Dear God, 

These panic attacks. These panic attacks that I have now. 

I cry when I'm having them, and just a few moments ago I was shaking myself because I was scared and panicked because I thought someone was going to leave me. 

Just a few moments ago, Ama. Just a few moments, I had a panic attack. 

Help me, God. I need you, I need you, Papa. 

Help me get through this. 

Love, 

Nichi