There was no full day and not enough time to sleep. Well, I slept three hours before Ezikel came and knocked on my door and pushed my bed with the door. I'm sure he almost broke the door but he doesn't care. He comes and sits at the top of my head and starts to rub my head and move my hair out of the way. The movement of his hand is making me feel calm and I know he is using whatever supernatural powers I don't know about to make me feel less reactive. "You know you can't always use powers on me to make me want to talk to you." I say trying to sound annoyed but I am far from it. "I'm not using any superpowers. I am just trying to be calm and not approach you in a dick way." He says in a calm tone. I lift myself and look up at him. He is so much calmer and sweeter than Damian but still as much as I want to fall for this guy I know there is a reason my soul tie is with Damian. "Ezikel why are me and Damian soul tied?" I ask knowing this may hurt him in the end but I need to know the truth. "Well Damian believes you were made for him by god and his father a long time ago but we have learned that your souls chose to be with the person the most desire and love. You must have wanted Damian before our souls became actual angels or energy in the universe. I believe you and Damian were stars made of different components who needed each other to burn on another's flame. You guys keep each other alive and push one another past your guys' limits because you guys believe that the other is capable of doing something more. I wish I could say that is me for you but I know it isn't. Even Yessica is that for you. Yes, she can push you but it only damages your soul to keep her satisfied. We want you selfishly and Damian just wants you because you both are good for each other. You never take too much from him and he does the same with you. He loves you for everything you are even when he had to do those terrible things. He knew if he kept you, you wouldn't be the Nubia we know. You would have killed us all without even knowing what you were doing.Damian has had to sacrifice you so many times that I didn't think he would watch for this time. I was even surprised that he found you in Las Vegas but the weird thing is he says he wasn't really looking for you. You fell into his lap and all of a sudden he couldn't help himself. At first, I thought he was being his typical self and just wanting to have you one last time but you ended up staying in the same hotel. He even tried to Avoid you but you were at every corner, bar, and food place he went to. He was memorized by you. He couldn't pull away and Clarissa tried to distract him from you but your soul was calling him and he couldn't walk away this time. So he fell in love with you all over again. In one night you changed him. He noticed you tasted different as well as he saw that you noticed to soul dust. Deep down his soul growled and he convinced us that you were different and that we needed to keep an eye on you." As he finishes I notice that talking this way hurts him because he must have had a glimpse of hope that I would choose him or maybe it's the fact that he would have to kill me. "Why did you have to kill me? I mean I get the whole purpose of you protecting the work but who gave the orders? God did and it was my honor to serve him." He says. "Well fuck your honor Wxikel and fuck you for not even arguing to try to save me. You just decided in that moment I was evil and that was that. You killed me over orders and that shit is fucked. You have to know that just because you are supposed to be holy. Well, you absolutely aren't." His hands twitch and tears begin to fall. Every cell in my body wants to comfort him but fuck that. He killed me over honor and duty. So fuck that shit. He can cry all he wants I'm tired of people playing with my soul and making me relive a life and all I do is die in the end. Ezekiel and I sit there in dead silence and you can hear the wind outside. Finally, the silence is broken by him clearing his throat. "Look Ezikel I know you were just doing what you were told by your father or God whatever you want to call him but did you even question why you had to kill me? Why possibly you couldn't save me or if I was even worth saving." My voice is breaking and I can feel the limp in my throat. Don't you dare fucking cry? I keep trying and I keep trying to swallow the tears that are burning at the back of my eyes. Finally, he speaks. "I didn't question anything because I didn't want to be a fallen angel I didn't want to lose my family. They only ones I knew. I saw what happened to Yessica when she became a fallen angel. She was dependent on someone so dangerous and thought that was love. She thought that was the only person who was going to save her and yes Nell did make her believe it but you've seen what Nell is capable of. That isn't love. That is pure evil and possibly the worst thing to ever happen. But I know she isn't the only fallen angel who finds that kind of relationship. Fun fact when you become a fallen angel you don't get to find the person you are meant to be with you find all the bad because you decided to take a path away from god and that is scary to me. But now as I am looking at you and knowing what god has done what Lucifer has done to you. It just isn't fair to see you being played with you anymore. So I'm telling you know as your true friend you are my family and I will disobey that honor. Because you are worth firing for." I'm crying because he is willing to throw it all out the window for me. He wants to be a part of my family and he will become something he is afraid of to protect me. "Exikel you and I both know I won't let that happen if it comes down to it you will need to do what God and Lucifer say because if I go rogue I know you guys are the only ones to stop so please make sure if things don't go according to plan you take me out. Don't let anyone stop you." I say as he is battling with himself and finally, he takes a deep breath. "I'm not making any promise because if you go rogue I'm going with you. We promised forever together and I'm going to keep that promise now. I'm not going to fucking break it no more. We are life partners and we are going to do this together now. No more just you dying if you go I go okay." His tears come out heavy and this is the first time I have heard him curse. This angel is willing to lose his wings over me and I think this is the first time he is speaking his truth about the promise he made and broke so long ago. He is willing to fight for me so I will do the same. If I go rogue I will take myself out because I honestly don't think any of these people will. They want to believe I am good but there is something deep inside of me that is trying to crawl out maybe it is 98 souls in my body or the fact that I can't hide that I am different since the first day we met and I just don't know it is for the better or the worst.