Dear Ex Friends,

I hate you. You two are the worst. I fucking HATE you. Just like how you decided you hate me.

Like, seriously? I'm NOT a whiny bitch, like you say. I'm NOT selfish. I'm NOT a bad person! Sure, I may do bad things, but that doesn't make me a bad person!

I'm really, truly sorry that sometimes I may act bossy or controlling, but it's not like you ever pointed it out until now!! So how would I know that you weren't okay with what I was doing?!

Oh, and A(that's what I'm gonna call you. Like I said, I'm not a bad person, I'm not gonna reveal who either of you are), I still don't understand your reasoning as to why you came to my birthday party. Okay, so you wanted to go to the fair and see Fluffy(my favorite comedian btw), and you came even though you hate me. And you said that's all you came for? Well you know what? That's pretty FUCKING selfish!! But I have to say, you have a lot of gut spending so many hours with someone you hate.

And like I told you, I wouldn't do that. No matter how much you think I would, I WOULDN'T. I'm not gonna spend hours with someone I hate just to do something I like. It's not worth it.

And K, WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?! BEING ALL SUGGESTIVE AND ACCUSING ME OF LIKING A JUST BECAUSE I HADN'T BLOCKED HER?! WHY DOES NOT BLOCKING SOMEONE MAKE ME LIKE THEM?!?

I really tried my best defending myself, but every time I did, you came back with more stuff that mostly wasn't even true! And you know what?! It made me feel REALLY bad about myself! I had low enough self esteem so thanks a lot! You know, I try to keep my problems to myself so people won't think I'm like how you think I am. I thought I could trust you guys with all this, but I guess not!

Honestly, you two are such assholes! You act all nice and then all of a sudden you dm me over Instagram yelling about how much you hate me! If you didn't like me, then you should have just told me when you first realized it, then this wouldn't have been as painful.

And one thing I forgot to bring up but should have: K, if you hate me so much, why did you date me? I know it didn't last that long, but not long after it ended, you wanted to get back together! And this was at the end of last school year!!! So what happened over the summer?! Why did you suddenly hate me?! I REALLY liked you!

I'm sorry for all the times I was a terrible friend. I just wish you would tell me when I was. Then maybe this wouldn't have happened and everything would be okay...

I may sound brave and whatnot writing this, but honestly, I'm terrified. I'm terrified to go back to school. The friends that we share are the only friends I have left. And we all sit together, so what am I supposed to do now? I don't want to sit by myself. I don't want to be alone. I'm TERRIFIED of being alone!

So yeah, even though it fixes nothing, I'm sorry. If I could go back and change things, I would. I don't want to lose anybody...

Sincerely,
JadedFantasies231