simon vs. the homo sapiens agenda au (sorta) combined w indie model!connor 

     iwanttodisappear logged on

     iwanttodisappear: Hi ! I wanted to say i rlly like ur blog :) I wish I could pull that stuff off,, I really admire your confidence and style in your posts

    Evan sent the message as he chewed his lip, blushing even though the other would never see him. He had just sent the note to his favorite blog on tumblr, a boy around his age named Connor. Connor was everything Evan wished he could be, a seemingly confident, very attractive but humble, indie model. His most recent photo was of him in some quiet field with long golden grass and himself wearing a loose fitting white t-shirt and ripped jeans, completed with a pair of yellow converse and a single daisy in his hair. 

    con.m: Thank you, it's nice to get a legitimate compliment from someone. I'm not very confident in myself, but it gives me hope that someone thinks I am.

    con.m: started following iwanttodisappear

    iwanttodisappear: No problem ^_^

    con.m: If you don't mind me asking, why do you want to disappear?

    iwanttodisappear: It's stupid,, really. I just really don't like life irl and I have shitty problems so I'd rather disappear to the abyss of the internet where no one knows its me?

    con.m: Who are you? Like whats ur name. You already know mine lol.

    iwanttodisappear: I'm gonna keep that a secret for now >_< You can call me Blue bc it's the color of the shirt I'm wearing lol

   con.m: That's adorable. What are your preferred pronouns? I'd like to know so I can use the right ones when we talk, if you'd like to continue this.

   iwanttodisappear: I'm cis male, and I'd love to continue talking. You're a rlly nice person, I'm really awkward and could never hold a conversation this long irl.

   con.m: Oh, me neither. The person talking usually freaks out that I'm really Connor Murphy!!! Or they realize I'm a fucking creep. I'm going to a new school soon, in a smaller town, so I hope that'll work out.

   iwanttodisappear: Nice. I live in a remote town in Minnesota so I doubt we'll ever meet.

   con.m: Don't be so sure ;)

     Evan's heart fluttered, leaning back against his bed as he smiled. He hadn't even expected Connor to read his message, let alone reply. It was clear that the two got along well, Evan would come home everyday and log onto his computer to message Connor until the late hours of the morning. Connor's agent would ask why he had dark circles under his eyes. 

    The next week, the school was buzzing with excitement over the arrival of a new student. Evan couldn't really care, the more people the more talking he had to do. 

    "Ev! Did you hear? Connor Murphy is transferring to this dump! Can you imagine?" Jared came bounding over, a big smile on his face. Evan nearly fell over.

    "C-Connor? Here?"

    "Isn't that amazing? He'll make this shitty place a little less shitty- Oh my god." Jared couldn't contain his excitement as Connor walked through the doors, his hair tied up lazily in a bun and wearing the same outfit Evan had seen him in one of his posts. 

     "He's even hotter in person." Was all that Evan managed to mumble, watching the taller boy smile softly and wave over to the pair. Evan shook his head clear, dashing off to class before Connor had time to approach them.

      con.m: New school is nice. Some cute boys. Lack of gardening club :(

     iwanttodisappear: You go to the same school as I do.

      con.m: You're kidding. 

      iwanttodisappear: No, I saw you today in a crowd of fans. Sorry about that.

     con.m: Who are u???

      iwanttodisappear: Not telling. Not yet. I want to get to know the real Connor Murphy first.

      con.m: There's not much to know. I transferred schools bc of bullying mostly, and I couldn't handle the fans. Plus they caught me smoking once or twice. My parents are concerned for my mental health bc of modeling so young, but they don't do shit about it. 

     iwanttodisappear: I'm sorry...

     con.m: Don't be. Sometimes I wish I could quit, but I like to pretend people like me. I also really like Cage The Elephant. And Foster The People. Now, what about you, Blue?

    iwanttodisappear: I have rlly bad social anxiety so I like to talk on the internet, but you knew that. I really love trees, they don't ask for anything but some water and care. They're easy to be around I guess. I love little bands that don't ask for attention,, I'll check out those bands that you mentioned too.

    con.m: You forgot to mention you're adorable.

    iwanttodisappear: I'm not.

    con.m: You are.

    iwanttodisappear: >_< Well, says you. You're like the nicest and coolest person I know.

