10th January, 2018

Dear Diary,
I was going through my previous entries, and I would like to clarify something, just to get my thoughts in order. I am not really a sad person. I am grateful for everything I have right now. My family is one person short of perfect, but we are learning to live with that. My friends are really supportive and protective. Everyone knows and loves each other, and we are trying to go back to that happy atmosphere we had before Jungkook left. We all believe in fate and the fact that all of us have a role to play in this world. Maybe Jungkook was meant to leave, in order to be happy himself. Maybe I was meant to be this unattached. We all believe that others may take time to come to terms with the roles of their loved ones. Nevertheless, we must learn to live with the roles assigned to us and everyone else.

I am not a sad person. I just like to keep to myself and think of everything. It's easier to observe and listen to one's surroundings when one is quiet. It is true that I have been feeling down recently. Blame the monotony of life and the fact that I will never come home to Jungkook's smiling face ever again. Something about the way he left the house and slammed the door shut told us that we would never see him again. I'm learning to cope, though. Nothing will ever be the same again, but it can be a fraction of what was. I pray that I haven't lost the hope in my being. Jungkook might have taken a bit of my heart, my life, with him when he walked out of our lives, but I must continue living. He wouldn't want me to waste away in depression and regret.

Here's to getting better.
Min Yoongi

A/N: what is your take on people's roles in their own life and in others? And what do you think of Jungkook's character so far, as portrayed by Yoongi? I kinda tried to make him an ideal person to balance out Yoongi's negative and sad personality.