I have this friend Mariana who a lot of my friends don't like honestly and she says she's popular even though she rly isn't. Not to be rude but she can be a wannabe most of the time. I don't ever really mention that my friends don't like her but she can't stop telling me of how she's popular and they don't like me. Honestly I didn't care but when you mention it again and again, it just becomes hurtful. I hate the people in the friend group that she has too but I can't exactly take back the fact I told her cuz now she does stupid shit like say "yeah this kid hates you just as much as u hate another person" and it's always the same. She's different from when I first became her bestie. Before she was crazy and just like me but a little less artistic and she was really into fashion but now she's full of herself. I wish I could help her. I told her I didn't wanna be invited to her party because she told me people I didn't like were gonna be there and she thinks that it's so bad. I didn't invite her to my real birthday for a reason. A lotta my friends wouldn't clash with her. It takes guts to tell someone the truth and I can't seem to tell her. I really just don't want any drama this year and considering it's only the second week of school, I'm not gonna break someone's heart. I don't rly look at flaws but Mariana's are just way too obvious at times. She's always talking to my other friends bestie Natalia and it's like she replaced my friend. My friends name is savanah and I feel bad for her. I know I can't be her 1st bestie choice and all but we really clash and talk a lot. I'm so sorry for her and Mariana sits at her table from another table just like me so I have to stand her for lunch and also language arts and math. She didn't have math with me in the beginning of the year but she got transferred to advanced Spanish so her schedule changed a little and she ended up in my math class with me and Natalia. At times I feel like Mariana is just using me for my stuff like art supplies or something. I really haven't told anyone about her and the whole situation cuz obviously I hate drama as you know. But I kinda almost feel bad for her, what if she's getting sued my the popular kids or if she really isn't going through the best phase. I have panic attacks and anxiety attacks at times and I don't want people to know because it's really annoying but I told her before and now I'm just kinda regretting it because she doesn't deserve to know really. My life is way different then hers and she thinks that faking depression or some shit is funny or something. It's really not I've went through it and it's isn't fun. Plus she criticized me for not having my damn period and being flat when bitch I don't even try to squat or anything cuz of boys and I'm an artist not a trainer or something and if I go through puberty a little late then it really won't matter as long as I go through it. She's made me insecure about a lotta things like my clothes and my face and my body and just so much. I feel like I need makeup or something to fix me but I don't have makeup or anything cuz my parents don't want me ruining my skin. Also, not to be rude but she thinks she looks amazing all the time when even at times when she says she looks better than me my minds in disbelief.