Mia's pov

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The sun was something I hated when the morning came because it was a daily reminder that my life is shit and I have to meet a bunch of horny teenagers in a building five days a week

But on the bright side, wattpad characters don't pay attention to school unless the main characters are in the typical storyline of being paired together to do a project

Cough Luna and Aelia cough

Atleast their love story was far from cliché, there's just something about the two of them that connects

But why wasn't my own life connecting?

It's 4:40am and the one person on my mind is my close friend. Yes a friend. She should just be a friend and not more than a friend. Just a friend.

I'm saying 'friend' too much aren't I?

Perhaps it's my brain trying to convince itself that she should just remain as my friend but God it's becoming so hard.

Why can't I just throw myself to Chad and get my life over with? I've always had a crush on him and he's finally noticing me. But why can't I shake her out of my thoughts?

Yesterday was the most fun I've ever had. After a shitty start to my day, she came and finished it off with a bang. Crashing an open house and a small kid's party then meeting the one and only Alexis and Hayden, authors of one of the best selling books. I swear, she just manages to bring out that side of me

It's so weird how much I'm so comfortable around her, I've never allowed myself to let down my walls with anyone, yet Dani manages to walk right through them

But I can't. I just. Can't.

She's my friend and I'm going on a date with Chad. That's it, that's how it has to be.

What the heck would my mother even say if she found out I had a small crush on a girl?

They'd go all crazy on everyone, she's already pressuring Zack to marry a woman. Lastnight before I went to bed, I heard her sneak a girl in the house just to introduce her to Zack.

Of course my brother was uncomfortable but he still talked to the girl because it was the polite thing to do, he also knew the lengths our mother would go to if she didn't get her way

The world we live in is confusing and fucked up, sometimes we don't get what we want and we have to live with that for the rest of our lives.

I just have to give up my own hope, I have to. Although she may be crazy and a raging homophobe, she's still my mother. She's supported her entire family without the help of our father and I'll always respect her for that. The least I could do was put aside my stupid crush I had on Dani and bring home a guy so my mother could smile.

That sounds so dumb, it truly is. But what else was I supposed to do?

I don't know what Dani wants with me or how she feels, I can't read people. I'm not a drama channel looking for clout.

But even if she did feel the same way, what happens then? We date behind my mother's back?

It would just be unfair to Dani, she's such a confident person which is the complete opposite of me.

I don't want her to feel left out or like I'm uncomfortable with her. She deserves to have that girlfriend that's not afraid to hold her hands in public and kiss those tempting lips whenever she wants. Dani deserves better, I don't want to hide us if we did decide to be together.

She deserved my whole heart and that was something I couldn't give.

Well, not right this second. Until my mother realizes she's wrong or until I move the heck out of this place

"Girlfriend" I chuckled to myself

To be her girlfriend, damn that's a first. I've never actually been in a relationship with someone before. Well, I wouldn't call them a relationship

In this day of age, we don't like to say it but we're afraid of commitment. To give your entire time and energy to someone was hard, especially when you're insecure about everything about yourself.

To find that trust in someone that's going to be there, respect you and give you distance when you need it but give you all of the attention in the world was enough to drive someone crazy. We ask for too much and receive too little, that's why we just talk to people without getting deep into their feelings

Maybe it'll all turn out differently with Chad, I can't wait for our date on Saturday. Maybe we'll go to the movies and watch some scary film which Dani knows I hate-

Chad. I meant Chad.

He'll buy a large popcorn and we'll lean against each other, she'll put her shoulder over mine and pull me closer. Showing her perfect teeth and those small freckles on her nose that were almost invisible to those who didn't pay attention to Dani-

Oh for fuck sakes.

I groaned to myself and wrapped the towel around my waist, sliding my fingers through my hair and wrapping my wet hair into another towel. Dani offered to give me a lift to school at 5am, that's literally so sweet. I had no idea why someone would want to wake up that early just to take a friend to school, I simply could have ordered a car. But I honestly enjoyed her company.

I stared into the mirror, seeing my tired coffee brown eyes stare right back. The exhaustion on my face was visible from miles away

I was so sick and tired of constantly having to fight myself and my thoughts.

There was always that bad butterflies that swarm my stomach everytime I forced myself to stop thinking about her.

The way her small dimple would appear when the corner of her lips would curl into a smile, the way her pupils would dialate when her eyes ran over my neck. It was weird but I found it fascinating.

Then there were the crazy aspects of Dani that never failed to make me laugh. Her confidence was something I was highly attracted to, the girl could walk into a room and blow out a light bulb because she was the light of the room.

But then there was the sexual tension between us that drove me crazy, the way she would inch closer when she stood in front of me, trying to close a gap that I refused to give into. I'd always chuckle and walk away, avoiding our chests being pressed against in each other but in all honesty, I wanted her even closer.

The way the tip of her fingers would brush against my forearm in class would leave a trail of goosebumps wherever they went. I had to shut my eyes, bite hard on my bottom lip and control my breathing became the feeling I received from her was that intense

She wasn't a touchy person but for some reason, Dani always had her hands all over me. If we're casually sitting at lunch with everyone else, her hand would somehow grip my thighs.

