14th November, 2021

"Who are you even texting?" Hoseok scrunched his face. "Y/N" Jungkook bluntly replied and the elder tched with his hands resting on his hips. "Jungkook focus." He stated and he hmmed, eyes still staring at the screen. In a swift second, Hoseok snatched his phone and the younger boy's handsome features immediately turned into an irritated frown. "Hyung! That's NOT FAIR!" He whined and Hoseok raised an eyebrow.

"Jin hyung's having trouble with the bridge. Go practice with him" He said in a stern voice and Jungkook couldn't help but obey, standing up from the couch unwillingly and moving to the center of the practice room. The music started and his body moved by itself anyway, every move turning into a perfection with the beats echoing the area.

He grinned at Jin who had trouble moving to the soft beats but nonetheless helped him out. He had gotten better. He could feel it. He had tried. But somehow it still felt as if it was still there. He was still in its grasp. It was like he was still stuck in the swamp but he wasn't moving. He was halfway there, but he knew if he made another move he may end up being swallowed deeper into the marsh.

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22 November, 2021

"I bought these" Taehyung voiced out, keeping the bags on the table and you ran out of your room. "Oppaaaaa!" You quickly scanned the bags and separated all the chicken ones to devour first. "By the way I stopped by to give this" He said, putting his hands in his pockets trying fish something out.

"Tada" he grinned with a concert ticket in his hand. "Kim Taehyung" you muttered in shock, snatching the card almost immediately from him. "Look I didn't know if you were free or not this weekend, but we're having two concerts this Saturday and then next Sunday. This ticket is like a golden pass. It'll get you through any concert any time just remember that it's a one time use. So you can use it this Saturday or next Sunday whenever-"

"Mr. Kim" you stopped him, clutching the ticket in your hand tightly but carefully. "I AM COMING TO A BTS CONCERT THIS WEEKEND" You squealed, jumping on the latter who had trouble managing your heavy weight.

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27th November, 2021

Two hours. They'd blasted, they'd danced and they'd kept it constant. The concert was beautiful, just like you'd imagined. It was a little bit of a deja vu when they performed, reminding you of a Grammy performance that was yet to come in their lives. You'd already experienced it. But it was different than this. You could feel their energy radiate through the stage today. There were no doubts that BTS managed to make every single stage where they performed as their own, but you felt a sense of freedom in their moves and performance today. They owned this place.

Soon enough the part had come where they went back backstage, waving to all the ARMYs after thanking them. You smiled, completely recharged rather than being tired. It was true your throat hurt because of all the screaming, bit the adrenaline rush was still there somewhere. It was still there until their eyes scanned the whole arena before going down stage. It was there the whole time. You could see Taehyung trying to search for you in the front seats. He must have definitely known where you were going to sit. But you just smiled, happy from the inside that you did a good job today by exchanging your seat with another ARMY who had the last seat.

Finally the whole thing was over, all ARMYs still seated at their places. They played a video on the screen, all eyes focused there and mesmerized by a small act that Bangtan had put up. You were reminded of the magic shop short films that they made earlier but at the same time you wondered when they made this film. They didn't tell you, they kept it a secret. You chuckled to yourself. You were busy in the Bangtan world when your sling bag suddenly vibrated. You quickly took out your phone just to find Taru's name displayed on it. "Hello?" You asked and she spoke something but the chants and screams were too loud. You tried getting away from the arena a bit, going near the food stalls. You closed your other ear from one hand trying to focus on her voice which sounded clearly hectic and troubled.

"Repeat, Taru" you said and she hissed before speaking louder. "Backstage! Right now!" She paused and you frowned. "I'll let you in. We have a problem!"

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You ran through the corridor, worried if it was something serious cause Taru had called you. As you passed through the staff eyed you weirdly when you weren't recognized. Some even tried to stop you but you quickly showed them your ID which allowed you to walk through. Finally finding the room Taru told you to come to, you saw a silent crowd in there. Your frown was constant even when you got inside the room, finding five of the guys surrounding a small area on the couch.

"Y/N!" Taru said from the corner of the room with a worried expression. As soon as they heard your name, Jimin and Jin immediately turned around to see you standing there, waiting for them to give you area to walk thorugh. Someone else had lifted his head upon hearing your name though, but you just couldn't see him clearly yet. As you made your way through the small crowd, your eyes widened when you saw Jungkook curled up inside a small blanket, shivering as if he were amidst loads of snow.

He had trouble looking up, making you rush to his side. "Jungkook?" You asked and he just shivered even harder, teeth clattering against each other. "Kook-ah..." Your lips deviated and he closed his eyes, still shaking. "Help me... It feels so cold" he whispered to you and your heart dropped down to your stomach. "But... you're sweating so bad..." Your eyes were clearly worried like hell, his messed up state making you speechless.

