Dear B,

No need to apologize. I’m just fucked up completely. I should have known my questions were not worth to ask. Anyways, I truly wish I could believe you, I really do. I just feel like you’re too good to be true. Like what are the odds that you found my note? It's unbelievable, really. Nothing seems real anymore. So I am going to assume that you were bored and you really don't care a shit  about me, because lets face it half of the people I know don't care about me so why would you? 

I referred the world to people in my previous letter.

The world has sucked me in its vast deep blue seas, oceans, lakes, rivers, and ponds. Rain follows me constantly. I can’t even stand up anymore due to the heavy rain knocking me down every time I try to stand. I’m freezing in the lovely lies I believed and I’m drowning in pure hatred towards myself.

I want to die because I can’t even help myself anymore. My mind has itself in a whirl wind and I’m completely lost even though I know exactly where I am.

You can see the lost in my eyes but no one notices.

That’s what is getting to me. God, I want to be noticed. But at the same time I want to be forgotten completely. 

Sometimes I just want to sink to the bottom of the ocean where it’s silent and empty. I’ll finally be able to be myself – death.

E

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Author's Note: Hey, so what do you think? I also would like to know in the comments below about your experience with depression or if you knew someone or your advice on it. Anywho, please vote if you liked it and comment! 

Thanks for reading :)