Dear diary ,

Today it's just an awful day I had a nightmare the same one as in yesterday I'm too stressed out today is our final day of school then it's the summer holidays . I know that I must be happy but the thing is I'm so not .

1: my father will stay home even more now .

2:I just heard that I had a brain cancer

3:I might die

4:I can't tell natsu or he'll be destroyed mentally

5: I keep having the same nightmare

Maybe it's a sign to tell natsu the truth right now he's happy of corse he is since he doesn't know about my tumor what can I do ?.

I went down to eat an apple or something when I felt a stinging pain on my cheek my father slapped me and the reason is ...... Unknown.

He shouted in my face "you bitch what did I tell you huh?!!! I said your not allowed to have friends not even a boyfriend and what did you do " he punched my cheek I went flying on the floor "you hang out with this pink haired boy well you know what will happen next your worst punishment young girl !" I was scarred he never said that. what will he do to me ?.

He started with another punch and when I fell he kicked my stomach I couched out blood for him it was a nice sight cause he then grabbed my hair making me stand up facing him he threw me on the wall and I swear I could hear my bones cracking with the impact my back hurts like hell but he wasn't done "I'll punish you for all those years I spent with you all those years you looked like her but YOUR NOT !!!" He kicked my guts and stamped on my back I kept coughing blood he grabbed my arm harshly and said "that's for always being a burden!" With s quick action my head was knocked on the wall and I felt the dizziness take over my vision was blurry but I still could see my dad came with a knife .... That's new ..... "Your face looks like hers so I'll ruin it you don't deserve to have a features filthy bitch!!".

I never was that scarred in my 18 years I guess it's over for me at least I'll finally be In peace with mum and Virgo . He was about to stab me when the front door flies open revealing natsu and ....... The cops and for the first time I was glad they came .

I tried to reach for natsu "n-natsu " while he just stood there angry with tears eyes .

"How could you do that TO YOUR OWN DAUGHTER!!!!" He shouted and punched his face I saw all my group of friends coming in and their reaction was the same one of the cops took a hold of natsu but soon after erza came and punched his stomach levy slapped his cheek lisanna scratched his face and left bloody marks all over his face while Mira kicked his jaw gajeel soon came and wanted to beat the hell out of him but the police took hold of everyone telling them to calm down I heard a siren sound coming from outside .

One cop said "mr Jude heartfilia your under arrest for the death of mrs Virgo and for abusing your daughter almost killing her mrs Lucy heartfilia your words will judged at the Court in 1 week so for then you have to remain silent get in the car ." I saw my father being taken away while the ambulance came up to me and took me in followed by natsu .

"Hold on Luce we're almost their please don't leave me " he cried while grabbing onto my hand like dear life .

I slowly drifted away my head was exploding with pain . When I woke up I saw my body bandaged and natsu sleeping soundly on the chair his head on my bed and he was still grabbing in my hand .

The same women that did my check up came in the room and natsu jumped up from his sleep "Luce you're awake !! How are you feeling ?" I said I was fine and thanked him apparently I slept for 4 days and in 3 days my father will be judged . The women who did my check up was named Mavis she told natsu to leave us a moment and when he did ........ She said "hi Lucy do you remember me ?" I nodded "well you see the doctors now know about your cancer don't worry I told them to tell no one anyway look there's a bad news and a good one too so the bad news is that thanks to the contact your head had 4 days ago it made the tumor grow quicker then it must so now your on stage 2 and a half your soon gonna be on stage 3 and that's your final chance to live the good news is that you still have a chance to live if you accept to be operated in these days I'll give you one week to decide that's all I can do for you now it's up to you ." I thanked her and she left natsu then came in again we talked about what happened and why I didn't utter a word about it .

Time passed and the time for the visitors was over all my friends came and hugged me good bye . I was lonely again I was thinking about my father what will they do put him in jail ,kill him or free him I don't want to think what would've happened if natsu didn't barged in he saved my life again I owe him a lot now .

And there goes my heart beating fast I remember clearly what Mavis said last time I have to listen to it and find something but what is it ?. I'm not that dumb I think I do have feelings but it's just a mere thought what if what I feel isn't love but attraction or just a need since he never left my side argh I don't know .

Anyway my doctor said that I'll be discharged in 6 days hooray . When I'm feeling better I'll tell natsu my feelings if I can figure them out myself.

Can't wait till I get out diary

Love Lucy heartfilia xxx