Yet again I find myself pouring my feelings into my Powerpuff friends. I felt bad because this isn't my business to say, but I am just so confused by this.

"I am not just saying this because I have a huge fucking crush on you, but I think Ky is bad for you." Brooke pointed out.

"Hang on, you are ruining my ship." Aubrey argued.

"Hear me out. Ky seems to affect you a little too much to the point where you have violent outbursts. You got into three fights with James over this guy, ripped up his poster and now you are telling me you punched a few holes in your wall." Brooke said, calling me out.

Looking back at it there seems to be more bad than good. I mean I like hanging out with Ky, but he seems to be causing a lot of trouble for me.

"Must I point out that you tried texting him a few times and neither of you pursued the conversation." Brooke continued.

"You are just biased." Aubrey said. "Ty, how do you feel about Ky."

I don't know. I hate all humans equally. Also why is it also about Ky. Is Ky the only person I can be with? I mean just because he likes me doesn't mean I have to like him back. Look at Brooke, she has a huge fucking crush on me and I am not returning her feelings.

"Why are you all assuming I like guys?" I asked.

"It's not like you ever corrected us. Gay jokes also don't bother you." Erin answered.

"Nothing bothers me. I make deaf jokes for crying out loud. Feelings mean nothing to me." I whined.

"So why are we having this talk?" Erin asked.

That is an excellent question. I never truly hung out with anyone outside of a group setting. I didn't have one on one time with anyone. I am just trying to fit into this love triangle that these girls wrote me in.

I feel like I need to ask Ky about James. With the tournament right around the corner there has to be a reason why James is tormenting Ky. What were they before I moved here? Ky says they were exs like they were dating while James calls it an experiment.

I want dating advice but my father is a lost cause because the only girl he ever dated in his entire life was my mom. I am just so confused and need help.

The rest of practice was a blur. Ky landed all of his hits on me. I could tell that he was worried when I gave up blocking.

I was so happy when everyone left because I wanted to go to bed. I made the fatal mistake of looking at my phone to read a message from Ky.

Do you still want to know about James?

I didn't need to answer. Ky texted the entire story.

Scene set, freshman year. I met James at lunch. He approached me because I was wearing a T-Rex boxing T-shirt. I really like your dad by the way. Anyway we bonded by passing notes about it.

James was about 100 pounds heavier and wanted to get into boxing. So we would practice with each other a lot. We did that for a year, and I helped him lose all that weight. I felt this bond, because he was the first person that I felt like could hear me. I liked him a lot.

I asked if he liked guys and he told me he never thought about it before. So, I kissed him. I thought he liked it because we did a lot of stuff. I will spare you the details unless you want them, but they are X-rated bro.

Suddenly this year comes and he acts like nothing happened. It sucks, because I don't know what I did. And it's not like we can talk about it.

I felt so bad for Ky. Ky helped James lose weight and get confidence and James thanks him by going after his sister.

Do you still have feelings for James? I had to ask. I had to know. I just don't know if knowing would help me or hurt me.