Jimin's POV

'Kookie is calling'

It's been two days since I started ignoring his text messages and calls. I don't think I can face him. Not for now.

"Jiminnie." Hobi called me. I looked at himand offers him a small smile. I'm not mad at Hobi. I'm not ignoring him on purpose, I just don't want to talk.

"Are you going to School?" He asked me. I've been absent since our vacation that's why I need to attend now.

"Okay. Take care." I gave him a small nod and left.

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I headed to my next class but it was canceled. It's my last subject. I decided to go in our Club. I don't want to go home. I need to distract myself.

When I walked inside our Club room, they all looked surprise. I offer them a small and sincere smile and they smiled back.

"Oh! It's our Jimin." Chanyeol said and motioned me to sit down. I nodded and sat down beside Kyungsoo.

"Did you cry last night?" Chen asked me. I shook my head. He gave me a pointed look, "I think you did." He said half-whisper. I smiled at him cheekily.

"No, I didn't." I whispered back.

"You're so pale, Chim." Minseok says tone worried. I laugh dryly and cupped my face.

"Are you okay?" Baekhyun asked me. The answer was obvious but I nodded my head, I don't want them to know what happen.

"Stop asking Jimin. He looks okay for me. Don't stress the kid." Lay blurt out.

"Thanks for your concern, grandpa." Chen teased.

"Did you just call me a grandpa?" He asked annoyed but Chen just laughs at him.

"Just kidding, chill." Chen said tone playful.

"I need to eat, I'm hungry." Lay said pouting.

"Ew! Don't pout. You look ugly." Kyungsoo says tone harsh. I laughed at them.

"You look ugly too." Lay retorts back.

"Stop it. You're so childish. Why don't we just eat, my treat." Baekhyun says and their eyes lit up. They all nodded, agreeing to his suggestion.

Afterwards we walked outside the Club and as we walked towards the hallway, I saw Jungkook. I felt my heart clenches. I looked away and I acted as if I didn't saw him.

"Oh shit! It's Jungkook! Let's hide Jimin!" Chen said.

"Faster! Or else he will take Jimin away from us." Minseok said as he pushed me in the middle and all of them tried to hide me. They all manage to hide me and we all walk past him without noticing me. A smile spread across my face. I think they really want to eat with me.

When we walked outside the campus, Chanyeol suddenly break our silence.

"I am craving for a barbecue right now." He said and my eyes lit up and I raised my hand and mumbled a soft, me too. They all looked at me.

"Is that what our Jiminnie want? Sure." Lay said smiling showing his dimple.

"Thanks, Lay hyung." I said.

"What if Jimin doesn't want barbecue, will you going to agree with me?" They all shook their head except for Baekhyun.

"Seriously?!" He asked in disbelief.

"He is our baby brother here, Chanyeol!" Kyungsoo spat and he tiptoed to grab Chanyeol's hair and starts pulling it harshly. I started laughing because of what Kyungsoo did.

"That's right, just laugh. Don't be sad, Chim." Minseok whispered to me. I smile at him and nod.

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"Let's eat!" Chanyeol announce.

"Ahjussi! Your barbecue is the best!" Chen shouts at the old man.

"Of course, Jongdae."

"You know him?" Chanyeol asked glancing at Chen. The latter nodded glancing at Chanyeol.

"He's our neighbor before." He answered.

"Ahjussi—" The old man cut Chen off, "Fine. It's my treat to you all." All of us look at each other shocked.

"No, no, it's not what I meant. Our friend will going to pay." Chen cleared out, "But can we get soju for free?" He asked and Minseok smack his head.

"You are so shameless." Minseok spat.

"No, it's fine, I'll give you the soju for free."

"No, please. Baekhyun will pay." Lay said.

"It's fine." Ahjussi said as he placed the five bottle of soju on our table.

"Thanks, grandpa." Chen teased. The older man chuckles and ruffles the younger's hair.

"You're still the old Jongdae." He points out. Chen smiled at him cheekily. I grab the bottle and poured a drink on my glass.

Suddenly my phone vibrates. . .

'Kookie is calling'

I ignored his call again and place my phone on the table. My phone vibrates again and I heaved a sigh before I grab my phone. I looked at the screen and opened his messages.

