Ben's letter that he gave to Ella:

Dear Ella,

In the last letter I had told you about the argument I had with my parents that had to do with me being so called ‘depressed’. Well I was forced to go to the doctors a few days ago to check if I was or not.

I was diagnosed with severe depression.

This was what I was running away from. I didn’t want to be depressed. I can’t.

But I guess it is my fault for running away from the only thing that could’ve healed me.

I’m such a fool, Ella.

I just wish you could still write to me because you were the only person who could reassure me that everything was going to be okay. I wish I could’ve been that for you.

If I could go back in time and change the part where I saw the letter you wrote, I would. Maybe you would be still alive now if I hadn’t of written you back.

I should’ve known I couldn’t handle dealing with another girl who was depressed.

But I couldn’t stop myself from falling in love with you.

You were, no, you are and always will be the most beautiful girl I’ve ever met. Inside and out.

Ella, is it insane of me to still love a girl who is dead?

Because I’m in love with you Ella.

With much love,

Benjamin

Suddenly Ella regretted reading his letter because all the feelings she had for him from the very beginning came rushing back. 

She spent the whole day re-reading all their old letters and emails only to fall asleep with tears in her eyes.