A few weeks later...

Hide's P.O.V.

I brought Kaneki to the therapist again. She thought it would be a good idea for him to continue therapy. And I thought it would help as well with him. Seeing as I'm not a professional to help him. But we some how got on the topic of our relationship.

"So, have you two been intimate in anyway?" She asked before we blushed. Kaneki more then me.

"Uh, intimate?" I said nervously as I rubbed the back of my neck. Kaneki sort of just became a blushing red ball. Since he covered his face with his hands, but you could still see his blush, and pulled his knees to his chest.

"Yes, I'm sure you know what I mean. If not-" She got to say before I interrupted her.

"No, no, we know what you mean. Just not a subject we talk a lot about."

"Why? Is it that your not exactly good at it together? Or that you just haven't done anything like that yet?"

"Uh, he's not comfortable with it." I said as I looked at Kaneki. Who preceded to glare at me, but he knew I would tell the truth anyway.

"Well, I suggest you get yourselfs' to least try, but better if you actually can, by the next visit." She before ageisting her glasses.

Two weeks later...

Me and Kaneki were cuddling on the couch together. Kaneki was snuggling against my side with a blanket around him. There's was a movie on, but I wasn't paying attention to it because I was getting some work done on my laptop.

"I'm going to go get ready for bed." Kaneki said after awhile. I looked up from my laptop and saw that the movie was over and he was already starting to get up.

"Alright, I'll catch up with you when I finish this." I said as I put my hand on his cheek. And he kinda giggled as I kissed him on the cheek. When I pulled away, he smiled at me before going to our bedroom. Thinking back on what his therapist said that we should try, I haven't been able to push him or give him that little nudge. He would end up hitting me in the face until I backed off. He didn't hurt me when he did that. So, at this point I'll have to let him do this when he's comfortable and let his therapist be mad at us.

"Hide..." I heard after a couple minutes. I looked to my right and saw Kaneki. He was just standing there while playing with his fingers. He was also blushing and seemed unsure. He was still in his white button up shirt, black pants, and black under shirt, as well as socks. But he had his hair down and the first button of his white button up was unbuttoned. So, his bangs were covering his right eye.

"Hey, I thought you were going to get ready for bed." I said before he sat next to me and hugged my arm. "Is something wrong? Do you need to talk about something?"

"Come on." He said as he tried to get me to stand up and follow him. I put my laptop on the coffee table before doing so. He lead me to our bedroom before he laid down on our bed and pulled me on top of him.

"Uh, Ken...?" I said before he wrapped his arms around my neck. We were both blushing by this point. But I could see that innocent or submissive look in his eyes. He did look cute with his bangs almost covering his eyes. I do like it when his hair is down, but then I can't see his face.

"I-I, uh, what to try again. S-Seeing as w-we have to see Ms. Hanson in two days. B-But you don't have to if you d-don't want to." He said before I cupped his cheek and smiled at him. That made him calm down a little before he put his hand on mine and nuzzled his nose into my hand.

"It's okay. I'll try with you if you want too." I said before he nodded. Then I leaned down a little more and kissed him. It took a couple minutes for him to almost fully relax into the kiss. The kiss become more heated over time. He cupped my cheeks as I unbuttoned his shirt the rest of the way. I pulled away before he sat up and slid his button up shirt down his arms. Then he set his shirt on the floor before laying back down. He was looking up at me with half luted eyes and blushing cheeks. He was also resting his right arm on his collarbone and his left arm over his stomach. His hair was becoming a mess too. He did look kinda hot in only his black undershirt with his shoulders and muscled arms visible.

I smiled at him before leaning back down. I kissed him again before he wrapped his arms around my torso. I pulled out of the kiss again before leaning down further and gently kissing him on the neck.

"Stop..." He mumbled out, but it was quiet enough that I didn't hear him. So, I continued to kiss his neck. "Stop." He said a bit louder. This time I was able to hear him, but didn't completely hear him.

"Mm?" I hummed as I pulled away from my neck.

"I said stop!" He shouted as he rolled onto his right side. He hid his face behind his hands. "We can't ever have sex! Ever!" He shouted with a hurt voice. And I could see the tears start to spill down his cheeks. I sighed before I started to gently rub his back how he liked.

"Why?" I asked in a soft tone. I wasn't mad at him, but I did need him to talk.