     He cringed at his message, but sent it anyways. Evan didn't notice the blush appearing on his cheeks. 

    con.m: See? That's adorable.

    Connor was late to class, running down the hallways quickly to try to find the English classroom. He ran into someone, dropping his books and biting on his lip trying not to curse.

    "Hey watch- Shit, are you bleeding?" Evan looked up from the ground, covering his lip and shaking his head quickly.

     "N-No, it's fine and it's my f-fault so I'll just get going-"

    "I was in a rush, it was my fault. You are bleeding... Do you want me to take you to the nurse?"

    "I'll be fine, b-but thank you." He was about to turn and walk away when a hand on his shoulder stopped him.

    "I didn't catch your name?"

    "E-Evan."

    "I'm Connor... Meet you at lunch?" Evan, unable to speak, just nodded and scurried to class with a large blush. He sat down next to Alana, who punched him in the shoulder in reference to his blush. And that he was late, which he often wasn't as coming in late would draw attention to himself. 

    "You're never late?"

    "Got caught up in something." He mumbled quickly, hiding his face in a book. Jared scoffed on the other side of him.

    "Or someone?"

    "N-No!" As Alana and Jared giggled, their conversation ceased. Evan was quick to go to the lunch room, unaware of where Connor would meet him. Or if Connor would meet him. He started panicking, thinking the other boy was just trying to make fun of him or embarrass him.

    "Evan! Over here." Connor yelled from across the lunch room, causing Evan to perk up a little and rush over to him.

    "Can we eat outside?" He squeaked, motioning a shoulder outdoors. Connor nodded, following the smaller boy outdoors.

    "I like your shirt." Connor said as he looked over the other boy, smiling at the band shirt.

    "T-Thanks, it's Cage The Elephant... My friend told me I should listen to them. They're really good."

   "I listen to them. They're sick." Connor nodded, remembering telling Blue to listen to them. He smiled a little as he looked to the ground.

    "My favorite song's probably... Cigarette daydreams."

    "That song is my fucking tears! I love it so much. It's a great song to get stoned to. We could do it sometime if you're into that."

    "S-Sure!"

    "Thanks, for not freaking out about me." Connor said quite suddenly, causing Evan to look over to him.

    "I-I mean you're really cool and talented but... You're just another person? A-Ah... That sounded bad. S-Sorry. I mean... Everyone's the s-same. We're all just fighting for life?" He stammered out, causing Connor to throw his head back and laugh quietly.

   "That's really... Beautiful in a sense. I like it. I like you." Evan blushed, looking away from Connor so he couldn't tell. He wished more than anything to tell him in that moment who he was.

    "I gotta go to class- I'll see you later?" Evan spoke quite quickly as he tried to get out of the situation, putting his bag over his shoulders again. Connor smiled almost stupidly up to Evan, just nodding.

    "I'd like that."

    Connor felt guilty for flirting with Evan, as he had just been flirting with Blue the morning before. It felt almost like he was cheating, but they weren't even together.

     iwanttodisappear: I'm gonna start giving you clues to who I am. 

    con.m: !!!

    iwanttodisappear: Smoky reverie.

     Evan sent the message shaking, hoping the synonym to the song "Cigarette Daydreams" he and Connor had talked about earlier wasn't to big of a clue.

    con.m: That sounds really familiar but I have no idea.

    iwanttodisappear: Good :)

    con.m: :( But I like you and I want to know who you are.

     iwanttodisappear: >_<

    con.m: I met a nice boy today. Almost as nice as you.

    iwanttodisappear: You're making me blush.

    con.m: You make me blush a lot so this is payback.

    iwanttodisappear: I really like you, Con.

     con.m: The feeling is mutual.

     iwanttodisappear sent a photo.

    con.m: That's a rlly nice tree.

     iwanttodisappear: It's in my favorite park. I want to take you there when you figure out who I am.

     con.m: Like a date?

     iwanttodisappear: Yea. Like a date.

