{Y/N was now outside, she was walking with dim eyes, cars honking at her, she was lost in her own thoughts she didn't see, all the words from Soobin lingered in her head, but her heart felt more pain}

"Flashback"

Soobin had just officially asked for a break up. He was serious.

"Let me explain" she said with a sad face.

"Fine, explain"

She explained everything, from the bullying and the horrible social media posts, till the flier and the job, her make up passion. Her low self-esteem... everything yet he had an emotion void face, expressionless. Then he broke her.

"I'm done using you" he said in tears.

"Wh-what"!!

She didn't understand, he was here crying so who should be strong. Why!

"You were using me"

"Yes!" he sighed "get out".

"Soobin *coughs* it's hard to breathe".

He wanted to look at her, she was clenching her chest. He could tell she was hurt, he hated himself and his dumb reason. He should fight for his love, but he is tryna keep her safe.

"Go out Y/N".

"Present"

A loud honking was heard, this idiot didn't hear. Y/N saw the lights, she couldn't move. The sky was also crying with her, she closed her eyes , everything blacked out quickly.

****
{Yeonjun was driving home, after this long day, he had become tougher, never letting his guard down. Ugh! He hated the rainy days, the memories it brings sickened him. There was a girl who was crossing rather oddly in the traffic}

"Hmm, Y/N"??

He saw her, the funny letter girl. But as the traffic was about to start moving he heard a sound.

"Crash!!"

A Jeep had run her over, he swiftly drove towards her body. The hit and run driver didn't dare look back. It was too horrible. He came down, drenched in the rain, the sight, it reminds him of his mother's death.

"Y-y/N" he said.

He walked towards her, carrying her in his arms he took her to his car. Blood was all over his shirt, it was horrific. The rain was washing all her blood away, drip by drip.

"You'll be fine okay" he said holding her in his arms.

"S-soobBinn" she slowly muttered.

Yeonjun drove her to a hospital near to where she had an accident.

****
{Soobin was now sick, he had cried all along. No one knows why it hurts. He was scared to lose her, pushing her away was his best option. He called Kai to see if she was home but she wasn't. The doctor said he could go home}

"Kai"?

.."oh, thanks" he huffed.

As he was making his way to the exit, his phone still on his ear, a stretcher passed by him, there was a lot of blood, the blood was pouring all over the hospital building.

"OR! Please get ready for operation, patient is excessively bleeding" said a nurse.

Soobin's eyes was fixated on the body, it was Y/N's. His phone fell shattered out of his hands. Tears at the brink of falling.

"Excuse me sir, you can't come in" said a nurse to Yeonjun.

"Please save her, please, she shouldn't die again" Yeonjun's trauma came back slowly he regains himself.

Soobin followed the stretcher, tears falling out he wailed.

"Chag-chagiya!" he screamed so loud.

He was a crying mess, as he wanted to open the OR doors a hand stopped his.

"Who are you" said Yeonjun calmy.

"Let go off me bastard, that's my fvcking girlfriend you hit" he spat as he punched Yeonjun.

Yeonjun fell off balance and to the floor. He stood up touching his bruised lips. He yelled...

"Some great guy you are... She was crying and got hit. Do you know anything, I pity you"!

"You bastard"! says Soobin as he launched a punch at Yeonjun.

He blocked it. He wasn't lying either, Soobin was guilt stricken. It was his fault in the first place. He should have just told her that 'its okay , I love you'.
With all the bickering, the doctor and nurses took him and Soonbin out.

****
{On the bench outside, Yeonjun had called Chen, Soobin told everything to Sana, she was crying, she hung up and told him that she would murder him if anything bad happened to Y/N. Meanwhile Chen now raging like a bull saw Soobin...}

"Where is he" he asked.

Soobin saw him, he stood up, guilt stricken, in his eyes you could feel he loves her. Chen now approached him.

"Chen i-I..."

"Paw"!!
"Paww"!!

He slapped Soobin, right across the face 2x. He grabbed his collar.

"She loves you you bitch, what did you do to her, huh"!! spat Chen.

"I.." he couldn't utter a word.

His face was stinging, then Yeonjun walked towards them.

"Hyung, it's okay, just pray that she gets better" he said glaring at Soobin.

" I'm sorry for punching you, I thought you hit her, I didn't know you were Chen's friend who helped her out. I'm sor-ry" he said crying.

Yeonjun left as he had to change. He just sent his farewell to them. And left to go home. Meanwhile the operation wasn't so good, they needed blood donors. Chen volunteered his blood and Y/N was saved after losing tons of blood.

****
"After 1 month in coma"

"It's okay, you can slowly move your hand miss" said the nurse who had been treating Y/N.

Soobin was outside, he didn't go inside. After 1 month of not seeing her move, half dead, he waited. He even made video tapes, to show how he would always be waiting. He loved her very much. The nurse stepped out of the room.

"Mr Soobin, you can come in now".

"Thank you ma".

Y/N had suffered haemorrhage severely, she had almost fractured her head. She had 2 heart attacks and once couldn't breathe at all, she was fighting for her life within that last month. She wanted to see him at least one last time, but she was grateful that she was alive.

"Hey" he said slowly placing his hand on hers.

"Mm-..." tears well down her eyes, she was as pale as winter.

"I'm sorry, I swear to you, I'll never hurt you again, I'm a jerk, I'm a fool, i-..." Soobin cursed himself in tears.

She gently pressed his hand. Chen burst in.

