Yessica reaches into her bag and hands me a black leathered book. As looks down at the book like it is the deepest darkest secret and walks away with looking at me. The leather is original and the paper is older than anything I have ever seen. As I enter the room my dad is snoring. I open the book and start to read the story:

Entry one
Today was bright and the flowers have just bloomed from a horrid winter. The air is so fresh and feels amazing to go out in a less heavy dress. Of course, I have upset the angels for not wanting to abide by their rules but my god why do we have to follow what he says and all thy holy shit. I'm over it. I want to be free. Like the girl I met at the river bank who had a short skirt on and her stomach was showing. Her hair was jet black and she had black makeup on. She is free from anyone. She wants me to meet up with her tomorrow at the holy gates. She says I must sneak out but not to tell a soul. I can't even tell my best friend Lucile.

Entry two
We went swimming she had me swim naked with her and at first I thought it was wrong but she said it was fine and no one was going to see us. We swam and swam around the lake. It started to get late and I decided that I needed to head back. I got out of the water naked and she came out after me. She asked if she could hug me naked and I agreed that it would be fine. I felt something in my stomach. Like a burning as well as a tingle between my legs. I don't understand what this is or was but I want to feel it again, only with her. She told me to come meet her in three days at the lake again but at night time.

Entry three
I almost slipped to Lucile about my plans with a woman, whose name I need to learn. I have hugged her naked and I don't even know her name.

Entry four
The holy says it is time that I leave to go have a mate. I don't want to go have a mate. I need to stay two more days to finally see her. But the holy isn't going to let me. What am I supposed to do?

Entry five
I decided I was leaving the holy gates and going to live outside of them and not let them force me to find a mate on the earth below. I will wait one more day to see her beautiful face again. I hope she will want me the way I think I want her. I don't know what this feeling is but I don't want it to go away. Please don't let it go away.

Entry six
She arrived and didn't even let me explain anything she just took my hands and guided me
Down to earth. She has dark hair and green honey eyes. Her body is slim but has muscle. She is, idk what she is but I want her bad. We found a house that she bought and we laid naked. She didn't let us do anything but rub each other. My hand at first rubbed her belly and then she grabbed my breast. Not forcefully but gently. She creased my nipples and the biting in my stomach really started to make me wet between my legs. Which I didn't know was a thing. She told me that we can touch each other but we can't fully feel each other till I am ready. But I am ready. I want her to have me. Whatever that means. I'm an angel and I just, I don't know what this is.

Entry seven
She took me out to a nice place where we watched the moon rise. She told me she loved me but she still won't give me her name. She took me back home and told me to get naked. I undress in front of her. She doesn't wear dresses like I do she wears suits like the men do in the streets. She tells me to sit on her lap naked. I would do anything for her. She finally put her finger in my hole down there. She was not naked at first just me. Then she had me lay down on my stomach so she could lay on top of me. Her vagina was on my but and she slid her fingers back between my legs she did this several times. She wouldn't let me touch her. She told me to cum and keep cumming for her.

Entry 12
Nell's said that we need to have him in our bed. We needed to sleep with him and I needed to let him inside of me. She will be right here the whole time. This man came in and Nell's touched me and then this guy came on top of me. My body was shaking. I don't know why I agreed to this. He shoved his thing in me and it hurt and I wanted it to stop but then it started to feel good when Nell's started to caress my clit she was under me well he was on top of me. She kept telling me to open up to him and let him fuck me. Which felt dirty. I felt dirty but how do I tell her I don't want to do that again? I want her to love me.

Entry 13
Nell says she needs space and she packed a suitcase.

Entry 14
I feel lost when is she coming home? What did I do?

Entry 15
Why isn't she back home? What do I do? Where is she? Why can't she love me? Am I not enough? Am I dirty

Entry 16
Still nothing and I am craving this feeling. I need to have someone touching me.

Entry 17
They don't warn you about having sex makes you want it more.

Entry 18
If she doesn't come home to me I'm going out to town and finding a guy like she found me. I'm going to fuck him and start to erase her.

Entry 19
I found Nell's. She was kissing other girls. So I followed them and watch her fuck these girls like she is to fuck me. But she has them come on her. They are rubbing them o
Together. We never did that she always made me lay on my stomach or top of her. She even had a guy fuck me well she touched me. Well, it doesn't matter because I murdered all three of them. I am a fallen angel. But something was floating in front of me so I sucked it up through my mouth and something switched in my soul. I felt more alive and I am craving both naked bodies on me and wanted to eat their fucking soul

Entry 37
I have killed over 3675 people and I have devoured their souls. I mean I fuck them before I kill them and then I have their soul. I'm on top of the world and no one even knows it's me. I'm fucking killing them and it's fucking fantastic. Sex and murder their like the most powerful medicine I have ever taken.

Entry 46
I met a girl today who treated me with sick kindness. She even grabbed my hand as we ran down the halls of this building they were going to call a church. She is beautiful and unbelievably so soft. I want to kiss her. But I don't know if she sees me as her friend or as more. Maybe I will try it tomorrow during our picnic.

Entry 47
Well I kissed her she kissed me back and let me know that she does have feelings but she doesn't know if she can have those feelings because she also likes someone else. But she doesn't want to hurt me. This is the most honest someone has ever been to me. I don't know if I should kill her or keep her. My beautiful butterfly. Nubia.

Entry 48
I have kissed her and slept next to her for four days in a row now. We haven't had sex she just likes sleeping next to me. I also met the other person she has feelings for. His name is Ezikel. I haven't killed a person since she has been around. I think she can change me. I'm hoping she can because I feel like I can't live without her. She is also going to go talk to the press and see if she can get a job but we're in the 1500s I don't know if anyone is going to give her a job

Entry 49
I watch Nubia be murdered in broad daylight. She was smiling at me and waving. The next thing I hear is the gun go off. It was so fast I ran to her side and she m. Umm, she just died. I swear her soul came out and I couldn't. I couldn't take it. It wasn't right.

Entry 50
I had to bury her in an unmarked grave because no one said they knew her. That asshole Ezikel didn't even show up. He made me burst her on my own. I planted some sunflowers I hope they bloom for the rest of her time on the ground. What am I going to do without her?

Entry 51
I will devour souls again and make sure no one will be able to know that I have one weakness. I will show god and Lucifer how wrong they are about taking things that don't belong to them. They want power well I just found a way to make me the most powerful thing of them all. I will have my family in the end and I will not have anyone take it away from me. I will have a wife and two kids. But I must take out the people who will just steal them away from me. They have to go so I can be happy.

Yessica was in love and on top of that she was an angel. She murdered because of love and started to eat souls for vengeance. She also was in love with me and had to bury me on her own. Ezikel was there and he didn't even show up to bury me. I have so many questions and I know I can't walk over to her room now because she may think the wrong thing and the last thing I want to do is send mixed signals about wanting to be either her or even sleep with her. I don't know if I feel that way for her or girls in general. I mean Clarissa kissed me but I don't at all feel the way she is talking about in this journal. Also, where are the missing pages? There are even pages missing in the back it stops at entry 51 but there is writing on these pages that was ripped out. On the next page couple of pages, I can tell she went on a murder spree and this page which if I counted right is entry 87 or 88 says I found her but that's all I can read. What isn't she telling me and how many times has she run into me and thought I was going to stay? I also want to know about how she decided that she was going to be a soul eater when she devoured Nell's soul. I know she won't answer any of this but there was a reason she handed me this book. She trusts me enough to give it to me and let me know a little about her life. I also think she is addicted to sex now more than she wants to find love.