Dear A,

I don't know what to say.

I saw you today and I cried.

I don't know why, but I cried. You even approached me to give me a hug, but I couldn't even face you because I was crying too much so I just ended up giving you a high-5. I regret that now. I should've hugged you back since you approached people and gave hugged them. I was one of those people. You chose me, but I didn't want to. And now I regret it. Really. I remember the last time we hugged was during your graduation. You even asked for permission if it was allowed to hug girls. Only for that occassion I suppose. You were leaving anyway and I thought that would be my last chance. But it wasn't. I wish I did hug you, but I wasn't prepared. I thought I was prepared, but in reality I wasn't. I wasn't ready for that. Well, I guess that proves one thing that I was dreading for a while now.

I wasn't ready to move on.

          -J