Friday, August 9th, 2012

Dear Dorky Diary, hewwo! It's m-me again... I'm finally lying down in bed after it happened and my head is pounding as if it were about to burst from the countless hours I've shed tears against this pillow of mine that remains stained.

My body shakes, eyes wide with broken emotions.

He's done this again... And mommy didn't protect me.

What did I do that was so wrong? I'm only 15, and he wants me out of the house if I don't get a job. But, I struggle to finish studying because of him. So what job could I have?

I'm Jeon Jungkook, some call me Kookie... Others a disgrace, like my father. To him, that's all I'll ever be. I've never once made him proud. I tried telling mommy what he did to me three years ago, but she didn't believe me, and now that he's gotten worse, I'm scared of telling her.

She's scared of him too. But that doesn't surprise me, why should it? Appa was never a good dad. He was and is a coward that acts friendly around everyone else. But when we're alone, he treats us horribly.

My mom, not so much. He still bribes her with gifts and flowers that dry up and die after three days of him purchasing them... Hah, just like their love. It died many years ago, yet she stayed with him because we have no where else to go.

Now, I know what you're probably thinking: "Woah, a kid who gets beaten up at home must get beaten up at school too." Nope :)

School is the only safe place I have. No one has ever hurt me there, because if they were to do anything... Let's just say they'd regret it later on. I may only have like 2 or 3 friends, but ya boy knows Taekwondo and so do they, and I can kick the heck out of them, haha..

If only I could say the same for that old hag >_>

There's so much of my life that happens to me, and no one knows about it, especially my mom. Who knows, maybe... I'll be able to tell her about what he did to me one day. Just not now.

I gotta go now, time for dinner!

Bye, dorky diary.

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Saturday, August 10th, 2012

Dear Dorky Diary, sorry I couldn't write anything yesterday, mom and dad kept me up all night with their fights. They don't go a day without arguing, which sucks :/

Today, I went out with my best friend named Namjoon hyung! I have him, Jimin-ssi, Jin hyung, Tae Tae, Hobi Hyung.. Let's just say, I got a LOT of hyungs, LOL!

I'm basically the youngest in the friend group, Namjoon hyung introduced me to almost everyone, and we recently became friends with Jimin. He's a little weird, he never really speaks much in the group.

Him and I are the most quiet ^_^ I like Jimin-ssi, he always buys me snacks and we share them before going to school.

But Jin hyung ALWAYS eats it all!

Nah, jk lol. He actually cooks for us all... Especially when I told him that mom never cooks food for me. Wanna know wh-

Gotta go! Mom's calling me!

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~2 hours later~

I'll continue writing tomorrow, bye bye... Dorky Diary.