Dear Crush,

Sobrang lapit na ng Friday.

Sigurado ako naman ako sa nararamdaman ako, pero may something na pumipigil sa akin.

To be honest, pumasok sa isip ko yung idea na wag kayong siputin pareho, pero naisip ko naman na baka parehas pa kayong mawala...

Baka after nung hindi ko kayo siputin, hindi nyo na ako pansinin or kausapin. Ayoko kasi yung feeling na ganon.

Close friends to Strangers, real quick.

Hindi ko maimagine na  tayong tatlo nila Clyde magiging ganon.

Ngayon ko lang naman naging sobrang Close friend si Clyde eh, buong highschool nakikita nya lang ako bilang kakumpitensya. Somehow, kahit sa saglit na panahon na naging super close kami, nanghihinayang ako at natatakot na baka maging stranger na lang ako sa kanya or worst baka hindi na nya pansinin yung existence ko sa mundo.

That's what I'm feeling right now.

In your case, natatakot din ako syempre. Imagine yung crush mo niligawan ka tapos in a snap of a finger naging back to strangers ulit kayo. Nakakapanghinayang di ba?

I'm so confused.

I don't want to lose him.

I'm scared.

Nung sinabi ko kay mama lahat ng nararamdaman ko, she said I'm having second thoughts.

And you know what she said that actually make things worst?

"If you're so afraid to lose him, it means you love him"

I'm really confused!

I am afraid to lose both of you!

But why am i so scared to lose him than to lose you?

Love,
Arielle Marie