"B-Because I just can't g-get myself to." He said as he started to cry more and his breathing became quicker. He was about to start hyperventilating if he didn't calm down.

"Ken, hey, hey, it's okay. But I need you to calm down for me. Alright? Just breathe. Here, breathe with me." I said before I started taking slower breaths though my mouth. He did start to copy my breathing even with the hiccups in his breathing. Once he was almost completely calmed down, I took his left hand and gently took it off his face. He looked up at me after I did that. His eyes were lightly puffed up and red.

"Now that you're calmed down, can you please tell me why we can't do this? I know you can't get yourself to, but I need a little more then that. Because I know there is. I'm not mad at you and I'm not going to force you. But I do need to know why. Okay?" I said as I continued to rub his back like I had been.

"I-I can't let myself because of m-my...body. I know it's really different from everyone else's. This ugly red scaly skin that being in dragon and my disease cased." He said before I sighed.

"You know, I didn't fall in love with you for your looks or that fact that you were human or not. I love you for who you are, not for your looks or anything else."

"I know, but it's still different because I can't look at myself the same way you look at me."

"Alright, but I love you. We can stop if you want. If you do, I'll go get ready for bed." I said before leaning down and kissing him on the cheek.

"No."

"No?" I repeated as I pulled away.

"No, I need to push myself. I know I've been though worse. And w-we need to do this."

"Okay, but-" I got out before I was put in a kiss. Kaneki put his hands on his cheeks as he rolled onto his back. He moved his arms to wrap around my waist. We had to pull away after a little bit to breathe. As we were panting, he looked down before pulling off his undershirt. He tried to cover his torso with his arms, but sense his arms and torso have that same red skin, it didn't help much. He was also becoming a blushing mess. I swear his whole body would be blushing if it wasn't for his red skin. And he had a six pack. Now I feel a little jealous.

"Here." I said before sitting up and pulling off my shirt. I leaned back down after getting my shirt off, but the necklace I was wearing hit Kaneki, not hard. But it was enough to make us laugh at each other. "Sorry." I said before taking my necklace off. I sat up to put it on the bedside table before hovering back over him.

I let him feel my body because he seemed to be less nervous. Eventually his hand gently grazed over my scare on the lower left side of my torso. It was from the Antaku raid, when I went looking for him and dragged him back to the little coffee shop. If Kaneki didn't bring me to the CCG investors I would of died. Even if they got to know his face and almost kill him as well. Then I noticed Kaneki looking up at me.

"It's okay, it doesn't hurt me anymore." I said, trying to reassure him.

"I'm still sorry about it." He said before I sighed. Then I smiled before running my fingers in his hair.

"It's okay, I promise." I said before leaning down and kissing him again. In the middle of the kiss, I tried to get my touge in his mouth. He was hesitant at first, but luckily he melted into it and kissed back. As we kissed, I felt his hands slide down my torso. I thought he was going to wrap his arms around my waist again. Until he started to try and undo my jeans. He got my jeans unbuttoned and unzipped before I pulled out of the kiss again. We were both panting and blushing. He had some drool down his mouth before he wiped it away with his hand.

I leaned back down before kissing him on his collarbone. Then I continued to kiss down his chest as he made moan like sounds. He's probably ticklish or-

"Are you a virgin?" I asked as I picked up my head to look at him. He blushed 30 more shades at my question.

"S-S-So what if I am?!" He said in a bit of an angry and surprised tone. "What about you, huh?!"

"Fine, you got me." I said before he calmed down. I leaned down to kiss him before he kissed back and I put my hand on his cheek. When I pulled away, I still had my hand on his cheek. He held my hand and wrist before smiling up at me. He looked utterly beautiful with his hair sticking up in strans and had some of his hair over his face. His eyes were half open, his cheeks were dusted with pink, he had on a loving smile, and moonlight was hitting him just right. So, his eyes were shining a bit. Then I leaned back down to kiss him on his chest again, and I continued to kiss down his body. He also squirmed a bit under my touch.

"I love you..." He said.

"I love you too." I mumbled against his stomach and I had both my hands on his sides. I kissed the spot just before his black jeans before sitting up. I slid my fingers into the waist band of his jeans. I looked at him and he was blushing, knowing what I was gonna do. He nodded as if giving me permission. So, I slid his jeans off his legs, though I got him to move his hips up to help me get them off. And I ended up taking his boxers off with his pants. As soon as I got his pants and boxers off, he tried to cover himself up. Though I could tell that his hip area was like his face, his normal pale skin and not the red skin.

