Dear God,

I saw a picture with a letter to you saying, "Dear God. I need you. Everyday. Every moment. Every second that I breathe. I need you. I am not strong enough on my own. Amen."

I realize it's true. I do need you. I'll always will need you for You are the only One, who can truly keep me alive. I will never ever be strong enough on my own, that I know now because I have tried, I've tried and as hard as I tried it never worked because it ended with me almost no-one to cry on. It ended with me crying behind the bathroom. It ended with my head on my knees, quietly crying. It ended with me crying silently at night on my pillow. 

I thought I was alone, but of that I was wrong. I never was and I never am. When I asked the question, "Are you there, God?" You were. You were always with me and I was in you and Jesus was beside me and the Holy Spirit was in me. I didn't know this back then, but now I do. And this will always be true. 

Daddy, I need you. Like a child needs a father and mother. I need you because you're my Father and I am your adopted child. You're my life, you're the only One who's keeps me alive and sane.

Because this I realize when I saw another letter saying, "Dear, God I realize I need You in my life. I have this ache in my heart that won't go away. You are the only One that can fill it."

Because you are the only One, you're my life. 

I love you, Daddy.

Love, 

Nichi