Warning!!
This letter does discuss partial physical abuse, not in detail, but the word alone can be triggering. If anyone is experiencing abuse, please speak up before it's too late.
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Dear Boo,

I just want to start by saying that you are an angel from heaven. I have read your book Dear Boo and it’s amazing and I love how you try and help people with what they are going through ❤️. Your a sweet amazing person and I hope God blesses you with all of your prayers and he gives you miracles❤️

My nickname is Blueberry and the reason why I’m called blueberry is that I love blueberries and blueberry flavored things❤️

I am writing to you is because I trust you and I know that you can help me with what I’m going through.

I having a difficult time with my parents and they are just overwhelming me and stressing me out about school and they make me feel very stupid.

Yesterday I got into a physical fight with my mom and she slapped me 2 times in the face and said mean things to me. I got really mad and said things that I wasn’t supposed to.

I’m tired of her and her shit and sometimes I hate her to the point where I just want to beat the living shit out of her. This has happened many times before and I just wish it would stop.

Because of this, my depression is getting worse, and my anxiety is just off the charts. Keep in mind that I’m a sophomore in college and I’ll be turning 20 in just a few days. I just want to run away and never come back. I just had enough of everything. And I also wish that I could come out to them and tell them that I am pansexual. I’ve tried coming out to them before and it ended badly. Just to shorten what happened, I went to prom with bruises all over my body......

So Boo, what do you think I should do?

Much love and admiration,
Blueberry

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(There is no blueberry emoji, so I went with my fave berry lol)

Dear Blueberry*,

Firstly, thank you so very much for the compliments! That means so much to me. I don't do this for recognition, I began this journal because I love helping others and I've known what it's like to feel alone. So your compliments mean so much to me. I appreciate you trusting me with everything going on with you. Now, on to your topics –

You are not stupid! Please believe me when I tell you those four words. I'm very sorry that your parents make you feel this way, and everything has now led to abuse, physically and emotionally.

I don't think you hate your Mom. I think you hate the things she does and says to you, which are extremely wrong btw. I've never understood how a parent can hit their child. Yes, my kids have been spanked. Because I believe more kids today need this. But, you're no longer a child, even if your Mom treats you like one.

Have you tried talking to your Mom about how she treats you? Sometimes parents don't realize that words hurt, just as much – if not more – than a slap to the mouth. If she still doesn't understand, then maybe you need some time away from her.

Once my Mom and Grandma (Maw)  had issues, my Mom wrote my Maw a letter and described how badly she hurt her. My Maw never had a clue, until the letter. It did bring them closer after that. Mom was hurt from the words she would say to her, so she had enough of it. Their bond is stronger now.

From the sound of how you went to prom, I'm guessing this isn't the first time they've abused you. I'm so sorry that you have to experience this. No parent should ever be this way. No child sound have to dear their parents.

I do recommend seeing a therapist, keeping things bottled up isn't good for your mental health.

I'm not sure of your living arrangements, but if you live with your parents I highly recommend moving out. If you live alone, take a much-needed break from your parents. If things get worse and they continue to physically abuse you, then more dramatic forces may need to be taken.

I truly wish every family member would accept their loved ones for their sexuality, but in a harsh reality – this doesn't happen. Your parents can't choose who you love and are attracted to. You're an adult, love who you wanna love, baby! I'd they don't accept that, then they don't accept you. Sometimes people need out of our lives before we can fully live. If your parents love you as they should, they will come around in time. If not, well then you will learn a harsh truth.

I will accept my children no matter what sexuality they are. My boys are teens and straight, but my girls are young and ya never know, all 4 can change. No matter what they know they have my full support. I love people for who they are inside.

Anytime you need to talk more deeply, just send me a pm or email. I'm always here for people, no matter what.

Much Love,

Boo

*Name has been changed to protect identity.

** Video attached is Born This Way by Lady Gaga.