I'm sandwiched between the two of them, Killian hands running through the wet strands of my hair, my conditioner slathering his palms. I slowly let the shadows seep from my hair like it's a temporary dye, diluting in the water and down the drain.

Malachi runs his hands over my back, slipping lower every few seconds like the tease he is before he places them respectfully on my hips.

He doesn't move them, letting the heat of his palms singe into my skin like a brand, tattooing his touch onto me with invisible ink.

Killian's hand wraps around my hair, twisting the strands between his fingers and he pulls, drawing my eyes back to his.

"Eyes on me." Killian says roughly and Malachi chuckles.

I breathe out slowly. "Have you ever-" I pause, biting my tongue.

Killian raises a curious brow but it's Malachi that speaks. "Have we ever?"

Closing my eyes, I drag my attention to my feet, feeling self conscious between the both of them.  It's obvious they've done this before, probably many times and here I am, almost eighteen and they were my first kiss.

My first proper kiss.

"Noah?" Killian prompts, thumb coming to rest on my chin and drag my eyes up to meet his. "Spit it out."

I narrow my eyes at the command in his voice and force myself to say the words and feel confident while saying them.

"Have you ever done this before?"

Part of me dreads the answer, but the other, larger part wants to know their every dirty secret, even if I'm not the girl between them while they tell me.

Sucker for punishment I guess.

I glance up at their silence, eyes connecting with Killian's before I turn my head to look back at Malachi.

His eyes are shadowed, face dipping closer to mine.

"Listen to me because I'm only going to say this once, Noah."

I raise a brow at the command and the way my body instantly tenses, as if waiting for his next words like I need them to breathe.

"You are the only girl we will ever do this with. Do you hear me?"

I nod but that's not good enough for Malachi.

"I need to hear you say the words, baby girl."

"I'm the only girl."

He grins, the sight sending tingles down my spine.

"Yes. You. Are." He finalises his words with a lingering kiss on my forehead. "Don't forget it."

I look back towards Killian, seeing the same conviction mirrored in his eyes.

"Now," Malachi seems to growl. "I want to hear you scream so loud that Kade hears you."

The words have my back snapping up straight. "What-"

I don't get to finish the sentence, Killian's fingers slipping into me as if commanded by Malachis words.

Malac chuckles and starts rubbing my sides, soft soothing strokes that do nothing to take my attention away from the fact that I have Killian's fingers in me right now.

Malachi grunts something unintelligible, his lips moving to seal to my neck, sucking, biting and huffing a laugh against my skin. "You taste like ecstasy, baby girl."

I can't form words, my mind on one singular thing right now and it's not family friendly.

"What do you say, baby girl, do you wanna scream for us?"

"Malachi." I sigh, "I-"

"Is that a yes."

"Anyone could hear us."

Malachi chuckles but it's Killian who speaks. "That's the point."

I'm lost in the sensation of the both of them touching me, moving me into the position they want.

"Just." I say softly. "Just hands."

"You don't want my cock, Noah?"

My wide eyes swing to Killian, finding a smug grin on his face and his dangerous eyes on me.

"I'm not ready." I say and cringe when they both still against me.

"What?" Malachi breathes out. "You've never-"

I shake my head, "just kiss me."

"Noah-"

"I said, kiss me."

I ignore both of their eyes on me and drag Killian's head down to meet mine, sealing my lips to his.

He's hesitant for a moment, like the question is still on his mind and I kiss him harder, slipping my tongue into his mouth.

He lets me distract him, relaxing against me and I feel Malachi begin to kiss my shoulder with soft kisses.

They don't push for more, Killian kissing me while Malachi traces my collarbone and neck with his lips until suddenly the water is turning off.

I rip my lips from Killian's, turning to look at the shower handle and trace the arm back to Killian.

"What-"

"You've had a long night." He says, looking down at me with wet lashes.

I blink at the look in his eyes, the conviction and the care.

"So?" I say petulantly.

Malachi chuckles, "so we're going to let you rest." He says, pulling me out of the shower with him and wrapping me in a towel. He curls his arms around my waist and pulls me back into his body. "In a bed." He whispers.

Killian's crowds me between the both of them, smiling when I look up confused. "You got one towel, Noah, you gotta share."

The both of them practically drag me to my bedroom after we're dry. I stop at the foot of the bed, hands tightening on the towel wrapped around me as I watch Malachi stalk for the bed.

Killian comes back out with out clothes, throwing Malachi his pair of pants before Killian dresses himself.

When I just stare at them getting comfortable in my room and in my bed, Killian turns to me with a rises brow. "You don't mind sharing do you?"

"Sharing?"

He smiles, the act roguish. "The bed. It's been a long night and we should get some sleep."

A thump echoed above me and my head whips up the roof, brow furrowing. "What was-"

Malachi chuckles, "probably just a bird." He says through his laughter, staring up at the roof. "Clumsy things."

Then he crooks a finger at me, "C'mon, baby girl. I want to cuddle."

I slowly make my way towards the bed but stop and look towards my closet, remembering I'm naked beneath this towel. When I turn towards it, Killian clears his throat. "What are you doing?"

I look back at him over my shoulder, "Getting changed."

"Did I say you could?"

I narrow my eyes, "I don't take orders."

He only grins, "come here."

When I don't move he does, slipping off the bed and walking closer before stopping in front of me and tucking a piece of wet hair behind my ear. "Come with me?" He says softly, "please."

I huff and follow behind as he walks back to my bed.

Malachi pats the spot next to him, and I hesitate before dropping the towel and crawling onto the bed, settling next to him in the middle.

The mattress dips beside me and then Killian is on my other side, getting comfortable.

I force my eyes to shut but even ten minutes later I'm not closer to sleeping, it's a hard process when my body is so alive between the two of them, feeling and hearing the rise of their chests as they sleep.

Another thump on the roof has my eyes swinging up, body jolting slightly before I feel Malachi wrap an arm around my waist.

"Go to sleep, baby girl."

"But-"

"Sleep." Killian commands and my back straightens but my body seems to listen, sinking into the mattress like something otherworldly has settled over me.

I force my eyes to shut and this time it works.