     Connor was smitten with Blue. Evan was sure he was falling in some sort of love with Connor. They started eating lunch together everyday, Connor having no idea Evan was Blue and Evan trying not to blush when Connor would go on about his internet crush.

    "He's so amazing- And he goes to this school! He is the definition of boyfriend material... I love him so fucking much." Connor rambled, playing with flowers near his hands as the pair sat under a tree.

    "He sounds nice..." Evan murmured, having weaved some sort of daisy chain but tearing it apart as soon as Connor noticed.

    "He's perfect." Connor said smiling. Evan loved Connor's smile because it looked so real. He had seen lots of fake smiles from the boy in his photos but the one he got to see was incredible, yet subtle. 

    con.m: Clue time ;)

    iwanttodisappear: Bloody lip.

    con.m: I think I might know.

    iwanttodisappear: And your guess is ?

    con.m: Marvin?

     Connor had seen Marvin with a bloody lip earlier, probably from being too chapped. He really hoped it wasn't him, since he had seen him lip locked with a taller boy earlier.

    iwanttodisappear: Nope !

    con.m: I just want to be able to know who I want to kiss.

     iwanttodisappear: I know who I want to kiss. >_<

     con.m: God, I think I'm in love with you. 

    iwanttodisappear: Me?

     con.m: No, the other you.

    iwanttodisappear: Oh.

    con.m: Blue,, I'm in love with you. 

    iwanttodisappear: I think I'm a little in love with you too.

    con.m: So you'll tell me who you are???

    iwanttodisappear: Not yet. You'll probably hate me afterwards.

    con.m: I could never hate you.

     Connor came into school with bloodshot eyes, from either smoking or staying up too late talking to a certain boy. Evan had dark circles under his eyes, nearly falling asleep while Connor was talking to him during lunch.

    "He said he was in love with me..." Connor's whole expression glowed, causing Evan to blush even more.

    "I'll bet he is."

    iwanttodisappear sent a photo.

    con.m: I know who you are. I'm coming to your house right now.

    Evan knew sending the photo of where they ate lunch everyday, under an old oak tree by the lake, was enough to make the other know. He knew Connor so well that it was clear that he would know too. Soon enough, there was a loud knocking at his door. He opened it to see Connor panting, smiling hysterically. Giggling for only a moment, he leaned in and connected his lips to Connor. Connor's lips were soft and gentle, causing Evan to go further and wrap his arms around Connor's neck as he deepened the kiss. Connor held his hands on Evan's hips lightly, pulling away to look deep into his eyes.

    "I'm so happy it was you. I'm so happy that I'm in love with Evan fucking Hansen." He whispered, pulling Evan out further onto his porch and closing the door behind them. 

    "I'm happy you don't hate me yet." Evan giggled softly, but watching Connor's face turn serious. Connor pulled him into another kiss, and Evan could swear he saw more stars then the sky allowed.

   "I could never hate you." Both boys could picture the conversation from only days earlier, resting their foreheads against each other as they rocked softly back and fourth. Evan smirked for a moment, pushing Connor to the ground and straddling over him. Connor blushed this time, gasping as the shorter boy connected their lips suddenly. He gripped onto Evan's hips firmly, Evan holding Connor's face as he kissed him almost harshly.

    "I've been waiting so long to do that." He said panting as he pulled away, becoming more reserved again.

    "I mean it every time... I love you, Evan."

    "I love you too... So much. More than all the trees in the world." Evan said with a shy smile. Connor felt like the luckiest guy in the world as he kissed Evan again, smiling widely against his lips.

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a.n: hey hey hey @Rosewink21 wanted an indie model!con and i wanted to do a thing based off svthsa so here we go,, i hope u enjoy this,,