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Do you love me enough that I may be weak with you?
( Alain de Botton, Essays in Love. )

Deadbeat ╱ Dodge Mason
written by mads.

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DEADBEAT.
Dodge        &        Cassandra

recommend settings:
WHITE BACKGROUND ╱ TIMES NEW
ROMAN ╱ SMALLEST FONT

[ This wasn't supposed to get personal! ]

Nothing happened in Carp, or to the people in it.

Cassandra Raye Drew is one of these people, and she knew that if you stayed in that town long enough, you become nothing too. Just one of hundreds floating through the motions every day pretending you didn't hate yourself. It's the reason everyone wanted to get out. It's the reason few ever did. It's the reason Panic was made. People needed a light at the end of the tunnel, and that's what Panic was. Play the game, win the money, and get out. It all seemed simple.

Until it wasn't. Until last year, when two people died playing. Before the accident, Cassandra had done a pretty good job of convincing herself that if, God forbid, she had to play, it'd be okay. After the accident, she decided it wasn't something that could be risked. Not with death looming over her and her town. She'd just have to get out on her own━━━like she's always told herself she would. It's why she'd been preparing for that for years. She didn't need Panic.

Or at least, she shouldn't have. But she never accounted for her older brother━━━the only person who took her in after her parents left━━━to get into a car accident and for his medical expenses to fall on her shoulders. Now, her back-up plan was slipping through her fingers and onto a signed check, and she felt her hope vanishing with it. Left with no other option if she wants to get away, she convinces herself that last year truly was just a terrible accident and that playing Panic can't be all that bad. And maybe if it is, death will be the reprieve she's always been reaching for. 

[ We passed personal two challenges back. ]

Maude Apatow ✶ CASSANDRA RAYE DREW
        ( XVIII. CASS.         PANIC PLAYER.
DODGE MASON. PANSEXUAL. )

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Mike Faist ✶ DODGE MASON
        ( XIX. ANDREW.         PANIC PLAYER. CASSANDRA DREW. BISEXUAL. )

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William Gao ✶   ALEXANDER O'RION

Luke Benward ✶   KEVIN DREW

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🧨 : Mads Speaks.
i've been in love with dodge mason since 2021 this fic has been a long time coming, okay? my boy is SO underrated & we as a society need to appreciate him more <3

🧨 : Warnings.
This story does include: minor graphic scenes, minor gore, mentions of blood and death, mentions of sexual content, mature content, adult language, and underage drinking and smoking. I recommend you be 16+ to read this, but above all else please read at your own risk!

🧨 : Disclaimers.
First and foremost, I do not own Dodge Mason or any of the 'Panic' media. I do not own anything 'Panic' related (plot, dialogue, etc.) that is mentioned in this fic. Only this plot was created by me. Please do not try to steal or republish this work anywhere. I will find out if you do.

🧨 : Credit.
Photos for moodboards are found off of pinterest. Gifs were found off tumblr. Other graphics are mine unless stated otherwise! This layout belongs to my baby, twsters !!! Make sure you ask her before using it if you would like to, not me.

🧨 : Dedicated to.
sainthungers sunsfyre twsters duaIism goldmavs moviedeaths circesun patrickzweigs cariossainz femininomenons ayoedebiris callumsluv zeglersfilm quicksilvrs + whoever reads and enjoys <3