At first I didn't think anything of it, but when they started to inch higher and higher, my breath would hitch in my throat and I'd melt into her. But I'd remove her hand before anything actually happened and she respected that, most of the times.

So here I was, half naked in my bathroom thinking about Dani Slavic. The girl I was desperately trying to lose feelings for but can't get off my mind.

"You know, if that towel isn't holding you tight enough, I could step in and do the job" A familiar voice said

Panic shot through my veins and my eyes went wide, snapping my neck in the direction of the bathroom door to see Dani standing right there

"Oh my God, WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE" I hissed and wrapped my arms around my chest, hiding any exposed skin she could see

Dani's back was pressed against the door frame and her arms were crossed, a smirk appeared on her lips while her tongue ran over her slightly longer and sharp teeth that looked like fangs, I always called her a vampire because of that, her eyes ran down my toned body, bringing a red stain to her face

She had on a black sweater but it was crossed and exposed her toned stomach with a high waist jeans attached to vans. Her short, dirty blonde hair hung freely above her shoulders

"Your mom let me in" She said in a low voice, her eyes still running over my body

"WOULD YOU GET OUT" I hissed

"No" She pouted

"What the-"

"You look beautiful" she said sternly

I furrowed my brows, confused by the random compliment but my cheeks still managed to sting an even brighter red

"Oh... Thank you" I mumbled

"Can I get a hug?" she smirked

"No Dani"

"Then do a nipple reveal" she snickered

"GET OUT"

"but I just got here" she pouted

"And I'm naked" I said sternly

"Honey, I'll be seeing you naked on our wedding night" she chuckled, my eyes went wide

"Oh?"

"Yes. Oh, I'm going to take you to Bora Bora and we'll swim with the fishes" she said

Usually when someone tells you they'll take you on vacation, you'd smile but in this case 'swim with the fishes' meant she wanted us dead

"You're weird" I chuckled

"You're weirder"

"Says the girl that's standing in my bathroom" I groaned

"I came for a show" she smirked

"Oh for fuck sakes"

"Just pretend I'm not here" she laughed

"I... Have to put on my clothes Dani" I mumbled

"Oh, right go ahead" She snickered

"Daniiii"

"Fiiinneee, fine. I'll go in your bedroom, but don't keep my waiting. My kitty gets cold when you leave her out too long" Dani smirked

"Oh my God Dani!"

"I'm kidding, I'm kidding" she chuckled and held her hand out in defense

"But I do have something for you" she said, I raised a brow

"What's that?" I questioned

Dani smiled and reached out the room before coming back in with her hands behind her back

The girl walked closer and with each step, I could feel my heart race a little more.

Her smile was one of the most beautiful things I ever laid my eyes on, some people had a smile that made you feel good inside, but Dani had a smile that made all of your emotions explode into one.

I felt frozen in place when Dani stood before me, her chest pressed against mine while my chin tilted upwards to look into those green eyes I missed

Subconsciously, I started to walk backwards since I always avoiding this position with the girl. But she walked along with me.

I stumbled against the wall with Dani's chest pressed against mine through my towel. My heart raced a million miles an hour in my chest as my brown eyes locked with her sparking green orbs

Dani brought her hands from behind her back to bring the flowers between our bodies

"Sunflowers?" I smiled

"It's your favorite isn't it? I remember you saying you really liked them during drama class, thought why not surprise you with them" she smiled

In that moment, I was captured. I was captured by everything called Dani. The way her skin seemed so flawless, the way her eyebrows rose a little higher than the other but most importantly, the way she was the sweetest person even when she's annoying.

I honestly can't believe she'd do that, there wasn't a flower shop around here for miles and they'd all be closed since its literally 5am, so where did she get these? Did she pick them on a hill? Either way I didn't care how she got it, I was just starstruck that she even remembered

"You.. You remembered that?" I mumbled

"Of course I do, I always pay attention to everything you say Mia" the girl said

That familiar burning sensation reached my cheeks once again, I'm pretty sure I looked like the definition of red

"Th-thank you" I whispered as I brought my fingers through the thick stems of the sunflowers

The fingertips barley brushed against hers, causing an electric sensation to run through my arm. I sunk my teeth into my bottom lip as I tried to recover from the feeling

"Don't do that" she whispered

"Don't do what?" I mumbled

"Bite your lips" she said in a low voice almost desperate

I furrowed my brows at her but subconsciously bit down again on my bottom lip, causing Dani to tilt her head back and groan.

"I'm sorry, I can't help it" I chuckled

Dani's eyes met mine once again and I noticed her pupils were wider than they were before. Filled with lust, I swallowed a lump in my throat when her face starting to come closer

She leaned down and I almost melted then and there, my heart pounded so hard against my chest, I swear you could hear it from the other room. Dani's lips were pressed against my forehead as she placed a soft kiss before pulling away with a smile

"Come on, you'll be late" she mumbled

I couldn't move a muscle in my body, I felt frozen in place with my heart still beating rapidly, a forehead kiss wasn't what I expected but I wouldn't refuse it anyway. I felt my heart flutter in my chest when the girl giggled

Remember when I said I had to lose my feelings for Dani? Well yeah, I'm fucked.

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A/N
It's been a while, I'm sorry 💔