Dear Diary,

I got a message today.

Not from him, but another boy.

This boy told me how beautiful I am and then asked me to be his girlfriend.

I said no.

I didn't know what else to do.

I love the other boy too much to betray him, even if he doesn't feel the same way about me.

It's been 3 days since we last made contact.

All of my friends have attempted to reassure me.

They have told me that he is probably just really busy and he's probably thinking about me as much as I think about him.

I somehow don't think that's true.

I've left him a message, asking him to message me when he can, saying that I really needed to talk to him.

There are so many things I need to get off my chest and I feel like he's the only one that would actually make me feel better.

My friends have tried and it's worked for a while, but he is the only person that can make me smile for longer than a few minutes.

I just need to hear his voice, for him to reassure me.

I've almost lost all hope, but there is still a part of me hoping that I will wake up to a message from him, a message from him asking me to call him and that we can then have an hour long conversation on the phone and he can tell me how much he loves me and I'll tell him I feel the same.

Part of me still hopes for these things but deep down I know none of it will ever happen and that breaks my heart.

It breaks my heart every morning when I wake up and he hasn't messaged me and it breaks my heart every night when I've spent another day without talking to him.