Jungkook's POV

"Jungkook ah, enough." Namjoon stopped me but I didn't listen, I ignored him and continue drinking.

All this time Jimin knew about Taehyung- he even stayed by my side even though he knew who Taehyung is in my life.

Why does he have to be selfless? He doesn't deserve someone like me- he deserve better.

"Stop drinking." Namjoon says. I cursed under my breath when he snatches my drink from me. I looked at him annoyed.

"Even if you drink right now, nothing will change." I chuckle dryly. Namjoon has a point. Nothing will change, Jimin won't come back to me. He left me for good. I tried to grab my glass from him.

"Stop it Jungkook, let's go home." I scoffed.

"Jimin isn't home! I don't want to go home!" I snap at him tone laced with annoyance. Then I saw how Namjoon's expression changes.

"You're a messed dude. I don't even know anymore what you really feel for Jimin!" He retorts, voice irritated. I didn't respond back to him and tried to get my drink again.

"Tell me, do you really love Jimin?" Of course I love Jimin. What kind of question is that? Jimin isn't hard to love, he makes me feel loved, he makes me happy.

"Or you just love him because he reminds you of Taehyung? It's different Jungkook ah." I fell silent for a moment. I arched my brow and looked at him with blank expression.

"Don't act as if you know what I really feel!" I spat. He's acting as if he knows me more than I know myself.

"You're drunk. Let's go home." He said calmly and grabbed my arm. I pushed him away. He doesn't understand me! No one understands me! I love Jimin is it hard to believe?

"Why don't you believe me?! I love Jimin!" I shouted.

"Because first, you used him! Second? Because you still love Taehyung!"

I fell silent again and looked away. I'm hurt right now to even think what I would feel knowing that he's back. I'm still not sure if Taehyung want to see me, I'm not sure if he regains his memory.

"If you want Jimin to come back to you then fix the mess you started before it's too late." I looked at him.

"It's not that hard, Jungkook. You just need to choose. It's either Jimin or still Taehyung, you choose."

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Namjoon gave me a ride home. When I entered my apartment I destroyed all of my things. I know throwing out my anger like this doesn't change anything but I couldn't help it. I'm angry. I'm mad at myself.

I shouted in frustration. I pressed my eyes shut tightly, fist clenching, trying to calm myself.

Sighing heavily, I walked over the couch and sat down.

Taehyung and I- our relationship ended three years ago when he got into an accident. Even though, three years had passed he's still the one inside my heart. When Jimin came into my life . . . at first, I admit that nothing had change. My heart was still calling out for Taehyung.

Flashback

Jungkook and Jimin's blind date.

"So-Sorry," Jungkook frowned and shifted his gaze to the smaller male's direction. His name is Jimin. Seokjin's friend.

He is biting his lower lip- he looks like he's nervous because he accidentally bumped the glass, causing it to feel. He looked up at the waitress and muttered a soft sorry. Jungkook smiled a little, he's cute.

The waitress looked at Jungkook, and the latter shifted his gaze to her and ordered a food. Jungkook notices that the smaller male is looking at him but he brushes it away. Jungkook don't want to give him false hope- because he knew, he loves someone else.

Silence fell between them. Then after a few moments the waitress brought their food. Jungkook couldn't help but to smile because the smaller male was smiling, eyes fixed on the food. Jungkook looks away and stared at his own food and when he noticed that Jimin isn't touching his food, he decided to talk.

"Jimin-ssi, Why don't you eat?" He asked not looking at Jimin's direction.

Afterwards, Jimin excused himself.

"E-excuse me, Jungkook. I'm going to the restroom." Jimin isn't comportable with him, their date was really awkward.

Jungkook notices that he barely touches his food. He also brought his things with him. Jungkook concludes that Jimin left.

Jungkook called out the waiter and paid the bill before he left as well.

Second Meeting

Jungkook excused himself to go in the restroom. He was about to walked inside when suddenly he stopped.

"I... I have a son, I'm a single mom, I need this work, please don't tell my manager, or else he will fire me." The girl reason out. Jungkook was about to walk away when he heard Jimin talk.

"Hey don't worry about it and oh thanks for helping me, Miss." Jimin says and for some reason Jungkook suddenly remember Taehyung. Taehyung is a soft hearted person, he's too nice and Jungkook calls him angel just to tease him.

"Take it, please. It's the least thing I can do. Take this so that you can get enough rest and I'm sure your son misses you. You should go home." Jungkook smiles. He's so kind, he thinks.

"You're so kind, thank you so much," She said, bowing.

"I-It's nothing...." Jimin paused, when he noticed him.

"They are wondering where you are, Seokjin asked me to check on you." He lied. He doesn't want Jimin to think he was observing him. Jimin just nods in understanding.

