'You are my favorite feeling...'

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"The body roll" You muttered out of nowhere with a lost expression. "The what?" Your awake but drowsy boyfriend asked, his brows knitting in confusion. You were under the sheets, yes. It was the day, your birthday. The white atmosphere of your house and the sunlight created a peaceful aura, an angelic person lying right next to you as you yawned. "The body roll. The one you did in BST" You blurted out again, making him chuckle. "What about it?" He asked, shuffling closer to your form, his head resting on his palm cutely while caging you.

"Do it for me" you grinned like a kid making him giggle. "what?" He shook his head, amused while you were desperate. "I've never been to a Wings era concert! Pretty puhleez" you tried batting your eyelashes at which you failed terribly. "I think I might puke" he scrunched his face and you pouted.

And then he drowsily got up, throwing his hands on either sides of your head as he did the perfect body wave. Or rather, tried to. Halfway in the process to impress you, you heard a crack and the man above you fell on your body with his full weight making you gasp for breath. "Ow, my back" he groaned and you let out a muffled scream, his weight killing you to death. "Sorry!" He exclaimed, turning sideways. "Goodness, I've gotten old" he said in a aged tone, making you frown.

"You!" you spat, huffing out a breath. He kept moaning, his broken back paining him. You giggled first, and slowly the giggles turned into laughter. "I just broke my back, crazy woman" your boyfriend angrily said but seeing you laugh like mad made him smile a bit too. Your mood neutralized but you kept grinning to the man who returned your expression. "Someone turned 22~" He sang, nuzzling his nose into your neck and you frowned. "21!" You exclaimed and he rolled his eyes.

"Alrighty, Missy. Happy birthday" he pecked your lips before quickly sitting up and grabbing the handle of the trolley that he kept not too far away from the bed, just so he could grab it easily while lying cuddling on the bed with you. "Here" he smiled and your eyebrows rose as an awestruck expression overtook your face. "Really?" You were overwhelmed. You quickly ran to the bathroom to brush before settling in bed again, grabbing the breakfast on the trolley that your man had promised you the other night.

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"HEY Y/N?" You heard Jungkook's loud voice. You came out of the bathroom with one towel wrapped around your body, the other on your head. "Yeah?" You asked as you dried your hair. "You got a text..." He said, swiping on your phone. "Hmm?" You let out and he cleared his throat. "F-from mom..." he said and you frowned. "Your mom?" You asked and he shook his head. "Your mom" he repeated as an answer.

You blinked a few times before turning around and walking over to him. He extended his arm for you to take the device and as soon as you did, your eyes moistened naturally. Thinking of your mother gave you bittersweet feelings. You were always thrilled when you felt like she was the one contacting you, but then you were reminded how cold she would be anyway, and your mood always darkened.

CHAT

17th April, 2020

Mumma:
Did you have your breakfast?
Received 11:34 am

You bit your lip before taking a deep breath.

You:
Yes, maa
Sent 11:45 am

Mumma:
I was saying
Received 11:46 am

You:
?
Sent 11:46 am

Mumma:
Happy birthday.
Received 11:46 am

Mumma:
I've sent some chocolates that you like.
Eat them once they melt, just like how you like it. That's what
Received 11:46 am

You smiled widely, a sense of heartwarming love engaging you

You:
Thankyou, mom.
Sent 11:47 am

You:
I miss you
Sent 11:47 am

"You look happy, Miss L/N" He brought you back to the real world, making you smile. "I am." You announced gladly, taking a seat on his lap. "And now that I'm happy, I want this day to be happy too" you smiled, turning your head to look at the boy looking at you with adoration. Then and there, you saw the universe in him, shining brightly. Your head suddenly ached from the inside, but the pain radiated to your heart.

He is not yours. He never was.
This was just a dream. A stupid fantasy that you were living with a thrill. And as much as you didn't want to dive deep into it and remember that all this was not meant to be, and the fact that it would fade away anytime, you kept living it as if it's your last. For you were already drowned here.

