Dear Diary

I'm back... But I'm not back... I'm in the hospital tired and hating the fact that I can't leave yet.

Aisha has tried to visit but I told my family, sister, and the doctors that she isn't allowed to come in, and if she asks why I told them to make up something. So far the one I like the most is "she's sleeping right now" credits to the doctor who made that up.

I feel dead like there's nothing to live for anymore, I feel alone, and somehow that's comforting to know I'm alone, all alone in this world of greed and selfishness.

I just want to disappear, I have no friends anymore, who I thought was my best friends betrayed me.

I just don't want to continue fighting a losing war, I just so tired of it.

I've lost all my emotions, I feel no pain, love, or happiness. I'm hollow a broken shall that was bandaged up with band aids and cheep duck tape.

I don't have any dream or goals anymore, they all flew out of the window.

I have no heart, it's broken...

And what's worst is I'm scared of what I might do if this continues to go on.

I'm sorry dear diary

Man I feel her pain *starts tearing up* ok I'm good!

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