"This is enough. Call a doctor" Jin said, agitation clearly audible in his voice. "NO!" The man right next to you shouted instead and Jin stared at him, trying to understand his sudden resistance. Your confused mind reflected on your face with a frown overtaking once again, causing Jungkook to look at you. He stared at you and you tried reading his eyes like always. You knew he was trying to convey that if the doctors came, they would immediately know what he had been up to lately. He was scared to let them know. He didn't want to be ripped open in front of them just like he did in front of you. His secret needed to be kept safe.

"We don't need a doctor" You said coldly and Jin stared at you in disbelief. "And why that?" He asked angrily but Namjoon was quick to cool him down. Namjoon completely agreed with Jin but all he didn't want at the moment was another fight between you and Jin. It would only create more problems which would make the situation crazier. Hoseok sighed before scratching his neck. "Is it because of overwork? The practices?" He nervously asked and you just shook your head.

A few seconds later you heard a hiss from Jungkook's mouth again, making you come back to the actual situation. Your palm reflexively went to his' to give it a squeeze and Taehyung, sitting on the other side of him, worriedly wiped his sweat. The room was so quiet when you heard a few gasps because of your unconscious action, making you look at the other end of the room from the corner of your eyes.

You could see Taru glaring at the other two makeup artists standing near her. She put her hand on the camera and blocked its lens, shaking her head at the cameraman as sign to cut this part away which was supposedly being filmed for their documentary. She kept giving death glares to the other girls in the room who were eyeing your hand the whole time. Yoongi saw that while standing on the threshold and sighed before giving a clap to catch attention. "Space. Give him some space. Everyone leave except the band members, please" He tried his best to sound humble but it obviously came out harsher than intended.

Surprisingly, Jin headed out with the staff making Hoseok rush behind him. Now there was just Taru who stood in the corner, Namjoon who kept shifting his weight from one leg to another, Jimin standing near the table, away from the trio on the couch, that was Taehyung, Jungkook and you. "What do you feel, Kook?" You asked worriedly, feeling the tension drain out a bit because of the open space but Jungkook just shook his head in response. His hold tightened on your hand making your face twist in discomfort when you could see the veins on his hands so very clear.

You'd never experienced anything like this. You never imagined this to happen because such a situation had not occurred even once in the past few months you'd spent with the man whom you could definitely label as your friend. "It's cold" His voice chocked and you gulped. The blood was almost draining from your body and you couldn't react to his hyper state at the moment. "Help me, please" heavy tears ran down his cheeks, with red eyes looking at you desperately. Taru could sense that you were not feeling too good by the look on your face, lost and puzzled.

He broke down completely, tears mixed with sweat and shivers radiating from him the whole time. "What is wrong with me? Aishh" He let out weakly even though he was trying his best to curse. "Jungkook-ah..." The words left Taehyung's mouth and his head turned towards his hyung. Namjoon walked out the door and signaled Taru to follow for some reason leaving you and the youngest ones. Taehyung bit his lip upon seeing the maknae who kept sobbing. "Will I never get better?" He asked with a chocked voice to Taehyung and the elder lost his shit that moment, reflexively leaping towards the younger for a hug not giving a fuck about their sweaty bodies.

You breathed out when you felt his grip slowly loosening on your hand. You walked to Jimin slowly who kept staring the two men and smiled softly. "All yours. He needs you both" You whispered and Jimin immediately took haste steps towards the couch, his hesitancy vanished in thin air. You looked at the three and sighed once again, looking away and finally leaving the room.

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You walked out to find Taru and Jin talking to each other in the corridor, both their heads turning towards you. You walked to them when she started talking to you. "I didn't want you to freak out... I just thought you guys had been fast friends for quite a while now and you should be here when he's-" "Thanks for calling me" You cut her off, smiling softly and she returned it, rubbing your back.

"Y/N" Jin heavily breathed. "I'm sorry. I panicked" He said and you shook your head. "Please don't apologize, you're my big brother, its fine" You smiled at him and he nodded softly. "It's just that... I think it's become a habit... when I see them in pain I go nuts." He said bluntly and you giggled very softly. "I understand. I wasn't behaving so much either. Neither was I of too much help" You replied, disappointed.

"Why were you against calling a doctor though?" Taru asked and you pursed your lips. "If you look at it my way, I clearly think that this was more of a mental situation than a physical one. If we did what he didn't ask us to, he'd go even hyper. And that would've definitely worsened it all" You replied and both of them nodded at your words.

You weren't lying. It was true, what you said. You were worried how long this would go. Seeing him this way, disturbed, you couldn't sleep well yourself. Not when he looked at you with shining eyes while shivering. Not until he'd stare at your eyes with the same adoration you'd seen them hold once.

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A/N

Look at me trying to write an intellectual story *chuckles*

Let's just get over with the bad part quickly, yeah?"

Be yourself

-DiamondMaknae❤