"A kiss, when all is said, what is it ? A rosy dot on the 'i' in loving; Tis a secret told to the mouth instead of to the ear." - Edmond Rostand

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We had been driving for almost thirty minutes and my patience was running out. The truth of the matter is both our houses weren't that far away from the event. He's hand laid on my thigh squeezing it from time to time.

"You better not be taking me back home." I interrupted the silence earning myself a chuckle.

"That's the last thing, i would do." He took my hand gently kissing my knuckles ; his eyes fully fixated on the road. We finally arrived at a grand hotel, i felt my heart flutter.

"I booked us a hotel room." He smirked. "The honeymoon suite so we will just have to pretend to be newlyweds because I kind of lied."

I was a little taken back. "You know you didn't have to besides you can still fuck me in the car or anywhere, it doesn't have to cost you."

"It has to cost me because I love you and you deserve to be fucked in a fuck-worthy place." I didn't know why i was grinning like an idiot.

"Good thinking because I don't think I can handle being embarrassed by your stepmother asking about our sex life ." I gave him a lopsided smile.

"I like how you said 'Our ' sex life." He said bluntly and honestly I didn't know why i was warming up to him like this.

"Besides this is our last night before going back to New York." He muttered but what he didn't know was this was different our last night together as in ever. I do not want to get attached. I do not want to be hurt. It's better to break it off before I'm in too deep.

- Ain't you already in too deep.

"I will make it worth it." He pressed his lips on my temple before exiting the car. I followed right behind him and he enveloped my hand into his making it a perfect fit.

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At the reception we were met by this lovely lady in her early forties. She seemed nice. "Royal suite under Styles." Harry spoke in a serious tone, which I had never seen before infact it was attractive.

"Oh right." She checked her computer then returned back to us with a broad smile. "Mr. Styles and Mrs. Styles Congratulations and there's your keycard." She gave a genuine smile. "The walls for the Royal Suite are sound proof make as much noise as you want." She whispered like it was a top secret seeming excited. I hid my face in Harry's neck dying of embarrassment.

The hotel was so beautiful, i always thought only the rich and famous could afford these. The people who were walking in and out of it seemed to fit the part of maybe they were a little overdressed. "Now we get to the fun part, i have a surprise for you." He said as we entered the elevator. We couldn't do much there many people with uptight serious faces. Finally reaching the twenty-third floor. I felt a feeling of euphoria rush through my veins not knowing what to expect. A part of me hoped Harry would just go back to being a jerk so I could also go back to hating him.

- nervous too many nerves.

Swiping his key card he opened the luxurious room. Ofcause it was magnificently breathtaking. It seemed gold was the main themes, from the ceiling to the chandelier to the crystal dim lights.

it seemed there were only two rooms on this floor because of their huge sizes and honestly my first thought was...

- How did he afford all this ? Why waste it on me.

I then noticed rose petals on the Mable floor, following them. They were a leading trail to the huge King size bed. It seems Harry was already removing his suit. I was taken aback, I'm not a hopeless romantic but this honestly made me grin like an idiot. I felt happy, that's not a usual feeling but at that moment all my uncertain feelings coming crushing down.

"Do you like it ?" He asked behind me and I turned back. I didn't realize a tear had escaped from one of my eyes. I didn't know why i was crying. I wanted it to stop because I'm not a crybaby. God no it felt like the old me was returning and I didn't want that to happen.

"Babe are you okay ?" He questioned with a worried tone, i didn't realise that him asking made me cry even more.

- Stop crying just stop Zaneh.

I hid my face in his chest hiding my shame because I finally knew why I was crying.

"Why would you do this Harry ?" I hiccuped as he wiped some i of my tears with his thumb.

"I just thought since, I know this will sound silly but-" He paused not finding the right words to explain himself.

"Just tell me.." I hated that he had to see me vulnerable, i absolutely distasted it. He led me towards the huge bed with red rose petals all over. He knelt down before me, holding my hand in his.

"Zaneh I just thought since your first time wasn't the most splendid, i just thought you deserved more than being fucked in my apartment by a guy who mistreated you in highschool. You deserve better than that infact I know I can't turn back time but I can make things right. I did all this so I could fix this. Even though you said you wanted your first time to be that way...rough and all. I know no girl would want that even you Zaneh. You deserved better and I'm sorry I treated you lie crap and took your virginity without vanity." I felt watery substance wailing up under my eyes. The old Zaneh always imagined her first time to be some sort of special but I didn't allow myself to feel crappy about it. I didn't like myself, infact I just had a low self esteem that what I did with Harry was just to- prove a point. I don't know what i was thinking...

I didn't want to feel infact I didn't feel anything for a while.

"I love you and I want to prove to you that I can be a better man for you not just an arsehole." He explained with genuine pride in his green emerald eyes.

"I want correct all my wrongs with all the rights, if you allow me."

"Yes." I smiled at the thought.

"Make love to me Harry." I kissed him softly and I could feel the smile tugged on his lips. "That was the plan love." He let his lips linger on my lips as he looked into my eyes not breaking any eye contact. We were literally breathing the same air and I loved the feeling.

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