You looked back at him, biting your lip and smiling again before speaking. "Make this day just for us. Just for the two of us. I don't want anything except you." You weren't gonna let this moment go. Not when you could keep it to yourself. Not when you were living it like a boss bitch.

Fucking, bonus.

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JUNGKOOK

"This" I voiced, resting my chin on your shoulder as you looked at our reflections in the mirror. "Hmmm?" Your soft voice vibrated near my ears. I slowly brought my hands to yours, raising it along with mine to show you the piece I held in my palm. You gasped, smiling brightly. "In the midst of our crazy lives, I almost forgot about this" You said and I chuckled as you adored the earring now dangling on your ear.

"It's my favorite. My dad gifted this to me when I turned sixteen" you told me as you grinned and admired it. Yes, it was the same earring that you'd dropped on the reception of the hotel, months ago. "Why did you run away, though?" I asked and you knew what I was talking about. "I was too embarrassed to face you. I knew right that moment when you came looking for me that you remembered everything." You pressed your lips together and I laughed.

"Y/N, everything feels so perfect with you. Sometimes I doubt if its supposed to be this easy!" I said and you nodded. But I could see your expression changing, as if the smile was fading away. "Something wrong?" I asked and you shook your head. "What is the surprise, may I know?" You swiftly changed the topic, but I didn't object it, going with the flow. "You know I'm not gonna tell you. Why do you ask?" I chuckled and you joined. "Oh... You know... Just giving it a try!"

"You look even more beautiful in this dress" I complimented, my arms wrapping around your waist from the back as my chin still rested on your shoulder. "Thankyou" you clearly blushed, looking down at your accessories to hide it. I silently chuckled at that, lips brushing your ear and cheeks ever now and then as we swayed a little. "I wanna know... why all this?" You asked, referring to your beautiful golden dress.

"You really wanna know?" I asked and you nodded with your twinkling eyes. "We're gonna do something very essential, that's why" I told you, suppressing the small playful smile my devil mind forced out because of the thoughts in my brain.

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"Fuck" you groaned, throwing your head back. "Jeon Jungkook! Someone will-" You spat, pulling on his hair. "Shh" he hushed, pleasuring you a bit more making you roll your eyes. Here you were, car pulled over in an alley, no other soul or item in view except a few more empty cars around yours, the situation right now making you lose your shit. You felt him hmm against your lower lips and your eyebrows furrowed immediately, hips bucking up every now and then.

"I... I swear if someone catches us like this... HEY!" He ignored all your words, too caught up in working magic with his tongue. "W-we will be done for! YOU'LL LOSE YOUR JOB JEON WE'LL BE HOMELESS AH!" You moaned, glaring at him when he sweetly smiled, leaving you on the edge of your high and pulling away. "This is not what I expected as a surprise." You narrowed your eyes, annoyed.

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"Is this?" Jungkook asked you as he pulled out a chair, your eyes fixed on the table, still frozen. "Jeon?" Your voice came out smaller than expected. "Yes, darling?" He asked as he waited for you to sit. "Did you just rent a restaurant?" You asked in the tiniest volume and he smirked, tilting his head. " Well..." He clicked his tongue. "...Not too expensive." he muttered casually, leaning both his hands on the chair, holding it's edges and waiting for you to sit.

But you on the other hand, didn't even budge. "Tch... I broke her again" he whispered to himself, walking towards you before pulling you to the seat and seating you on it with his palms on your shoulders. "Enjoy, okay? Don't care about the money" he pecked your cheek, walking over to his chair placed opposite to you. Now the only distance between the two of you was the clad glass table, which looked sadly empty.

"Kookie, I love you" If only you hadn't used that nickname, he would've returned the words back with sincerity. But right now he knew that your braincells were lost, probably the only thing in your mind being that he rented a whole fucking restaurant for my birthday. He snorted. "Eat some food, or you're gonna zone out." He muttered, clapping in a dramatic way making you frown. And there, he held his proud smirk on his face as food was served on the table by chefs that wore white, spick and span aprons with a long white cap on their heads.

