1/7/2017

dear diary,
im so in love, it's literally not even a joke anymore. han jisung. im so in love with that guy for MONTHS together now. he's literally so perfect; his voice, his beauty and his personality too mostly i think. i really want to try and be friends with him but i have too much fucking anxiety to even go and talk to anyone. i want to boyfriend him but im too afraid to even go and talk to him, there's just no fucking way i'd succeed in boyfriending him.

it's raining outside right and the amount of fake scenarios in my mind are INFINITE. im so delusional god. and just because im delusional im going to write them stories here. delulu hours start now.

just imagine, it being the middle of the night and it's pouring rain, we're walking in the rain, holding hands, getting soaked in the rain. we're in a dark place near the dorms, only there a small light providing a way to see. he looks and me and i panic.

we stop middway, under the rain, rain making him look SO FUCKING ETHEREAL. we look into each other's eyes WHILE HOLDING BOTH HANDS and smile a bit. let's just say we've never fucking kissed ever. despite it freezing outside his hands are warm. he takes small steps towards me, still looking into each other's eyes. it feels like a fever dream. he slowly stands up his tip toes and we kiss. it's not desperate nor nothing, it's just slow and full of love. it's still raining and that's when thunder strikes, nature approves of us.

UGH IM SO DELUSIONAL IM GOING TO PASS AWAY.

- love, min

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minho threw his book across the room to his bed and slammed his head on the desk. god, he was so in love.

he took a deep breath and let out a hyena-like screech, his ears completely red from the amount he was blushing. he hadn't felt like this in so long, especially since his last proper crush in 7th grade.

"minho? you okay there? why are you caterwauling?" seonghwa yelled from the kitchen while a bunch of metal vessels were clanging as the male handled them. soonie whipped his head at his father, dori waking up from his sleep and doongie meowing at the abnormal sound the brunette made.

"yes, i'm definitely fucking okay!" minho yelled back, the sound being muffled since his head was still in his hands. and yet again he let out an abnormally loud screech that didn't sound human at all.

safe to say that seonghwa was extremely concerned but didn't question it.

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im so in love with people that don't exist or don't know i exist, my life is a massive disaster🧍

and im so gay for lee jihoon i will actually cry.