Discussing going back ends up in long yelling battles. No one is willing to let me go back even with Feya explaining what has to be done. My mother nearly throws a dagger at her and Feya uses her blade to block it. This is the first time I have seen Feya use her skills and she is no joke, hands down the baddest bitch I have met. We have moments to where we agree and then someone thinks too much of the what-ifs then we start yelling. We do this for three hours until  Clarissa calls for a break. Everyone needs to take a break and moment to themselves. "We all need time to process and to think thirdly we will meet back in an hour." My mother says. Feya and I decided to go visit Atlas for a while and he has gotten bigger. He gets so excited to see me that his running makes me fall on my but. Even Feya is on the ground. When he reached me, he couldn't help but give me a chin hug. He is so excited he keeps rubbing his head into me and I think he forgets how big he is cause he knocks me over and digs me into the ground. "Hello, Atlas. I am so happy to see you." I soul-communicate and don't expect to hear a deeper voice come through. "I have missed you, Nubia. I am almost big enough to join you." I smile and realize that he is catching up to the other tiger thing. Mental note look up what he is.

We walk across the grass plains to a hit where a tiny woman comes out. She looks like she is about 100 years old. "Tita this is Nubia." Feya doesn't even get to finish the introduction when the woman comes to me and grabs my hands. Her eyes are grey and she smiles at me. "A long time ago souls came for help. Souls needed worriers to fight evil demon. Rogue demon killed humans for fun and made souls slaves. Demon powerful. But warrior more powerful." She points to her chest and then continues, "Warrior hurt for killing innocents but became stronger for the world. Warrior fought demon and won. When the blade came down into heart. Souls stopped and left willing to repair who helped get them home safely God and devil came to grant my life. To be human and die of old age. Warrior accepted as long as she got to stay in village and with her people." She points to the landscape. She was able to stay alive because she had repeated protection of her soul and collected the other ones. Feya looks at me and I look at her. We have a start to our plan.

We are waiting for the other to show up back to a broken table and we are glad to see Clarissa come in first. She has a coffee in her hand and a donut in the other. "Don't judge me. Your mother won't let us smoke so I'm going to enjoy this fucking donut." She says. Feya and I look at each other and giggle. We film her in on what she will be doing during the war and after we win. My mother comes in next and we let her know that she must make sure Clarissa stays Alive and as well as she needs to get her to me before I have to sacrifice. Finally, Damian and Ezikel come in sweating. I'm sure they went for a run or they boxed. My mother fills them in and Damian is the only one not on board. But it's five to one and he doesn't have a choice to be on board or not. We also need to get back in Yessicas grasp because if she doesn't have me I will lose her deeper to another soul. Then I tempered they had bugs attached to them. "You guys are buffed. Yessica has been able to watch you this whole time. She fucking now's the plan." I start to freak out when my mom finally steps to my side. "Yessica is a master manipulator. She can conspire stories out of thin air and make you believe they are real. You are safe she can see anything. And everything she showed you is probably a lie." My mother is holding my arm as she is pulling me closer. That bitch she was playing me all along. I'm sure she was playing me with my head even that day I saw Clarissa kiss Damian. "Oh she is good but I think it's time we get her back," I say. We sit down to find a way for me to get back. The palace and the e decide the best way to get me back in is if I beat the shit out of the people I love and care to get back to her. They don't like the fact that I have been with this girl before and possibly may have been in love with her like I was once with Ezikel. Damian rolls his eyes and scoffs. I keep going to let them know that she still loves me and she still wants me and I need to make her believe that Balentine was a backstabler. I have to sabotage myself to get back in her good graces. Tomorrow morning I will have to riptide attack everyone and hurt them badly this way the image sticks in my head. All the souls in my head are in on it. We need to make this as best as possible so I let my soul go into a sedative state and let the other souls kick everyone's ass. They just aren't allowed to kill them.

My soul awakes to a knife stuck in my leg as I am wandering a forest and limping. Holy fuck does it hurt. I am also brutally beaten and can barely breathe. I hear shuffling off to my left side then my right. I grab the knife from my leg ready to go into battle. One of Yessicas guards caught up to me and just like we planned they picked me up and took me to an abandoned wear house. I am bleeding a lot in the car but they are given an order before they can help me. Yessica comes out and she looks at me pissed off. "What makes you think you should come back here? Why shouldn't I just fucking kill you? Because I beat the shit out of my family to get back to you. I want to be with you. She grabs my head and sees the brutal beating everyone received. I also was able to learn to change my thoughts about what happened ed when I showed up. She sees that I made a plan to escape I let her see that I "faked cry" and then had everyone believe I was on their side well I was secretly planning to hurt them so I could leave and get back to Yessica. Yessica moves in and kisses me. She gives me her soul dust so I can heal and then I taste it. Yessica love is leaking through and it's like getting a cinnamon roll but her soul isn't the only soul I am tasting. this has to be Nell's soul too.