Dear diary ,

I talked with Mavis about natsu and I made her promise me that she won't tell him not my group for my death which is supposed to happen tonight .

Even if she is against killing me she doesn't have a choice I prefer to die then living without my loved ones and I also prefer to die then to live like how I used to a scared and lonely girl who now is an orphan.

I told Mavis that when everything is fine that I died she can call natsu and tell him everything I know they'll be heart broken but I ant live anymore it's too hard .

Tonight will be my last moment the doctors + Mavis will inject me with a serum that'll make me sleep until my heart stops beating and then it'll be over I won't feel the pain no pain and no emotion I'll be free and I'll be with my parents and Virgo .

I wanted to right letters to all my friends but it'll take ages to write all my feelings in a letter so I asked Mavis that when they'll come and meet my corpse that she gives them you my diary they'll read the story of a lifetime my story it's more then just simple letters right? .

So here it hours if one day levy reads this I wanted to tell her who much of a amazing best friend she had been when i was still alive I still have the stories we were reading together and I won't forget them .

For juvia we weren't really close but we had a true friendship I wanted to thank her for her kindness and friendship.

For erza even though you have a hard mentality I really loved you as a friend stay the way you are you showed me how much a person can be beautiful inside and outside thanks a lot for being there for me .

For Cana try and stop drinking I don't want her to end up like my father drunk and crazy .Cana you have to stop think about your future your still a teenager you have your life up a head look at your future and stop this nonsense stop drinking.

For mirajane you are just like a sister to me you always give great advice and you don't reject people in need that's what I like about you don't change yourself stay that way . I'll really miss you nee chan .

For lisanna I'm so glad for you and natsu you belong with him take good care of that pink haired guy I'll miss you also thanks for the jokes we shared thanks for the amazing food you cooked me I really loved it especially your delicious chocolate cake and lasagna they were awesome.

For Wendy my little sister please take care of happy for me and take care of yourself I'll miss your cute little face and your adorable moments you were like a little sis for me and you'll always will be bye wen take care .

For gray stop denying your feelings for juvia and return her feelings back even a blind can see how much you love each other hehehe have a happy life and kids maybe hehehehe see you soon ice freak .

For gajeel same goes for you return levy's feelings I don't want to see my best friend suffering when I'm leaving so I want you to be with her when she'll cry in the good and bad times I want you to be with her please stay by her side thanks gajeel .

For Romeo my lil brother please stay with Wendy she'll need you're then you imagine please keep her safe and take care of her I know that if she's with you she'll be safe and sound thanks Romeo .

For jellal stop being shy near erza you idiot . Take care of each other and stop leaving her side if you do I swear I'll come and haunt your dreams I'll become your worst nightmare jelly bean .

For laxus I can already see your future with Mira you guys love each other so why are both of you denying or even ignore your feelings god how dumb can you guys get ? Remember when you were on the hospital bed she was weeping beside you but do t tell her I told you she'll kill me with her demon side who she calls satan soul .

For elfman thanks for sticking beside me big bro you treated me like family and I'll never forget it find the perfect women for you .try evergreen I already know she has a thing for you I sew her staring at you in class believe me she's head over heels for you well good luck big bro .

For natsu I'm so sorry for hiding my brain cancer to you to all of you but I couldn't bare to see you or the others crying for me it'll hurt me to see you like this . I was about to tell you the day I was discharged but fate played a nasty game I saw you with lis and I won't hide how jealous I was to see you two together like that u went back home and that's where everything started I'm sorry I was so selfish . I know you must be thinking what has gotten through me or I must be crazy the truth is I love you yes I really do but like always my stupid self denied her own feelings when I realized it ,it was too late you were with lis I'm happy for you please take care of each other and never leave each other's side please do that for me . I also wanted to thank you cause that's to you pinkie you taught me how life can be wonderful and amazing you saved my life more then you've imagined thanks a lot natsu again I'm so sorry for leaving like this take care of everyone for me bye natsu have a great life with lis .

Well that's all diary thank for everything I guess that'll be my last page well Adieux for now .

Love Lucy heartfilia xxx