~Previously on Dead Last Chapter 34~

So we find out that Y/n broke off the little relationship that she had with Karma. Then on the first day back, Y/n comes a little bit later to school so she can avoid both Nagisa and Karma. Unfortunately, as she's going up the stairs to the school, Nagisa stops her. He tries to apologize for kissing Kayano and Y/n basically tells him that it's fine and she's over it. Nagisa doesn't like that answer very much and pries out her real emotions. This is where she reveals she 'kissed' Karma. They argue about that until Y/n finally ends their little situationship. She then goes into class and everyone is looking at her. She knows they all heard her. She goes to sit down and she was super embarrassed. 

||Y/n's p.o.v||

 Class was horrible and awkward, and not just because everyone in the class overheard my business. After the whole Koro Sensei x Repeaer story, the whole class was silent and on edge during all of our lessons. At the end of it all Koro Sensei said to us,

"The third term is upon us, class. Let's play hard and kill hard this year, too." He told us.

The class remained silent and unresponsive while I continued to stare out the window. Koro Sensei then walked out the class, but no one dared to move out of their seats. This was one of the worst school days I've ever had and ever hoped to have. I was definitely not coming back tomorrow, this day definitely made up my mind. I was going to go back to the main campus, this was all to much stress for me...

While I was starting to space out, I heard professor Bitch's voice coming from the other end of the classroom. "The most foolish kill..." She said. I didn't turn my head but my eyes glanced in her direction at out classroom door.

"...is to kill recklessly, out of emotion or greed." She continued, "That's what animals do."

"Professor Bitch..." I heard Kurahashi trail off.

My eyes glided back over to the window. After today, this wouldn't be my problem anymore. Professor Bitch continued on her little speech,

"Next is to kill your feelings while you kill your target, giving up so very much in exchange for a bounty. Like I did. You really need to think this through, kids, so you won't kill off the feelings you hold most dear."

I heard the door close and let out a shaky sigh. Tears threatened to spill out my eyes, but I did my best to keep them all in. I just wanted to go home and put this all behind me. Maybe I'd even take out my anger on something like beating up trashcans on my way home or something...Quickly, I wiped my eyes.

I heard someone in our class put out their chair and stand up, "I think that after class we should all meet up behind the school! There's something important we should all discuss!!" He announced. I let out a sigh, of course it was Nagisa...I really didn't want to go, but it was already the end of the day. It's not like I'd be able to sneak out and leave if we were all walking out together...God, I hate him...

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I decided to try my luck with sneaking out, so I packed my things ever so slowly in hopes that I would be the last one out, and I was. I smiled triumphantly, and the quickly and quietly made my way out the classroom and towards the front door. When I got to the front door, I saw a vast majority of my classmates congregating at the front. I overheard them asking each other where Nagisa had gone off to, but I honestly paid no mind that. Instead, I went back the way I came and went to one of the empty classrooms. This classroom just so happened to be the one Karma kissed me in. I felt myself blush, but I quickly pushed any feelings I had about that day aside and went over to the window. I was planning on sneaking out of one of the already opened windows, but stopped in my tracks when I heard Karma's voice coming from right outside,

"Boy, Nagisa, you really fucked things up..." I heard him say.

'Nagisa?' I thought. This must have been where he went off to, but why was he with Karma and what were they talking about. Quietly, I crept towards the window, and hid beside it so not only could hear them, but I also wouldn't be spotted.

"I mean, what kind of guy kisses another girl infront of not only the girl who likes him, but the whole class as well! Talk about douchebaggery..."

"It was the only thing I could think of at the time!!" Nagisa quickly defended himself.

"Kissing another girl was the only thing you could think of?" Karma asked.

"You're one to talk, why the hell would you kiss Y/n in the first place?? Do you like her or something?" Nagisa was quick to retort.

I leaned up against the wall more as if what Nagisa asked was surprising. I mean, I may be dumb, but I'm not an idoit. I noticed the signs way before he kissed me in that classroom. I mean, for fucks sake he wrote my initials with his inside a heart a couple weeks ago! I just tried to dismiss it because I didn't know what else to do. I mean hell, he and I dated after all. Of course he liked me...

