Were you to call me by name now, it might almost be more odd!

I know you are more than likely bored of us speaking of that special day, but I simply cannot get it out of my mind either! And nor, do I want to.

I mean really, who can forget the night of the first (and only) kiss.

I blush just writing this, but I can't help but be honest with you. I also can't help but be honest when I tell you that I worry about you telling me that you have difficulty sleeping. I understand that the Force can be a heavy burden to bear but I believe you will be stronger because of it. I may not be able to help when it comes to such a foreign thing for me, but as for your place in the galaxy, I can't help but think it is to be Mr. Ben Solo. How else could I be Mrs. Solo?

Joking aside, I do think that everything falls into place eventually. And not just neatly into Light and Dark either. I think that accepting that is going to be a difficult part of life. I often want to look at those around me and call them bad. Bad people, bad friends, bad businesses. But that isn't fair. Sometimes bad people do good things and good people do bad things. What do you make of that?

I think it probably could be considered a little bit selfish to want to be a Jedi because I think its cool, but is there anything wrong with that? Sometimes, being selfish is the only way to live. Isn't love selfish?

That was dumb to write, so you can just ignore it. Moving on, I do have a favorite color actually. But regardless of it, I think red would suit you perfectly. Your shiny black hair would contrast it well I think. Orange would also work, but I hear that the color orange subconsciously makes you hungry! Do you think that has anything to do with the Force?

I do have some interesting news for you however. My parents have been invited to work on one of the Sith's ships. Isn't that scary? I mean, he's absolutely terrifying looking. Like a monster. And he acts like a monster as well. If anyone were to be completely on the Dark Side, it would probably be him, don't you think? I don't really think that's true, but he's just so frightening looking. I just hope I never have to meet him personally.

I'll write my new address on the back of this paper, that way you don't have to worry about me not getting your letters. I'm kind of happy to move out of our current house. It simply doesn't suit me. There's not a lot of privacy and everyone is so... opulent. Canto Bight isn't the place for me.

I'm sure there is a place for me, but as usual, I feel that nothing draws me to a place. There is nothing that haunts me at night and nothing calls out to me. I sleep soundly at night and can only hope that I can continue to do so in my new home.

Sweet dreams,

Future Mrs. Solo