In the morning I woke up having thoughts about you.

When did I never ?

After you had left me that night, all I could think about was 'why?'.

Because you had left without giving me an answer to that question.

Why end something so beautiful, just out of the blue ?

I cursed myself everyday for not stopping you, for not begging you for forgiveness.

I had done something wrong.
I hadn't been upto your expectations.

Afterall you were one of the most popular guys in school and I was just a nerd.

I wish I could change it, change myself.

These thoughts haunt me in my nightmares, even when I'm not sleeping.

Am I not enough ?

Not pretty enough ?

Not thin enough ?

Not good enough ?

I guess I'm not.

No matter how hard I try.

Because if I was, you'd still be here.

With me.

Now.

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