"Y/N-ahh"!!.

He went towards her, visibly crying while she smiled. He held her other hand and slightly beat it.

"How could you leave your best friend huh"!!

"S-soory"

She still had difficulty talking, she was doing it on purpose. She didn't want to speak to Soobin. She was just hurt and couldn't take chances.

"Thank God, Yeonjun saved you"

"He sav-ed me"?

She started to cry, softly. Soobin just excused them. He called Sana and told her everything. While in coma, Sana video called Y/N and cried to her, Soobin taped all these. Even at home, he called it "A sad life without Y/N". He had made 200 videos within that period.

"Chen what about work"!

Just then, Hyejin and Mr Wei came in, along with some other well wishers came to visit her, they brought her flowers and some other things. She felt loved, she was happy and grateful.

****
"After 1 week at the hospital"

{Soobin had stayed at Kai's apartment, he wouldn't go back to his home, his and Y/N's. He was hurt. Kai lived alone, he worked at "CreYatives" as an interior designer. Soobin was just a rookie computer genius for the company, though he worked in the shadows he earned a lot. He got a call from the hospital that Y/N had been discharged}.

"Where are you going"? asked Kai as he munched his chip loudly.

"Y/N".

"Tell her I also cared, you know she thinks I'm cold".

Soobin just smiled, his Ray of light was back.

"Oh, here" he said handing over a bag to him.

"What's inside".

"It's the tickets you bought, for your first date with Y/N. I helped renew them so that you could apologize properly to her, and .."

Soobin just cut him off by hugging him. Huening Kai just sighed.

"I owe you one man".

{Chen drove her home, she looked at the door, the memories flooded her head once more, how Soobin would call her miss strawberry shortcake in front of everyone, she swallowed her tears. Chen opened the doors for her}

"Home sweet home" she inhaled.

"Now you're making me miss my own house" laughed Chen.

The house was neat, as if he cleaned everyday. Her side was too neat, he made it so arranged. The tears fell out. Chen patted her back.

"I miss him".

"Hmmphh, I'm right here you know" said Chen pouting.

"I know" she laughed.

The door opened revealing a man, his hair was wet, the tee shirt hung closely to his body as if hugging him, a black bag was in his hand. He locked eyes with her. She felt like hugging him but she remembered that "they broke up" .

"How, have you been" he said keeping distance.

"The house is clean, you didn't miss your pig did you" she scoffed.

Soobin just held the tears, she still remembers them. Y/N just took a shower and eat noodles she made for "herself" and took her meds and went to sleep. She had called for a barricade inside their room, a curtain now divided their sides. He could see her shadow, and hear cries and muffles, he hated himself, this went on for a week until...

"Good morning Y/N" said Soobin as he flipped the last pancake.

"Hm, what's all that".

" Oh, I just wanted to have breakfast with you, if you want" he smiled.

Y/N thought in her mind 'so he got over it so fast, while I cry every night for him'. She frowned her face, about to go away when her tommy growled.

"Just come and eat" he laughed.

"So you don't even love me, you don't care about me, you're treating me like I was nothing" she said crying.

"Just eat up, you need time to shake it off " he said keeping his eyes on his food.

" You're so evil Soobin"

They ate in silence, Y/N was crying as she ate, the food tasted so good but the feeling was bitter. So he really used her. How could he not feel bad, or say I never meant those words.

"Mr Choi Soobin, thank you for this, but don't ever cook for me again" she took her plate and washed it.

Soobin nodded. When she had moved away, he let down his now bleeding lips, he had bit it so much that his pancakes were blood dripped. He threw it away, walking to Y/N he grabbed her hand.

"Let go of me"

She struggled with him, he let her hand go. She wanted him to kiss her, hug her. He just looked at her.

"Get lost Soobin"

"No, not today"

"You broke up with me you know"?

He just kissed her, she was hitting his chest, he gently bit her lip, she was muffling her tears. She kissed back unconsciously. He pulled away.

"I missed you"

"Liar" she said as she walked out on him crying.

Sana video called her.

"Y/N-ahh"!!

"Unni, how are you"

"I'm coming to Seoul with my fiance"

Y/N smiled at her, she was getting married to her fiance. His brother, In Jae.

"Congrats, talk later".

Soobin overheard, he was happy for his brother. While he messed up.

****
{There was a lady, and a man in a room.}

"Ma'am thanks for getting me out".

"So did you do it"

"No ma, a man stopped me, he is the reason I was in jail but I did take pictures of her behind"

"Good"

Mrs Nelly wanted to spread a scandal about this NY. That she takes indecent pictures. She fabricated the evidence and now she calls the shot.

*Breaking news*

"This is Nelly TV reporter Mina, the 'Night queen' who has made a rave over the internet gave a fan a huge service by kissing his cheeks, but someone caught her taking indecent pictures back stage.
This is not a good act for a ris--..."

"Don't watch TV" said Soobin blocking her view from the TV.

Y/N had seen the news, it broke her. She just wanted a hug.

"I need to go--..." She walks away when he grabs her hand

"Stay! Don't run away. Please, for me" he pouted.

She stopped and looked at him, the words he said to her which lead to her accident lingered in her heart.

"You're not my boyfriend so you can't tell me what to do" she said.

Deep down, she wanted to stay, yes, she wanted him to hug her, to kiss her, to tease her. Yet, she wasn't ready to give in to his love again. But..."

Author Nim
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