From: Kookie

Where are you?

From: Kookie

Don't ignore my calls.

From: Kookie

Something is wrong?

From: Kookie

Jimin, stop playing around.

I turn off my phone and took a shot, then another shot again.

"Jimin, drink slowly." Chen said tone concern. I ignore him and continue drinking.

I poured another drink on my glass and took another shot. I want to forget everything. Why did he use me? Fuck! He played me! I want to erase all of it, I want to take him off my mind but it was so hard.

I'm drinking right now to forget but he's still playing inside my mind, I want to get rid of the pain. But it seems impossible.

Why do I have to feel this? I'm already happy before by just looking at him from afar why did I let myself, be part of his life? I want to go back in time when he doesn't have any idea of my existence, I want to go back in time when I'm still stalking him and there's no 'us'

"Jimin, are you okay?" Lay asked me. I didn't even notice that my cheeks are now wet. I'm crying again. I wiped off my tears using my hands. All of my friends are looking at me, expression concern.

"I'm okay." I said and I forced myself to smile. I grab my glass and drink again. They didn't stop me and just let me drink. They started to joke around again and I appreciate that they are acting as if they didn't see me crying earlier.

"Shit! He's here." Chanyeol said. I ignore what he said, pouring myself more drink.

I was about to drink again when suddenly someone snatched my drink out of my hand. I tilted my head, I was surprised when I saw him standing in front of me, face emotionless. He grabbed my arm and dragged me out.

I tried to protest but my voice won't come out. Fuck! His grip on me tightened and it's hurting me.

He opened his car and I tried to get away from his grip. I don't want to go with him.

"Leave me alone!" I shouted. Suddenly he let go of me and I stumble, I took a step away from him to regain my balance.

"I don't want to talk to you right now." I said while glaring at him. He was about to walk closer but I shook my head.

"I don't want to see you too, please just leave me alone." I pleaded. His jaw clenched, lips pressed ina thin line.

"Let me give you a ride home, Jimin." I shook my head.

"Not now, Jungkook! I don't want to see you! I don't want to talk to you! Just let me do what I want right now!" He is looking at me, face contorted mixed with confusion and sadness. I turned on my heels and wait for a Taxi. Luckily there's a Taxi stopped in front of me.

I took a step close and I opened the door but I was pulled back. I cursed under my breath when he dragged me towards his car. He pushed me forcefully inside the back seat and he closes the door harshly. I just watched him as he walked inside his car and settled himself in the front seat. He starts the engine and drive off. I pressed my eyes shut tightly, fist clenching.

"You're making it so hard for me." I whispered.

*_*_

When we arrived at my place, I opened the door and I hurriedly walked outside the car without saying anything. I clenched my jaw when he grabs my arm again to prevent me from escaping.

"Jimin." He called my name, my back is facing him. I feel like crying again, I blink my tears away and tried to calm myself.

"Jimin, look at me." He softly said, I sighed and I slowly look at him. He's looking at me eyes filled with sadness, "Jimin, what's the problem?" He asked me tone sad.

You. You are the problem, Jungkook but I can't say it to you, at least not now.

"Last time I checked we are okay. What's wrong with you?" He asked me again but I stayed silent.

"You can't keep on ignoring me! You have tell me what's wrong!" He shouted making me finch.

"Not now, please. I don't want to talk about it." He let go of my arm and I turned my back on him again and took a step away. I pressed my eyes shut when he reached out for my hand instead. Silence fell between us and we just stood there for a moment.

"Please," I pleaded and he let go of my hand and I walked away from him and went inside my apartment.

I headed toward my room and I locked the door. I let myself fall on the floor, tears falling silently.

Why it has to be him Jungkook? Why not me?

Taehyung is beautiful, I know we have a lot of things in common but I'm nothing compare to him.

I choked out a quite sob and I cover my mouth quickly using my hands, not wanting to let out any sound.

But because of him...

Jungkook noticed me. He asked me out, He asked me to be his boyfriend.

Should I just pretend? Pretend that I do not know a single thing about his first love? About his undying love for Taehyung?

Truthfully, I don't want to break up with Jungkook, I don't think I can.

But I have to right? Because if I choose to be with him, it will hurt more.