dear diary...

ever have your world just flip upside down? i don't mean like a temporary rollercoaster loop or anything near that. im being more serious.

my world is defined by those i care for. my fiancée, breann, is definitely one of those people. i haven't been able to see her for two and a half weeks and it is tearing me apart.

i would say it's because things are complicated, or just not as easy to explain as i'd hope for. but unfortunately the explanation is as clear as day:

im infected.

im infected with this disease with no known causes me or known cures. i have been diagnosed with my greatest fear: loneliness.

maybe one day i'll get to see my love again, and embrace her as if nothing ever happened. maybe, just maybe.

alec