The room slightly spins as my eyes start to open, which is a bad idea. Because my head starts to pound. The knock on my door sounds like drums going off in the room. They knock again when I don't respond and I think I might just murder this person if they don't walk away from this door right now. The door knob shakes and it clicks. The smell of bacon, eggs, and waffles fills the room. "He my drunken sunshine, thought you might need some food for that wine hangover." My dad is trying to use the most quiet voice I have heard out of him. I smile at him and feel so grateful for this man who knows that was my first time having wine and it doesn't play nicely when you have 6 or possibly 8 glasses. He snaps his fingers and holds a finger up. He walks out of the room and comes back with two cups of coffee. I smile even bigger because coffee is my best friend and is needed after drinking. We finish our breakfast in complete silence. Before my dad walks out he gives me four ibuprofen and points to my seat with four bottles of water. I throw them back and slam a water bottle. I lay back down and crash out.

The water runs down my body for 20 minutes until I decide it's time to wash. The replay of last night keeps going on in my head. Ezikel isn't wrong that I would love Damian but what if our love isn't ever meant to be together? What if I am to just die every time and he will never truly get to have me? I also won't have the family I want because I didn't even survive long enough to have one. Maybe this time I decide to choose that over not having the family I want. I need to have this discussion with Ezikel before I fall for him or maybe we end up together in the end. Who knows it might be one of the best love stories.

I catch up with Ezikel who is in a meditate state on the mats. "I didn't even know you were coming. I'm going to need to learn to meditate harder." He laughs and ell he extends his long legs out. "Can we talk about last night?" I ask him. "Of course we can." He gives me his undivided attention. "I know that my and Damian history is to repeat over and over but what if this isn't what I want anymore. I want a family Ezikel. I want to have kids. Even if this means that we don't end up together either I just want to know what if I decide to do that. And what if me and I do end up together and we live a happy life together? Please I just need to know that I am going to be okay without having him in my life in that way." Some tears escape as I finish. He breathes in deep and starts to say, "You were the first human that Damian fell for over 25000 years ago. You guys just sparked and honestly, you kept him on his toes every 100 years you showed up and each time he tried his hardest to have you. Then god had me come along to see if I could change your date maybe lead you down a different path. I don't think I or anyone can change how powerful your guy's soul is connected.. but this is the first time I have heard you discuss your wanting a family and wanting more so maybe something has shifted in you that may not wants Damian no more but I don't think I'm the answer either. I don't even know if angels can have families." He says as his head lowers. "Well then let's just keep going the way we are and figure out if you can have a family or not," I say and he looks in my eyes and they are glossy. "Nubia, you did fall for me once. And Damian was pissed that I got you first. But I did love you with everything in me. But the difference between me and Damian is that I knew you were human. I knew you would get old and so I asked god to make me human so I could grow old with you and on the day I was going to be a fallen angel a deal accident happened and you died. Your fate is something I couldn't even rewrite and it nearly killed me. After that Damian and I never looked eye to eye and a couple of times we nearly killed each other." He sounds defeated telling me this. "Wait, is that why there is a tint of pink dust In our soul dust because I fell in love with you once before." He nods his head to confirm my thinking. "So no matter what I will die even if I try to change my fate. "My voice shakes with the thought of that. "But each time you have been human Nubia. This is the first time you were created to be something more. I don't know if you can die. You are also the first of your kind they're isn't anything in any book or search I have conducted. I'm hoping you do get to stay longer. I would rather be friends for a trillion years instead of five." He says with a smile and tears running down his face. Then the realization is they only get to know me for five years before I die. I wonder if we can change that or possibly fight for one more year.

We are lying on Ezikels bed watching the"Little Rascals. He has never seen it and he can't stop laughing. "These little kids got some amazing friends and of course, there had to be a girl stirring up the drama between pals." He says well staring at me. "Hey, I'm not the one who told you guys to fall in love with me. You guys did that all on your own. Also, I don't like the whole male dominance for female attention it's not attractive." I say with my hand shaking back and forth with my head. "Maybe you should Damian that he thinks that's who you are." His voice lowers and gives me a look like he shouldn't have said that. "What was I like in these past lives? Am I still the same now or have I changed?" I feel like my heart is going to explode at whatever his response is. He is thinking and I think he isn't going to tell me but then he takes a deep breath and starts, "You are nothing like what you were back then. You enjoyed me and Damian fighting for your attention. We went to war for you.. just so you could die. Your heart also wasn't as big as it is. You care about everyone and would be secretive yourself for anyone to simply be happy. You also never wanted kids back then. You never wanted a family. I think you wanted power and not in a bad way just to live your life with us." The beating of my heart slows down when he finishes. "I sound like I was a bitch and wanted to keep you guys around for my pleasure," I say without missing a beat. He laughs and throws a pillow at me. "I think you were in love with two people and didn't know how to function without wanting us both." He says. I consider those words because the last thing I want to do is hurt the people that matter the most to me and if it has to come down to it... I'm not choosing either of them as long as we remain friends I know everything will be fine. As the movie ends I get up and start to put my slippers on. Ezikel caresses my arm and slowly pulls me back into his chest. My breathing hitches at his touch. His lips glide across the lower part of my neck behind my ear. "I don't know if I can keep resisting wanting you, Nubia. My soul craves your touch." He breaths heavily in my ear. The trembles in my body pick up and without even thinking I turn around and we are kissing at first our lips are just touching then his tongue slips into my mouth. I can feel how hard he is getting between my legs. The arch of my back tries lifting me higher to feel him. I just want to know what this boy feels like. My shirt comes off with one pull and we are so close to being intimate when the sirens in the building start to go off.