Jimin walked past him and Jungkook is just walking behind him. Jimin stumble forward that caught Jungkook off guard, he grabbed the smaller male by his waist and pulled him closer.

Jungkook is holding Jimin's small waist and shut his eyes tightly, Jimin is using Taehyung's favorite scent.

"Be careful." Jungkook said sofltly imagining Taehyung is the one he is holding right now. Jungkook was taken aback when Jimin pulled himself away from his hold.

"T-Thank you." He says before walking away.

Jungkook is drunk, and he is staring at Jimin. He misses Taehyung so much, and Jimin reminds him of Taehyung.

Jungkook took his time observing the smaller male and Jungkook could really see the similarities between Taehyung and Jimin.

"W-Why are you looking at me?" He asked.

"I am not looking at you." Jungkook reason out, he smirk when he saw the smaller male's cheeks heat up in embarrassment. He hung his head low, Jungkook placed his fingertips below his chin, tilting his head, brown eyes meeting his dark eyes.

"I can tell that you like me." He blurt out. Jimin eyes widened.

"N-no." Jimin says. He's stuttering because he is lying.

"You're stuttering." Jungkook point out chuckling, just like my Taehyung he thinks. He move closer invading Jimin's space.

"You're pretty cute, Jimin." He whispered in Jimin's ear. Jimin is cute- but Taehyung is beautiful, he reminded himself.

Jungkook kissed Jimin's neck, Jimin's scent is driving him crazy- Jimin is frozen on his spot and Jungkook pulled away eyes not leaving the smaller male.

"You're so heavy Jeon Jungkook!" Jimin says annoyed, Jungkook chuckles because Taehyung used to say that to him.

When they went inside the car, Jungkook slowly opened his eyes and noticed that the smaller was about to walk outside the car. Jungkook pulled him immediately and settled him on his lap, hands on Jimin's waist. He heard Jimin yelp in surprise. Without any hesitation Jungkook nuzzle his face in the crook of Jimin's neck.

"Jungkoo-" Jungkook shushed him. His index finger pressed on Jimin's lips.

"You remind me of someone, Jimin... and your smell is kind of addicting. Just like him." Just like my Taehyung.

"What?" Jimin asked but Jungkook cupped Jimin's face and sealed their lips together. When Jungkook kissed Jimin, he felt different- Jimin is not Taehyung but he loves the taste of Jimin's lips. Jimin's lips fit perfectly on his.

I did nothing but hurt Jimin. I didn't even think what he would feel once he knew that right from the start I'm just using him. That it was Taehyung, inside my mind whenever I'm with him.

I kept on ignoring him too in the past whenever Taehyung crosses my mind. I could still remember his pained expression when I ignored him. I'm so cruel.

I should have treat him better in the past, if it wasn't because of me- because I can't still forget about Taehyung he wouldn't have broken up with me in the first place. I should have been vocal about my true feelings for him and showed him that he's important to me when he came back to me again that night.

The only thing I want to do right now is. . . I want to explain everything to him. I want to express what I really feel. I want him to know that he means a lot to me.

I know what I did was wrong. I used him. But everything changes as time passed by. Everytime I'm with him, I feel like I'm slowly falling for him. That's why I opened my heart and let myself love again. I love him not just because of Taehyung. I love him for what he is- but there's one thing that still confused me.

I'm not sure if I don't love Taehyung anymore. I don't know how strong my feelings for Jimin. I waited for Taehyung to come back to me for three years. He's my first love.

Forgetting Taehyung is hard for me, but I have to choose- It's either Jimin or still Tae.

My phone suddenly vibrates. I pulled out my phone and looked at the screen.

Calling unknown number...

I frowned and accepted the call. But the caller is not responding.

"Who's this?" I asked, but the caller stayed silent. I was about to end the call in annoyance but stopped.

"Gguk ah," My eyes widened, I was surprised when I heard his voice. It's been so long but I could still recognize his voice.

"It's me Taetae." I felt my heart pounding fast. Taehyung called me. . . but why?

"I... I remember everything now." I fell silent for a moment. I couldn't believe what I heard. This is so sudden. I feel like my mind went blank.

"I missed you so much, Gguk ah... and I still love you." Taehyung regained back his memories and he came back because of me. I felt my heart stops when I suddenly remember Jimin.

I'm letting you go, I'm setting you free Jungkook.

I'm letting you go for a reason, so promise me that you'll be truly happy again- with him by your side.

So the reason why he left because he knew Taehyung wants me back right?

"I know this is sudden but I want us to talk, to set things right between us. I know you still love me and you never stop loving me." He says.

"Let's meet tomorrow morning. I will wait for you. Same place Gguk ah. The place where we used to go." The last thing he said before ending the call.

Now that Taehyung says he misses me and he still love me- I don't know what to feel anymore.