Dear A,

          I wasn't supposed to write to you today or tomorrow or the next day or the day after that. In other words, I wasn't gonna write to you anymore. Why? The recent letter actually frightened me for some reason. I literally went stiff the moment I finished it, and my heart felt like it stopped beating. I don't know why... Maybe I was scared. Yeah, that's probably it.

To be honest, I was partly lying.

          I haven't actually gave up on you...yet. I mean, not now but eventually I will. It's unhealthy holding on to you. Well, that's what my friends said. You're gone and I should move on. And if I should move on then I suppose you should too.

          But you already did.

          And it's kinda obvious.

          The fact that you don't miss me.

                                                                                                                                     -J