"Ken..." I sighed out.

"I-I'm just n-nervous." He replied with some stuttering. I threw his pants and boxers onto the floor before taking his hands and going to hover back over him. I had his hands pinned to the pillow. Though I was more holding his hands then pinning him. Because I knew he wouldn't like that. He was blushing a lot from me taking off his boxers.

"It's okay, Ken. There's nothing to be nervous about." I said before looking up and down his body. "Absolutely nothing at all." I said before he blushed even deeper. Then I leaned down to kiss him. As we were kissing he started to tug at my jeans. I sat up before taking off my pants and throwing them onto the floor. I hovered back over him and putting him in another heated kiss. I felt his hands wonder on my torso before he slipped his fingers into the waist band on my boxers. And then he yanked them down before I pulled out of the kiss.

"Revenge." He said with a small smirk.

"Ha ha, very funny." I teased as I took off my boxers the rest of the way and threw them onto the floor. He then looked down before looking back up and being a blushing mess. "What? Like what you see?" I teased him before he hit me in the back of the head.

"Ow, okay I'm sorry." I said as I rubbed the back of my head.

"So, uh, what do you want to do now?" Kaneki said after a couple minutes of silence.

"Don't know. What position you want?" I said as I gently rubbed his thigh. Which he had stood up and rested against my hips.

"Um, b-bottom, I guess." He stuttered out while blushing a little more.

"You sure?" I asked before he nodded. "Alright." I said before taking my hand off his thigh. Then I went to the bedside table and opened the drawer to get a little bottle of lube.

"Wh-Why do you have that?" Kaneki asked as I closed the drawer.

"For personal use." I said before opening it and putting some on my hand. I put the bottle on the bedside table before gently putting one of my fingers in his hole. He gasped at the pain and squeezed my shoulders. "Do you want me to stop?"

"N-No..." He stuttered out before I continued. I put in a second finger to start a scissoring motion. He held in his gasp this time, but squeezed his eyes shut and a couple tears escaped his eyes.

"You sure you don't want me to stop?" I asked with concern. He glared at me in response, though his left eye was closed, while having a blush across his cheeks and sweat down his face.

"I'm f-fine, Hide." He said in an angry tone before I realized he was getting mad at me now. I know I need to be gentle with him, but every so often he doesn't want me to be so gentle. This is one of those times. After I got done with a third finger, I pulled my hand out and sat up more. I held his thighs in my hands and pulled him closer to me.

"Wa-Wait." He said as he sat up and put a hand on my chest.

"What is it?" I asked before he grabbed the bottle of lube and put some on his hand. He set it back down on the bedside table before he started pumping me up and down, gently at first. I stiffened at this because I wasn't expecting him to do that.

"You okay?" He asked as he put his freehand on my back.

"Yeah, it's just different when someone else does it." I said before he blushed a little more. He put me in a heated kiss and pumped a little faster. We had to break the kiss a couple times to get some air or let out a moan. "Okay Ken, you should probably stop now, if you want us to enjoy this together." I said before he stopped and blushed. I took this opportunity to gently lay him back down and make sure he was comfortable. He laid his head on the pillow with his white hair spread across it in all directions. And he was holding onto his pillow.

"You're beautiful." I said as I cupped his cheek. I saw a sparkle in his eyes and he blushed a little bit more. The tips of his ears were blushing too. I smiled at him before lifting up his hips. I put the tip against his entrance and he gasped at that. Then I started to push in as he made noises of pleasure and pain.

"Here." I said before I hovered over him. I took his hands before placing them on my back. "You can squeeze me if you need to." I said before he nodded. I put my hands on either side of his pillow before moving a little more in. In response his started to squeeze my back. The more I got in, the more he scratched at my back, but he wasn't telling me to stop. My mind was becoming hazy too.

"That's it." I breathed out after I got all the way in. He had already clawed all down my back. I didn't care though. His insides were squeezing me very tightly. Not that I had anything to compare it to besides my own hands. Kaneki looked up at me with his left eye still closed. I was about to get onto him about it, when he rested his chin on my shoulder and hugged onto my torso.

