I woke up next to Nate the next morning, I nearly jumped but then I eased myself back down again. I carefully lifted Nate's arm off of me and got up, my mind was racing and I wanted more than ever to trust Nate. He's always been there when I needed someone the most. I took a shower and got dressed, when I went back into Nate's room he was just waking up,

"Morning B."

"Morning Nate," I say and crack a small smile.

"How'd you sleep?" He asks

"Good you?" I say back

"Good."

We spent that day inside, we cuddled and I slowly am beginning to trust him again.

Nate's POV:

Brooklynn just fell asleep on me, I carefully pick her up and bring her to my room, I lay her on my bed and cover her up. Her phone chimes on my nightstand, I ignore it.

I head to bed after that, tomorrow was Brooklynns birthday and I had a lot planned for us.

The next day.....

I woke up before brook did, letting her sleep in. I get up and go shower, then go make breakfast.

I hear footsteps as I'm nearly done cooking, I look up and see brook entering the kitchen, she locks eyes with me and I see her stop breathing for a moment, as if her breath hitched in her throat.

"Smells good," She comments smiling at me.

"It's almost done, thank you," I say to her.

She nods and goes to grab a cup of coffee, she sits down at the island as I finish cooking us breakfast. I hear my mom walk down the stairs and into the kitchen, she looked horrible and strung out.

Brook looked at her and her eyes were sad, I know brook loved my mom before the pills started and my mom loved brook a lot, when we were babies we hung out a lot, my mom babysat her a lot.

"Morning Nate and Brook," She says slurring a bit.

"Morning Kate (I cant find his moms real name anywhere so if you know it comment it and I'll change it)," brooklynn smiles at my mom.

"Morning mom," I say.

Things weren't the greatest but I still love my mother.

"You hungry mom?" I ask.

She nods, "Yeah sure."

I make 3 plates, we eat, then brook and I go get ready for the day.

I bring her to the beach for a peaceful walk, and so I can sing her another song I wrote,

"[Intro:]
Yeah sometimes
I feel like
(Feeling like I lost my mind)
Always close
But I never been to you
And then the next moment
It's like I'm running from you
And I'm sorry
My hearts supposed to be
But sometimes that's all I have
Forgive me
I feel lost in my mind
Yes, another pain in my head
I feel so broken inside
With memories I'm trying to forget
I don't feel like I used to
Matter of fact not even close
I don't feel right
Yet I choose to
To go to a place I don't know
Maybe I'm crazy
Maybe I'm not
I feel like I'm out of control
And God I need you
Right now
I never should've let you go
Now I'm just so out of control

[Chorus:]
And now I don't know who I am
This was never my plan
This is the way I was supposed to be
I took it out of your hands
I took a chance
But how am it supposed to see
When I'm blinded
When I'm broken
Looking for a way to escape
I can't find it
But then I'm reminded of your grace
Of your grace

[Verse 1:]
I thought I was fine
I guess not
If I was I wouldn't feel this way
If I was okay
And I was so perfect
Then why do I feel so ashamed
And I'm no liar in my head
Screaming I don't need any help
I say I'm trying yet in the air
I'm only telling lies to myself
I say I want answers
Complaining
I'm just looking for truth
And yes I got problems
Which I got 'em
I seem like I blame on you
It's like I don't know what to do

[Chorus:]
And now I don't know who I am
This was never my plan
This is the way it was supposed to be
I took it out of your hands
I took a chance
But how am I supposed to see
When I'm blinded
When I'm broken
Looking for a way to escape
I can't find it
But then I'm reminded of your grace
Of your grace

[Verse 2:]
Lord forgive me
I feel so cold
Living in the wrong
Yeah here I go
I don't want to cry
I don't want to show all the emotion
I got froze
I don't know how say this
Easy
But can I can I man me
I don't see me
I don't see the things I used to know
Swore to myself
Never let you go
Here I go
Pain again
Here I go
Plan retain
Acting like I'm fine
When in my mind I'm just breaking
Looking for a reason
Wonder why I'm breathing
Why did my momma had to die
Lord Jesus
I don't understand this
I ain't never planned it
My plan did never involved
We feeling trashed it
I feel like I keep falling down
Lord please help me up
I've had enough

[Chorus:]
And now I don't know who I am
This was never my plan
This is the way it was supposed to be
I took it out of your hands
I took a chance
But how am I supposed to see
When I'm blinded
When I'm broken
Looking for a way to escape
I can't find it
But then I'm reminded of your grace
Of your grace"

The look in her eyes as I rapped and sang was priceless and I wish that look lasted forever, I know it won't because she still has a long road ahead of her and to get over all that happened throughout our lives.

Next I took her to lunch, then we ended at a surprise party Keisha planned out at her house.

Brooklynn has never drank so much in her life, she looked happy for the first time in forever and I wanted that to last.

Around 2am Brooklynn passed out drunk on the couch, I cuddle up to her and fall asleep myself.