Dear diary ,

Today I was discharged of course my friends ditched school to send me home such a bunch of idiots but I love them . When I arrived home I remembered that I had to make a decision will I do the operation that scares me to death and save my life or refuse and die ?

Before I met natsu I wouldn't mind ending my life but now that he's here that they are here it's hard to say goodbye. I'm gonna do the operation for them .

I headed at the library now that my father isn't here or rather isn't alive I'm free to go every where in the house . I did my homework that I missed when I was hospitalized thanks to lisanna who took notes I could catch up with my studies .

When I was done I went to read some books along with some cookies and a glass of milk . Until I received a call .

"Hello "

"Hello is this mrs Lucy heartfilia?"

"Yes it's me. who's speaking?" I asked I didn't recognize the women on the line.

"My names Michelle lobster I'm your fathers assistance and co worker of his company " what is she talking about?

"I'm sorry , my fathers company ?"

"Yes the love&lucky company your father is the CEO "

" I'm sorry Michelle I think you got the wrong person "

" if your father isn't named Jude heartfilia then yes I got the wrong number but since your name is Lucy heartfilia I got the right person I wanted to talk to "

"My father never had a company "

"Yes he did and still does I worked with him for more then 20 years your mother Layla was always with him I used to be their personal assistant "

WHATTT???!!!!

"I don't understand I never knew about it "

"Miss Lucy before your father died he told me to call you on this number and to tell you that he has something for you . When you can call me and I'll send a driver to fetch you "

"A driver ? Ok I'll call you when I can "

"Have a good day miss"

"Thanks you too Michelle "

And that's how I found out that my father was the CEO of the love&lucky company which is near where I live .

I wonder what my father dedicated to me before his death ????

Time passed quickly and I was bored it was now 3:47 in the afternoon that's the time school almost finish so I decided to go and meet the group at the school gates if I make in time the school doors opens at 4 pm sharp that's when everyone goes home .

I quickly put my shoes grabbed my keys and phone then I headed out to meet them .

While I was walking I was thinking if I should tell natsu about my mixed feelings towards him it won't hurt right and besides I also have to tell him about my tumor which creeps me out .

What will his reaction be or no .... What will their reaction be I don't want to see them worried it hurts .

I arrived early at the school gates I waited since it was closed . After what seemed like years of waiting the gates and the school door finally opened and let the students go .

Students after students I finally spotted my pink haired best guy friend / crush hehehe .

I was about to approach him but something stopped me to move further . What I saw broken heart in pieces.

Natsu was holding lisanna's hands with their fingers intertwined while aulisanana's hear was on his shoulder and his on her head .they were walking like that while laughing .

Are they together????

No Lucy they are just friends and besides what proof do you you have mentioned they are together i was about to go near them again until my feet decided to not move AGAIN I looked their way and guess WHAT???!!!!

Natsu kissed lisanna yes he KISSED HER and not on her cheek ON HER LIPS .!!!!my tears fell one by one my heart hurts I couldn't bare the pain I ran home and locked myself in my room I can't believe what I saw WHY WHYYYYY.!!!!!!!!

My phone kept ringing and I ignored it I wanted to be alone . That night I didn't eat I wasn't hungry I kept weeping on my bed over and over again.

The only men I ever loved was taken away from me and worse he belongs to someone else . How long were they together that I didn't even noticed and why didn't they tell me ????

That night lots of things happend my father having a company , natsu and lis are now together and my feelings for him yes I finally understood I love him and since a long time I just denied my feelings maybe if I didn't deny them in the beginning natsu would've been mine .

It's all my fault now I have to pay ...

That's all for today diary I'll talk more tomorrow see you soon .

Love Lucy heartfilia xxx