Nine souls were collected by death. Death that I caused. My heart is breaking but my soul is starting to grow by both color and size. My father has been going down and studying the books and will feed me as much information as he can but he sees how tired I am. How hopeless I am feeling. I hardly sleep now and I wake up looking at my hands checking to see if there are permanent stains on my hands. I am a murderer. Yessica is loving it and she cheers me on more and more every time I kill someone. She has been sending two people in the mat and these people scrafice themselves to help me and Yessica doesn't even know it. I am her puppet now and I know she is breaking my soul. I'm afraid that if I don't do something or find something to help me out I might shatter and I don't know what would happen to all the souls I am caring around in my body. I feel like I'm actually a hotel for them all. They're all attached to my soul but I can hear all of them talking and let me tell you hearing my voice and then fourteen other people agree or disagree can get crowded. A lot of them try to keep me on the positive side and some are willing to trade places but they don't think my soul can collect unless it's me.

Yessica comes in excited to tell me something. She thinks we are best friends and I'm honestly trying to believe we are so I can find a way out of here and the fuck away from her. If I don't leave soon I will lose my shit. "You have done so much in little time I'm going to treat you to an outing." I look up at her confused. "An outing to like outside the building." I can't remember the last time I saw the sun, moon, or stars. There is no time I. Hear and I don't even know if it's day or night time outside. "No silly not just outside me and you are going to go into town." I try to hide my excitement because that means I will not be blocked to soul communicating with other people. But what if she knows I can do that and this is a test? I have to action plan and make sure I don't give anything away. Her guard brings in a dress. "We're going to wear matching dresses and hit the town. And who knows we may pick up some boys. Help you get over that sex demon." I shake my head and put on a front like always. "Yes, we can maybe have two boys at once." My poor father who has to hear me talk like this with her makes me sick. "Mmm, I like the way you think. I knew you would be on my side and see how amazing this life is." She smiles well holding my hands. Out of nowhere I hug her and thank her for showing me the way. Also, feed into the bullshit that we are going to change the world for us. The look on my dad's face when she leaves the room. My hands go up to stop him before he says something ridiculous because I even creep myself out. The thought of me teaming up with her and the fact that I am against her is starting to lose sight of what line I'm trying to hold onto.

Yessica doesn't trust me enough to know how to get out of the building because I am given water and blindfolded. The bumpy car ride to wherever we are going is what wakes me up. "Sorry doll I hope you understand." She says well holding my hand. "Of course, I wouldn't have minded at all. I understand you don't want me to know where we are. She squeezes my hand tight. My blindfold is still on and I don't remove it till I am given instructions to do so. "Okay baby, take off your blindfold." She lets my hand go and I do as instructed. There is a white building outside the car door. The guard opens her door and helps us out. "What is this place?" I ask her. "It's an outlet mall silly. I'm sure you have seen one before." She laughs and grabs my hand. This is. An outlet mall but not like in the States. This means we are still not in America. We are also nowhere near Egypt. We walk into the mall and there are people everywhere trying to sell us things and touch us. Yessica waves them off until we come to a small restaurant in the back of the building. "Let's eat in starve." She says too excited. She is different today and I don't know why. I'm also afraid that she may want more than to just eat. She orders herself breakfast and I decide to do the same because nothing on this menu makes any sense. "Tell me Nubia, what does your heart truly want right now? I mean if you could have anything." She asks leaning into me and I want to tell her my mother and my friends. I want the world to go back to the way it was before I found out I was a guardian and before I had to make difficult decisions to be something I am not. My values are out the door and I am turning into a monster. "I want whatever you want right now. Whatever makes you happy makes me happy beautiful." God, did that sound like we were a couple? Her eyes start to turn a tint of Magenta and she smiles at me with a wicked smile. I don't know what I just did but I won her over and right now that's all I want to do is keep winning her till she tells me what her plan is. She leans in closer and I swear she is going to kiss me but our food comes out at the right time and she shakes her head, grabs her silver wear and we dig in.

She is telling me ridiculous stories of when she tried to go to college and all the sex she had with some men. She sometimes had sex with both. She also told me that I can't be tied down to just one person I need to explore all sex options because that is the only way to live my life full. As she is telling me about an orgy one of the guards come over and whispered something in her ear. "Sorry, my love more sex talk later. I need to take this call." She makes hand gestures at the guards directed at me and I just go back to eating my food. A server comes over and pours me more water. I'm trying to act as normal as possible as I soul-communicate first with Atlas filling him in on my life right now. He wants to come and I tell him no because I don't want to lose him. He isn't ready yet. His voice is still very kid-like. The sect I use as much strength to soul communicate all my friends and mother at the same time. I let them know I am alive and I don't know where we are but I will try my best to keep getting access outside. Before they can say a word my mother says we will find you and then I have to cut them off when Yessica comes back to the table and I am just finishing my food. "Was our beautiful Nubia behaving?" The guard looks at Yessica and shakes his head yes. "She was just eating ma'am the sever did come over to give her more water but no interactions and no glowing or abilities were used." He says and then looks at me and looks away. "Oh good then we can stay out a little longer." She takes me shopping and even has me try on expensive jewelry. This is different than her trying to manipulate or make me murder people. She is actually kind to me. She takes me to a salon and tells them to just trim my hair that's it. The stylist blows out my hair and I feel like royalty.

We get back in the car and I reach for the blindfold without asking. Yessica grins at me and ties it around my eyes. I feel her hand grab mine and she instructs the guard to drive. If she wasn't so evil we could be friends but I have a weird feeling she wants to be more than friends by the way she was talking about her sex stories and her leaning in. Her flirting actually was very noticeable by the way she grabbed my arm and laughed with me. She also sat next to me in the booth and made sure her leg was touching mine at all times. Am I her weakness? God, please don't tell me we feel in love somewhere down these lifetimes of mine. We show up at the building and she helps me out the car. The door we go through is metal then we go down two flights of stairs walk 176 steps and go up four flights in another metal door and down a hall which is 76 steps another door is open then we walk 5 feet take a left turn walk 15 and then walk another 16 steps and another door opens. She finally removes my blindfold and we are back to the place we are living in. "Thank you for taking me out Yessica. I had so much fun." I say as I lean in and kiss her cheek trying to see if I am right about her liking me. Her face blushes to a bright pink and that was all the sign I needed to know that me and her were connected.