:10-13, Ephesians 6:11-12..., 1 John 4:1-14...

God loves you. He will not forsake you.

"...stand firm then..." Ephesians 6:14

Love, Chloe."

And that, dear reader, was written on the last page of the swirly, grey diary I had started almost two years before. Your journey in the discovery to the spiritual warfare around you might be longer or shorter than mine, however either way, we are in this together for Christ who gives us life. Keep going to God, listening to the Holy Spirit, praising Jesus and reading and studying His Word. Be a shining light in the middle of darkness. He will not forsake you.

Love, Chloe.

footnotes:

(1) give or take an hour or two depending which side of North America you are in and daylight savings