"Move please..." He said before I slowly started to move. It would be better if I let him get used to it first, then just going full speed right off the bat. Besides the first time needs to be special, right? Not just quick and over with. I was starting a steady pace while getting a moan out of Kaneki every time I hit the right spot. Not that he was complaining. However, I started to feel something go onto my shoulder and down my back. It felt a little to cold to be my own sweat.

I pulled out of the hug he put me in before he looked up at me. He still had his hands on my back. His left eye was still closed, but he had tears down his cheeks.

"Why are you crying?" I asked as I cupped his cheek again and wiped away his tears with my tumb.

"Huh?" He said as he gave me a confused expression. He put his fingers to his face before feeling his own tears and looking at his hand. He didn't feel his own tears. Did he get that used to crying?

"Are you okay? Do you need me to stop?" I asked with concern as he looked back at me.

"What? No. I'm just happy because I finally feel loved."

"Then what was all the years were just best friends?"

"Romantically loved."

"Oh, that's it, huh?" I said as I leaned down to kiss his neck again.

"Yes, please just get back to what you were doing." He said before I sat up to hover over him.

"Alright." I said before putting him in another kiss. I started to move again, while every so often having to brake from the kiss to let out a moan or two. Eventually Kaneki rested his chin on my shoulder again.

"Ah~ f-faster Hide a-ah~" He said before I started going faster. He wrapped his legs around my waist and put a hand in my hair. I kept putting my arm around his back, like a hug, before having to put it back down to keep my balance.

"Oh fuck!~" He shouted after a couple minutes.

"There?" I questioned. I slowed my pace for him to talk, but not to a complete stop.

"Y-Yeah..." He panted out before I picked up pace again. I made sure to keep hitting that spot. And it didn't take long for both of us to hit our limit.

"I'm g-gonna cum..." He got out between breathes.

"M-Me too..." I panted as I continued to move.

"I-Inside..."

"You sure?" I asked before he nodded his head. "Alright then." I said before holding his thighs and pushing myself deeper into him.

"AHHHH!!" He sort of screamed as he came on his stomach. As he was coming, his insides squeezed me a little harder. Causing me to cum too. I let out a groan as I squeezed his thighs and dug my nails into his thighs as well. As our organisms were coming to a stop, we just kinda moaned against each other. When I stopped, Kaneki laid there panting with messy hair, I pulled out before flopping into my back next to him.

For several minutes we just laid there while trying to catch our breath. When I had caught my breath a little bit, I sat up and got some tissues from form the bedside table. Then I cleaned off Kaneki's stomach.

"Can you get my boxers too?" He asked as I was set the tissue on the bedside table for now. I picked up his black jeans before getting his boxers out of them.

"Here you go." I said as I gave him his boxers before laying back down next to him.

"Thanks." He said as he put his boxers back on. After he got them back on, he laid his head on my chest as I put the blanket over us. I wrapped my arm around him and set my hand on his waist as he started to draw shapes on my chest.

"So, how was that for first time?" I asked after a couple of minutes of silence.

"Great."

"Mm, good." I said before kissing him on the forehead. He just giggled at me. "So, why did you have your eye closed during that? And why won't you open it now?"

"I-I, uh.." He stuttered out before I cupped his cheek and looked at him.

"Is it the eye thing again?" I said before he looked guilty.

"Yeah, apparently a ghoul's eye being activated do to being excited. Isn't left to just the smell of blood."

"So, when you get turned on your eye turns on to."

"I guess."

"Why did you have your eye closed though? You know I'm not scared of it."

"I just didn't want to ruin the moment with my eye."

"Well, will you open it now?" I said before he hesitated before opening his left eye. It was glowing bright red with black around it. I could tell he was nervous about it. So, I leaned into kiss the eye on the eye lid. He was surprised at me doing that.

"I will always find you beautiful. It wouldn't of ruined the moment." I said as I moved away to look at him. He was blushing all the way to the tips of his ears.

"I love you." Is all he could say.

"I love you too." I replied before he yawned. "I guess we should get some sleep. We can take showers tomorrow."

"Alright." He responded in a tired voice. Then I rolled on my side for him to cuddle into my chest. He just nuzzled into the middle of my chest before I felt his soft breathing. I looked down at him and smiled. He was already asleep, that must of taken a lot out of him. I just chuckled.

"Good night." I said before kissing him on the forehead again. Then I went to sleep myself. I had my hand in his hair and my other arm around his waist.

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