"Fairytale" you murmured and he laughed, his bunny teeth bringing a smile on your face too. "Can you pass me the hot wings?" You got right to business, the love of your life sprawled out beautifully in front of your eyes on the table cloth. And then and there, Jungkook knew that his importance in your life had vanished until you were done with his only enemy whom you loved more than him, food. He snapped his fingers to signal the people in the restaurant to leave, for yes, it was indeed their restaurant for the night. Yours and his.

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"If you won the lottery, what would you do with the money?" He asked you and you shrugged. "Depends on the amount" you said and he made a circle with his lips. You were having fun with this, a small know me more game that you two were playing while devouring the food. Even though you both were a couple who had spent time together before getting into a relationship, there were moments when you felt that you needed to give more to each other than the small amount of time you gave among both your heavy work loads and schedules. There was always room for more, as Jungkook said it. Always room to know you better, to love you better.

"How do I smell? Describe it" he asked and you gave him a weird look. "You smell like cold water, musk and chocolates" you replied, drinking the mojito. He smiled looking shy for god knows what reason, making you chuckle at his cuteness. "more" you pouted when his questions stopped. He giggled, picking up the fork to bring it to your mouth, feeding you. "Do I make you happy?" He asked and you took in a deep breath. "No, baby. You make me fucking crazy" you said with all seriousness.

"You're using a lot of nicknames today"

"I know, honey" your reply made him chuckle, shaking his head at your wink. "Can I call you when I miss you?" He asked and you looked at him with raised eyebrows. "Come over when you miss me! Is that a fucking question? Don't ever hold back, Jeon." You said calmly, making him grin. "How many kids do you want?" He asked and you rolled your eyes.

"Two. But your questions are getting greasy, come on!" You said and he laughed. "I'm out. Your turn"

"Do you remember the first day we met?" You said and he scoffed, frowning. "Y/N~ Not fair! You're mean~" He whined and you laughed, enjoying the way he threw his fork and knife, frustrated. "Okayyyyy!" You said, extending your arm on the table cloth. He looked at you with questioning eyes and you stared at him with an annoyed face. "Bonding, man" you said and he grinned, talking your palm in his. The two of you casually ate in the empty restaurant, the luxury being loved by your sybarite selves.

"Do you like having your hair pulled?" You asked and he squinted his eyes. "Wha-" he stopped midway, face scrunched. "I have no idea how your mind works." He stated and you kept laughing. "Yes, but I'd rather pull your hair" he winked and you rolled your eyes. "No way, I'm better at it." He knew your refferal when you said it, your little moment in the car. "Have you ever said that you loved me and not meant it?" You asked, the atmosphere changing with your words.

"No" he answered immediately, not even a hint of doubt in his words, just pure sincerty as he stared at you. You gulped, nodding with a genuine smile. "I love you too" you replied and he smiled back. "What's your favorite memory of me so far?" You asked, plopping your chin on your other palm. "Hmm. Probably that moment when I walked in the bathroom and you were nak-"

"Jeon!" You hushed him and he chuckled again. "Just kidding." He pressed his lips together. "I think that every time you come closer to me, to talk to me, to hug me, to scold me, to kiss me..." He paused, wiping his mouth. "That's the moment when my mind goes crazy, my feelings stir madly, adrenaline awakens, my heart beats faster and my legs feel weak just like yours do." His words, clear and just for you to hear, slipped from his lips as he neared you, body leaning over the table. "And that becomes my favorite memory of you."

You sniffled, his words making you more emotional than you thought they would, hitting you hard. Your pearly eyes travelled from your entangled hands to his face, and you smiled, leaning in as well. "Like this?" You asked, slowly touching your forehead with his, breathing in the same air.

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A/N
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Chapter was exceeding 4k words so I've divided them into two. Second update right up after a few hours or so!

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-DiamondMaknae ♥️