Dear Diary

It's funny how you can go your whole day without thinking about what's happening around you because you distract yourself with things, even little things such as reading or something. But as soon as you take a moment, it could only be a second, everything that has been happening around you falls on top of your head like a ton of bricks and you just break for that split second before you finally accept it and break down.

That's how today went, I was fine studying, talking to my dad about driving to school, and then doing my test in the evening.

I was fine even seeing her today didn't make me want to cry I was fine I actually felt like everything was gonna be ok for the first time in my life.

Well that is until later this day that I stopped for a moment just to think about things and as soon as I did I broke down into tears, I started shaking uncontrollably, and I couldn't breathe.

That's what happens when I cry I have a mini or major panic attack.

My eyes hurt from crying or maybe it's because I'm not sleeping very good these days, neither am I eating right, I always seem to not be hungry or tired when I'm supposed to be I guess that's why I'm sick.

I wish I could turn off all of my electronics and see if anyone would care if I all of a sudden disappeared.

Would anyone care?

Sorry dear diary

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