I'm perfectly sober
But hands shake like a smoker's
And it's not cause I drank too much coffee today
I have so many things to say
Though not all of them sane
And I just want to sit in the rain
And let the drops mix with the tears that won't come
Because my heart is numb
And I've cried for you too much
Screaming in pillows and such
All the stuff you do when you're in love
Not in love
Love
What is love
I think I've shoved
It all so deep down I can't feel it anymore
A chained gate, a locked door
And I know I shouldn't care
But you bleached your hair
And now I have a think for blondes
And your eyes are perfect ponds
Filled with the sky
The perfect blue
And the tears I won't cry
Are the same damn beautiful hue
But I can't tell you
And so it spills out from the cracks tight
In words I don't mean to write
But I've done it again, the pointless pain
This was supposed to be about coffee and rain