"Oh, get off your high horse, Nagisa. This isn't about me. You're obviously just trying to avoid the truth...  You were just stringing Y/n along. You never liked her, otherwise you would have already told her that you had feelings for her...."

I gasped, but quickly covered my mouth so they wouldn't hear me. Was that true? I always had that nagging thought at the back of my mind that maybe he really didn't like me, but I always assumed I was overthinking. If I was overthinking things though, why didn't Nagisa answer... 'Come on man, say something...if you do, then maybe things could work out between us. Just please....say something to him...Tell Karma he's wrong...' I thought in my head, but Nagisa can't read minds and I was left disappointed.

"See, you know I'm right.  I mean, was this all some big elaborate attempt to get Kayano to like you or something?" Karma asked.

'No...' I thought, 'that can't be true'. Nagisa still didn't answer, and I felt my heart break. Karma snickered,

"No way...is that actually true? After all I've done for you, too? I try and help get you two together by reporting every little embarrassing detail about her to you and you still decide to toy with her feelings? Have a heart Nagisa, you're starting to act like me!!"

"Don't compare me to you!" Nagisa finally found his voice, "You and I are not the same...I didn't do any of this because of Kayano!! And you never answered my question!"

"About what? If I like her? No, I thought that was obvious. Honestly, I borderline hate the girl.  The only reason we've been hanging out for this long is because she still thinks I'm blackmailing her with some cute little note she wrote to you. You've read it, so you know...it's B-A-D." He said, "Everything I do to her is honestly just for fun. Messing with her, kissing her in an empty classroom, dating her winter break...It's how I keep myself entertained..."

"Karma, you're a horrible person..." Nagisa told him.

"Call me what you want, but Y/n hates you, not me... She knows where we stand. However, you on the other hand, you manipulated her. You strung her along pretending like you liked her all this time just so that you could make Kayano notice you. And then to make matters worse, instead of just calling it quits, you kissed Y/n's biggest insecurity right infront of her and our entire class. Then, you still had the audacity to play the victim when she forgave you right away. At the end of the day, you kissed Kayano all on your own because you have secret feelings for her that you don't want to admit yourself because it makes you seem like the terrible person for wasting poor Y/n's time."

"Why are you talking like you know me?? Kayano has nothing to do with this situation!! N/n knows that!! There was nothing else I could have done in that moment to save her life!"

'Don't call me that...' I thought as I held back tears. 

Karma let out a chuckle, "Does she?" He asked before laughing more, "God Nagisa! You can't even say that you don't like Kayano and that you didn't want to kiss her because you know that's not true, and yet you have the audacity to talk down on me? Now that's pathetic..."

Nagisa was quiet for a few seconds, but whether he spoke up or not didn't really matter at this point. Nothing he could say would make the situation right. Karma...was right...He never liked me, it was always Kayano...All this time I thought that I was first place, but it turns out that was just wishful thinking. He always wanted her, not me...I'm...in last place...

"I...I don'..." Nagisa began.

"Oh! There you guys are!!" I heard Hinata said, "Everyone's waiting you at the front, let's go!" She told them. 

After they left, my legs gave out and I slid onto the floor. My hand was still pressed against my mouth while I cried and hyperventilated. Karma hates me and Nagisa has liked Kayano all this time...How could I have not seen it? I was never even in the running...

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Also, I'm sorry but this will only be the only chapter for this week because my fingers don't want to write anymore😭😭 I figured you guys would rather have one chapter rather than none which is why I put this together for you all😈

But yea, more angst on the way, and see you next time!! I love you!!

NEW AUTHOR'S NOTE: 

Hey guys!! I just had the urge to edit this chapter and release more hurt lmao. Anyways I've read all your comments about how you want me to continue this book but I don't really have any motivation for it rn. However!!! I did continue writing after this chapter. Would you guys like me to at least post that incase I never write for this book again (which prolly won't happen but I'll prolly be gone for a long time before i continue it with passion passion again). It might only be one chapter, maybe two, but is that something you'd guys like to have? Or do you want to wait longer for more chapters? Lmk 🤗 Love you!! 

Oh! And if do post the chapters I will be posting them next weekend  on 10/8-10/9. Who knows, maybe posting and editing will inspire me to write more chapters!! Okay now I'm done!! Bye bye!!