Dear Andrew, 

Can you believe it's almost time? Just over a month away and then our little box will be here. Time has actually gone really fast and everything has been going great. For the baby anyways. I however, haven't been doing that well. 

They say to start the chemo now since the baby is almost full term, risk is minimum, blah, blah, blah. But like I have said a thousand times already, I just can't risk it. Any risk, be it less than a percent is something I'm not willing to take. This is our chance to start a family and I'm not going to ruin it again. 

You're pulling up in the drive now, I love you 

Spencer xx